Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here

She knew it. All along, no matter how hard she ran or had strong she got, he would still be there. Ever since her father left, Sakura was able to be stronger like the woman like her mother wanted, but for what reason? Friends? What friends? Hinata, Shino and Kiba are hired to protect me and that's it. And Gaara will more than likely get bored of me and throw me aside like a used tissue. For her mother maybe? Not for her, she left, I wouldn't do that for a dead person, even my mother. For herself?

There was no point in being strong, Sakura was stronger and what happened? It was a Saturday and she locked herself in her room while her "friends" were busy. Hinata, Kiba and Shino were doing "business" with Tsunade and Gaara was off visiting his family. Sakura sighed and tucked her head close to her chest, nothing had changed. She was still a friendless, pathetic, ugly girl abused by her father. It didn't matter that he was dead, he was still able to torture her. No more... Sakura wasn't going to let that be her life anymore, no one said she had to use her strength to live, This won't be easy either.

When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there

Sakura unlocked the door with a loud CLICK and walked down the stairs slowly. The house was empty, an omen. Everyone would always be gone whenever she felt this pain, they'd wouldn't even know that it happened until her body was discovered. Sakura bit her bottom lip, she was alone since her mother was torn from her, but she wouldn't be lonely if she was with her again, there may be others there too. Maybe the boy who gave me my necklace, he didn't look healthy, maybe he died too. That reminded Sakura, she took out a notepad and a pen and started writing:

I know why you all were here in the first place so I'll tell you: I have no idea who killed my father, but I thank them. My father abused me in all ways possible, and the one who killed him wasn't the one who attempted a rape, my father was. The person saved me, so don't look for them. I also want you to know, I only have two things precious to me: my ragdoll and necklace in my pockets. I want to be buried with them. I'm sorry for causing you all so much trouble, but I can't take life anymore. You didn't do anything wrong, I did.
Sakura

Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down

The note seemed satisfactory, it was pretty frank, but the truth always was. Only one thing remained. Sakura left the note on the table, it'd be found there. Sakura rumaged through the medicine cabinet, but no one seemed to have any insomnia. Sakura silently cursed, that way would be the most painless. Then again, it'd only hurt for a few seconds. Sakura went into the kitchen and reached for the knives of varying sizes. One was sharp and rarely used, it was more for cutting tough meat than anything. Sakura gave a small smile, that's what it would be doing now. She pressed the knife against her wrist and saw a small trickle of blood drip down. Sakura took a deep breath and pressed the knife deeper into her skin. She knock on the door startled her, and Sakura dropped the knife on the floor with a gasp, no one was suposed to be home until tomorrow. Sakura dropped the knife with a small amount of blood in the sink and opened to door to see the blue eyed blonde who only days ago wanted to make her life miserable. Naruto gave a smile, which slipped off when he saw Sakura's wrist, "Sakura? What happened?"

Sakura noticed the genuine concern in his voice and answered hurriedly, "Was making food, and I was surprised, when you knocked." Naruto raised an eyebrow, Sakura's grammer was perfect all the time, so why now? Sakura gave a fake smile and let Naruto in, the latter of which noticing the lack of food for Sakura to be cutting. Sakura didn't notice Naruto's suspicions and tried to make some form of conversation, "So... what are you doing here?" When Naruto didn't answer, Sakura fell silent again. She rose again and turned away, "What do you want Naruto?"

Hunting you I can smell you - alive
Your heart pounding in my head

"Sakura, wanna go to the mall with me?" Sakura turned to the boy, expecting some smirk or grin to show that he was joking, but the blonde was dead serious. She thought for a second, death could come anytime and would come eventually, so postponing the event wouldn't mean that much, right?

"Sure." Naruto grrinned, then Sakura added, "Just let me clean up here." It would be awfully awkward for any of her friends to learn of what she was about to do, so it'd be better if they never knew. Sakura cleaned the knife and put it back in it's original home. She gave a small smile, then walked out the door with Naruto, headed towards the mall.

When the two arrived at the mall, Naruto immediately towed Sakura to the arcade, somewhere that never interested Sakura even as a child. However, for the sake of fun, Sakura played a little Pac Man and DDR. Sakura surprised everyone including herself by earning the all time high score on Dance Dance Revolution. Naruto believed the event deserved a celebration, so he paid for both of their lunches. Naruto got himself some Miso Ramen and Sakura said a strawberry smoothie would suffice. Both were silent while eating, almost as if a barrier suddenly appeared as they sat down at the table. Something was nagging at Sakura, but she wasn't sure what it was. Naruto spoke, "You know, most of the guys come to the mall with me a lot, but they never even get in the top ten in DDR, not for lack of trying though." Naruto sniggered, "When Neji lost, he looked ready to kill the machine, we all had to hold him back,"Naruto laughed.

Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down

"Hyuga Neji? He doesn't seem to be the type to act like that."

"Everything at school is an act for Neji and Skhikamaru both. Sure they act tough, but you should hear the things they say to their girlfriends when they think no one else is listening!" Naruto gave a grin then started to imitate the Hyuga's voice, "You know Tenten, I've never known anyone as beautiful and strong as you," Naruto then gained a high pitched voice, "Oh Neji!" Naruto imitated with a laugh. "Sasuke and I are the only two that really don't act any different away from school, other than the fact that what Ino and Sasuke do would be considered illegal at school!" Naruto gave another laugh and immediately turned serious, "Other than that, Sasuke doesn't treat Ino any different then at school, she's just the one who he sleeps with, simple. I don't think he'd actually care about anyone. Especially since-" Naruto cut himself off, apparently horrified by the secret he was about to so stupidly reveal.

"Since what?" Sakura asked, who was enjoying hearing about the secret lives of the popular boys, though she didn't really like Sasuke's all that much.

"Nothing. Forget I said anything."

"Naruto?"

"Listen," Naruto sighed, "I'm Sasuke's closest friend, and I promised him I'd never say anything, so just forget it."

"Tell me." Sakura ordered, unaware of the horrible truth she so oh so badly wanted to learn of.

Saving me, raping me, watching me

.:That Evening:.

Sakura walked home alone, dispite Naruto's suggestion to go with her. She wanted to think about what she heard, the words still rang in her head. Sasuke wasn't the only child in his family, he had an older brother. People would tell him all the time that his brother, Itachi, would be a famous Uchiha, and Sasuke would smile proudly. It was an unusually bleak day, Sasuke came home and saw everyone dead, with Itachi covered in their blood and laughing. Sasuke wanted Itachi to kill him too, but Itachi refused, saying that Sasuke wasn't worth it. Sasuke went to the hospital, but he often ran away, trying to find his brother before he got too far away, but it was too late. That's why Sasuke only has two goals: to kill Itachi and restore the Uchiha clan. That's why he has so many meaningless relationships; he's trying to spread his genes around. None of his girlfriends ever got pregnant, some called him lucky. To Sasuke, a girlfriend is someone who gets in your pants more than once. No wonder Sasuke was so heartless, he had it broken already. "Sasuke..." Sakura had more in common with the Uchiha than he knew; she also had her past, present, and future altered by single man, one she thought was her family. She knew what it was like to want death more than anything, but she didn't have his courage to continue living. Sasuke had to fix everything his brother broke, but he didn't whine about it. He was cold and distant, but that was to be expected.

Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down

"What are you doing out this late?" Sakura was interupted from her thoughts by a cold voice, only to have a hand pull her into the darkness of an alleyway. The same hand covered her mouth, keeping her from getting the people not in the alleyway, only a few yards away, to help her. Sakura looked up, her eyes adjusting t the darkness, and saw the one holding her was no one she ever met before, thought the headband showed her he was a Sound Ninja. She looked forward to see the same white-haired man from before. "We weren't propery introduced before, I am Kabuto, the second in command of the Sound Nijn and most loyal servant to Orochimaru." Sakura struggled against the man holding her, she kicked his shin and bit his hand but he never even flinched. Kabuto leaned in close, examining Sakura's face. "Such a pretty face, pity we have to make it ugly." Kabuto brought out a kunai and made a smooth cut across her face, the blood seemed to empower him. The man holding Sakura let her go, and Sakura only had half a second to say anything, which she passed up. Kabuto slashed at her again with the kunai, enjoying the red substance the gushed out. He slashed wildly again and again, becoming more savage with each drop of blodd exposed. Even when Sakura fel unconciousness consuming her, the kunai still cut into her skin.

.:The Next Morning:.

Sakura weakly opened her eyes, she was alone in the alleyway, the cuts on her skin still exposed. She pushed herself up and stub;ed back home. She leaned against the door for a bit, than opened it, falling onto the WELCOME mat. Sakura slipped back into the darkness, hearing one of her house-mates run towards her with a gasp.

Fearing you... loving you
I won't let you pull me down

Entoxica: I'm so sorry for the late update. First, we went to Costa Rica for a vacation, then it took me forever to write the chapter. Then, out internet went down, which was actually a good thing because the chapter was a lame-ass one about "Five ninja who enter a bar." So I got rid of it and started rewriting the chapter, with my bro interrupting me and the internet going down again. Now, here it is. I hope you all forgive me for not updating sooner (gives everyone cake) Please?