I must be shocking all of you with the quick update, but I had a burst of creativity. Thank you again for all of your kind reviews and for being so patient.
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Gibbs was confused. "Why did you pull away Tony? I thought...I just...look if I said something wrong last night..."
Tony couldn't believe what he was hearing. Leroy Jethro Gibbs actually sounded unsure of himself. He almost melted back into his arms, but the need to talk made him hold back. "You didn't say anything wrong Jethro. You actually, even in your drunkenness, said everything right." Tony smiled.
"One thing you said right is that we have to talk about things. It would be so easy for me to fall back into that bed with you, but I want us to talk before we do anything else because..." Tony stopped himself before he could say anything more. He wasn't ready to actually say the word love, somehow he didn't think it would go over so well at this point.
"Because what Tony?" Gibbs had a feeling that Tony was holding something back from him, but maybe he should try a little honesty first.
"Wait Tony, don't answer that. I'd like to say something first. I was serious just now when I said that I want to try to be different with you. Not just with you, for you. I would like to try not to push you away. So whatever you want to talk about, I'll do it."
"Really?" Tony was starting to think that he was dreaming this whole conversation. Since when was Gibbs willing to talk?
Jethro smiled ruefully. "Yes really, I know that I'm not the most verbal person you know, but I did a lot of thinking last night. You know, when I wasn't arguing with my cock."
Tony couldn't stop the laugh that burst out. "So since when do you two not get along?", he teased.
Jethro's blue eyes sparkled with mischief, "It is a rare occurrence, but you of all people are capable of turning him against me."
Tony's expression turned thoughtful, "What scared you Jethro? I've never seen you like that."
Gibbs sat at the table. "Like I told you, I've never done this before. I may have felt attractions to other men, but I've never acted on them. I don't know what to do. And I don't like not knowing what to do. I want you, but I don't know how to...do...that." Gibbs was floundering a little, and as much as Tony was enjoying seeing his usually unflappable boss out of his element, he threw him a life line.
"You mean sex."
Jethro laughed. "Leave it to you to get straight to the point. Yes, I mean sex. But it's not just that. It's a big part of my uneasiness, but it's not the only thing. Work has been my life for a long time, and I'm not sure how this will affect our team."
Tony sat in the chair next to Gibbs and pulled it close to him so he could see into his eyes. "Our team is our family. I'm not in a rush to share this with them simply because we still haven't exactly defined what this is, but they love us. There are a lot of things in this world that I'm not sure about, but I'm sure about that. They love us and they will support us. No matter what."
Gibbs could see the conviction in the younger man's eyes and he knew that he was right. Their family was would always have their six.
"You're right Tony, I guess I keep forgetting that we live in a different time now, when this kind of thing isn't as taboo as it used to be."
"What kind of thing is this Jethro? We keep saying 'this' because neither of us seems to know what to call it, but what's happening here, between us?" Tony needed to know what Jethro saw them as, because he already knew what he wanted them to be.
"Do we have to name it?" Jethro looked nervous. "Is that necessary? I mean, we're attracted to each other and I definitely want to see where that goes, but rushing to categorize it just seems...like a girl thing."
Tony's eyes opened wide, "Are you calling me a girl?"
"Jethro looked abashed, "No, that's definitely not what I said, I was just trying to say what I was thinking and maybe it came out wrong, but..."
"Jethro, stop." Tony smiled. "I get it. You're not ready to label us and that's ok. I have to admit that I would like to know where I stand, but I know you want me, and you're trying to let me in, and for now that's enough. Just promise me that we'll have this conversation again."
Gibbs breathed a sigh of relief, "I promise."
Tony smirked, "Now, about the sex."
Gibbs groaned and dropped his head on the table "I thought the emotional sharing would be the hard part."
Tony laughed, "Seriously Jethro, what has you so nervous? Is it just that you're still a virgin?"
Jethro's head shot up. "I am not a virgin!"
Tony's eyebrows went up, "Oh so you've had anal sex?"
"I HAVE NEVER..."
"And you've given blow jobs and hand jobs, oh you've even rimmed someone huh?"
"TONY!"
"Then for the purposes of our conversation, you're a virgin Jethro. You may have had plenty of sex with women, but you've never had sex with a man and those are some of the things that may be involved. You know, I've never done a lot of things either. The first blow job I ever gave was to you."
"You're kidding! But it was really good!"
Tony laughed, "Well thank you soldier."
The glare that Gibbs gave him just made Tony laugh harder. "Jethro, I just did what I liked having done to me, and I followed my instincts. I experimented and listened to what you seemed to enjoy me doing to you. It was actually fun."
Tony stopped talking when he noticed something that he had never seen before. It was something he never expected to see and something that he still wasn't sure he was actually seeing.
"Umm, Jethro, are you blushing?"
"Shut up DiNozzo!"