Enjoy chapter 5!
I groggily opened my eyes and saw Annie and Mikasa. I stood up putting a hand on my sore eye. I was going to get a bruise and she'd get a punishment. The atmosphere was tense. Annie and Mikasa were staring at each other. I felt someone holding me from behind. I look and Reiner and Bertholdt are there. I got a flashback from when we first met. Annie kicked Mikasa on the face and did the move she did on Eren and Reiner during training. I was surprised. Reiner picked me up bridal style and we all left Mikasa there standing angry. We all went to the boy's dorm and closed the door. Jean was in his bed, reading something when he shot up and got me from Reiner's arms.
"What happened?" He asks worried.
"No! Nothing, I-I'm fine!" I nervously say. I didn't want him to know…Out of instinct I get everyone out but Jean and told them the reason why she was doing all this.
"Oh so that's why she's been like this to you" Says Reiner after I fill them in.
"If she hurts you again I'll throw her to a titan if they attack." Said Annie. I laughed nervously.
"You should tell Jean (N/c), he'll see what he can do about this" Said Bertholdt. I thought about it for a few minutes and then realized he'd help me and protect me.
"You're right, I should!" I said as I got confidence to tell him. I made my way to the boy's dorm, open the door ready to talk to Jean, after all he is caring and he'll understand.
"Shh Jean…You wanted this didn't you? You dreamt of this, you think of me when you're with (N/c) I know you do…" I came inside the room and saw what I thought would never happen. I froze in shock and sadness. The pain was coming back and tears were drawing in my eyes.
Mikasa was on top of Jean, pinning him down on his bed. She was kissing and rubbing herself on his crotch area. "(N/c) it's not what it looks like!" Jean pleads. Fight. I look at Mikasa and she's staring at me with a happy look. She places her hand on his bulge. He obviously had an erection. She strokes it through his clothing and he moans.
"I can't believe this…we were going to get married…you said you loved me…YOU LIED! YOU CLEARLY LIED!" I said with a face full of tears and my voice breaking from the pain.
"(N/c) please wait!" Jean pleads once again and I run outside of the dorm. I want to die. I gave him my all. He fooled me. I walk away from the dorm and walk forwards. I didn't have a certain place to go so I just went forward. Tears running from my eyes, I couldn't stop crying yet I had a blank expression in my face.
I bumped into someone. I look up and see Eren.
"(N/c) what's wrong?" I passed out in his arms. I felt him hold me in his arms trying to get me to respond. I slowly close my eyes and a last tear came out from my eye.
"(N/c)! Answer me! P-please!" I felt Eren's lips on mine as he was trying to get me to breathe. I coughed and opened my eyes. We locked eyes and I cried harder than I did with Marco. This was the end of my trusting others days. I felt Eren hug me really tight. I grabbed his shirt and cried into it.
"E-Eren…" I say in between sobs.
"Don't speak, you're in a weak condition…I'll take you to Jean…" He says with the warmest tone I had ever heard THE Eren Jaeger speak in.
"No! Please…No…" I beg Eren as I look inside his beautiful aqua eyes.
"…Why not?" Eren asks, concerned as he looks at me.
"H-him and Mikasa…the-y" I struggle to say as I notice Mikasa was Eren's lover just like I was Jean's.
"They what?" Asked Eren.
"They were about to have sex as I was going to you guys' dorm…Mikasa was on top of Jean and she was pinning him down on the bed…Mikasa gave me this bruised eye because she warned me if I got close to Jean she'd beat me up…which she later did and now this happened…" I say
Eren was upset, I saw a tear escape his eye. I placed my hand on his face and wiped the tear off. He hugged me tightly and I cried onto his chest and he cried into my shoulder. Eren's warm embrace made me feel safe.
"And to think I trusted him…gave him my all…just to see this…Eren. Please just kill me…I don't want to live like this anymore. This pain is just too much" I struggle to say. Eren lifts my chin up and looks at me in the eye.
"Don't say things like that…we'll get through this…together. If I were to lose you I don't know what I'd do. Come here" He says as he hugs me. He was warm and I liked it. We both stood up and made our way to the dorms. We held hands and we were ready to go.
"Ah! Jean! You're so good in bed!" We both heard Mikasa moan out loud. I felt a blade through my heart. I look up at Eren and he places his hand on my cheek. Whispering "It'll be okay…" I smile at him. We both hold hands as Eren pushes the door open. When we're in we saw Mikasa having furious sex with Jean. Eren was disgusted and so was I.
"Mikasa?!" Eren asks acting surprised.
"E-Eren wait… ah-ah I'm about to com-e I didn't know J-Jean was so good at th-this" Mikasa says as she practically comes as she humps Jean for the last time. I look away and Eren caressed my hand with his thumb.
"Jean how fucking dare you?! (N/c) is heartbroken! You promised her all this shit and now you're fucking someone whom I thought was my lover?" Eren yells at Jean.
"IT WAS FORCED SEX! She forced herself onto me. She fucking raped me Eren. I tried to stop her. Then (N/c) came in and saw everything. I'm sorry" Jean says as he looked at me in the eye. I don't believe him. I want to, but I can't. I look down as more tears come out from my eye. Jean stood up and tried to approach me but Eren wouldn't let him lay a finger on me.
"Don't think of laying a finger on her. Not anymore Jean" Eren says.
"Hey baby come on let's go, I'll give you a nice time too. This relieved my pain from Annie's fucking kick." Mikasa said to Eren. This was a different Mikasa. He pushed her away making her fall on the ground. I didn't know what to do. I was shocked and heartbroken. The pain I felt was horrifying. I fell hard on the ground hitting my head. Didn't move a single hair. Eren quickly came to my aid and tried to revive me, once again. His soft lips against mine, desperately trying to get me to respond. No answer. I could feel Eren's tears on my face as he was now crying at what Mikasa had caused. He tried to get me back once again, this time it worked. After he revived me he seemed happy for a second then held me close to his chest.
"Eren don't touch her like that…" Jean said on the verge of tears.
"Unlike you I care about her… (N/c) We'll get through this." Eren says trying to reassure me. I stood up. All 3 of them stared at me. I walked straight out of the room, I couldn't handle this pain much longer.
"(N/c)!" Both Jean and Eren call out to me, I simply ignore them and walk off. I'm done.
I walked far until I reached a lake. I walked for what seemed like hours. I sat by the edge of the cliff it had. The view was beautiful. I reached for a flower and started picking at it. It smelled wonderful. Tears were running from my eyes and I couldn't stop them. Everything had been crushed. Thanks to Mikasa and her jealousy over my happiness with Jean. Everything I had was now gone. I felt as if I died, I wouldn't care anymore.
I felt someone hold me tight from behind. That scent. That familiar scent. As I turn around I get kissed. These lips were soft and too familiar. As I open my eyes I see Jean. I push him away. De ja vu.
"And just what do you think you're doing?! Haven't you done enough?! You got what you wanted from the very beginning! I'm at the point if I died I wouldn't care Jean! For fucks sake, do you have any idea how I feel?! How would you feel if Eren and I were fucking and you came in?!" My voice was shaky and I was still crying. Jean was silent and he just stared at me with his honey-brown eyes.
"Exactly" I say as I cry even more.
"Can I have a word?" He asks. I look up at him so he can see how hurt I am. I give a light nod.
"She raped me. When you left she came inside the room and pinned me against the bed. I yelled out for help but no one was around. She's stronger than me. You should already know that. When you came in she had her hand on my mouth and was touching herself with the other. You saw the rest. You should know I was in pain. I was planning something big for tonight (Name)…I understand if you see this in a complete other way, just please believe me. I love you" Jean said with tears filled in his eyes.
He sat next to me and we both looked at the starry sky and the bright moon.
"I want to believe you, trust me I do. I just can't Jean! I wanted to tell you of the threats Mikasa gave me and how she was responsible for my bruised eye!" I say as I embrace him tightly, he holds me there once again in his tender embrace.
"I would've done something about it…now you and Jaeger?" he questions me.
"He tried to bring me back 2 times today. I was in so much pain I fainted twice. He happened to be there at the time and he took care of me." I say back to him.
"I'm sorry this all had to happen…I'm only yours…" He says as he hugs me tightly.
"I'm sorry too…" I say back. I want to forgive him, I'll need some time. For now we both share a light kiss and decide to make our way back to the dorms. We were both tired and we knew it. We both get to the dorms and I put one of Jean's shirts on and take my skirt off, leaving me just in his shirt and my underpants. I had my own nightwear, I just didn't feel like wearing it. Before joining Jean in bed I go up to Eren's bed and shake him awake.
"Eren"
"Huh? (N/c)?" Eren groggily said.
"Thank you" I say as I give him a kiss on his cheek and caressed his face so he could go back to sleep. I went over to Reiner's bed and whispered.
"Did you get the things?" I ask him. He pointed to a bag on the end of his bed. I reached and smiled at the content. I got the condoms out and went back to Jean. I got in bed with him and he was really warm for a cold night like this. He cuddles me from behind and he purrs in my ear.
"I can't lose you"
"You won't, I promise." I say back to him. I get up for one last time and put the condoms inside my bag I had underneath his bed and we both drifted off to sleep, holding onto each other not wanting to let go. Part of me was still sad, but the other felt just right with him.
That was chapter 5 :o ((I'M SORRY MIKASA FANS FOR MAKING HER SUCH A MEAN PERSON. I JUST HAD TO PICK A FEMALE AND I DOUBT SOMEONE LIKE SASHA WOULD BE INTO JEAN. I DON'T MEAN TO HATE ON MIKASA.))