Rally does not own RFR but it seems she owns an attitude and is not afraid to USE IT! LOl, just kidding...
No matter what, I am still very happy with all the 'response' I'm getting, RFR fics don't tend to generate as much support as some other categories... but because of the 'mixed' reviews, and with all this suspense, hanging, and confusion going on... I decided to rush my update a little bit to see if the story would help clear itself up, sorry... the last chapter was a little rushed, and I will revise it visually for "easier" access... I'm not promising "easy" access just ... Accessible if you look close enough. Anyhow, I also added a disclaimer to the stories' Summary, because my writing style isn't for everyone... THIS is hardcore, and a tad bit complicated... so it takes a certain "Maturity" to appreciate all that goes on. That's why I rated it so highly "age-wise" ... My other fics are the ones I kick back on, while this... I turn up the DRAMA. LOl, but hey I promise it will all tie in together nicely by the end... IN A WAY YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE, so DON'T GIVE UP ON THE STORY... because you've made it this far in already and you just have to know how it'll all play out...
SHOUTING OUT TO:
redtape43: Thanks for the continuing support, and yes I too am still heart broken... We'll talk more later.
lola5: Yes, it would "seem" that way wouldn't it? LOL, I'm not trying to be a jerk really, I'm not. Well, it's not that I necessarily take "fanfic" 'overly serious,' because I know they're just for fun otherwise I wouldn't be here... Writing is fun for me, it's my release. And that's why I take "it" dead seriously. Writing is both business and pleasure. My real goal is to learn more about myself with each word I write. Some people don't share my views on it... how important it is to be able to express yourself. I've seen too many people just mess around and play games with what they write. Some people aren't that serious at all because they fail to realize that words do hold immense power... I don't know where you stand on that issue, but it's best to be able to find some kind of healthy balance between passiveness and obsessive fanaticism. So, what you said about me could be taken as a compliment or otherwise, I'm not sure... But, either way it makes me smile knowing you're still asking for an "update."
ItalHunni28: Yes, I think "ANGSTY" is a properly applied word in this situation. I would use the same one, that's why I changed my rating and category to "angst"... Thanks for "hanging" out... They'll realize it all right, but take the "LONG" way around.
Crizzy4RFR: Good eye, thanks for noticing... Randomness is hard to generate in the "context" of actually going somewhere with it. It becomes less "hectic" later, but it's almost like "clear chaos." LOl, just kidding... It's killing me the suspense is killing you... Thanks for checking out the story and for the "double take."
Purplereader: Thank you purple... I really believe you do get what this story is all about... Thank YOU, for having enough of an open mind to let the story touch you. That is what I write for. Thanks, for making my job worthwhile. Your support is "beautiful" to me... People often overuse and throw some words around all the time, but with you it actually means something special. You make that difference.
In addition to the "Open Invitation/ Open Door," This chapter could also be called "Shocking Ray," for good reason...
Look to your future,
do you expect to see
a vision clear of you and me?
Whether or not you're truly mine...
I want you happy...
IT'S GO TIME!
You belong, You belong, You belong
To no one else
You belong, you belong, you belong
To no one else, BUT ME...
You belong to me.'
"I thought you belonged to me... Ray,"
Ray fluttered his eyes open and stumbled back away from the window with a gasp...
He released a breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding in...
"No, no wait... what just happened here?
She did not just... I didn't just hear her say..."
"Wait, I need a few moments to comprehend all of this... What does it mean?"
'Ray, I think you know exactly what it means,
you're just not ready to admit it yet...
but you'd better be ready SOON. You can be such an idiot sometimes!'
Funny, how his inner voice/conscience sounded a lot like Lily's,
he rubbed the side of his arm knowing... on the word "idiot,"
Lily would've smacked him hard...
He could almost feel the bruise welding up...
He laughed and smiled at the thought...
Bruises wouldn't hurt as much as losing her though, of living a life without her...
He'd fight to keep her...
Lily Randall was his past, his present, and hopefully his future too...
Ray rolled his eyes...
"This has got to be some too good to be true kind of dream...
If it is, I don't wanna wake up ever!"
"God, this is Ray Brennan here. I've never asked you for much,
but please just once let this all be real!"
He just had to see for himself, so he approached the window once again timidly and looked in...
Yep, Lily was still sobbing where he left her last...
She was in a lot of pain and he could tell..
Now, Ray was never one to experience a touch of Schadenfreude, but those tears of hers could only mean one thing... And for that he was blissfully happy!
(scha-den-freu-de (shdn-froid) n.: Pleasure derived from the misfortunes of others. He learned that from Travis... see he listened to the Travi-Lama occasionally, with a passing interest... Lily used that word on him once and he just had to look it up or ask for help... That's where T-man came in... he was a pretty stand-up guy that Travis, when he wasn't trying to place the mack moves on his girl...)
His gurl... after all of this he still considered her his...
(My girl, my girl, my girl, talking about...)
'Okay, Ray no need to burst into song here... Get it together Brennan'
GET IT TOGETHER? GET IT TOGETHER?
HOW COULD I? WHEN, I just realized that Lily
feels the way I, well...
I wanna run, I wanna shout! I'd better be sure...
I'm gonna go find out RIGHT NOW!
I don't wanna keep on making the wrong assumptions...
I need to hear it all, the truth from Lily...
The truth will set both of us free...
No matter what it means...
Whether or not... it's true... At least I won't be stuck around in a La-la land of limbo
torturing myself with the constant nagging question...
WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN?
I'm finally willing to risk what I have to...
Ray bounded down the rest of the stairs with a renewed vigor, an almost child-like energy...The anticipation that comes with a genie granting your fondest wish...
He could hardly wait!
He placed his hand on the cold, steel door nob... which fogged up from his touch...
He took a deep breath and closed his eyes... HE WAS GOING IN'... with no cover...
On the count of
1... 2... and 3...