Chapter 3

Confessions and Promises

Alucard had worked tirelessly trying to convince his human master to join forces with Red Shield and offer them their services in order to kill Diva and her chevaliers. Two days had passed already and he hadn't been able to visit his new infatuation. His duties at Hellsing had kept him busy and his master had questioned him on his whereabouts. He was growing weary of arguing with the stubborn Sir Integra. She still held Saya to be as much of a threat as her sister and wouldn't be swayed. He walked the hallway in the Hellsing castle and ruminated on his options. He wondered if it would be possible to turn Hagi away from Red Shield and persuade Sir Integra to allow him to join Hellsing? But, where would that leave his loyalty to Saya? If she was killed, Hagi would be freed from his obligations to her, this thought brought a wicked to smile to Alucard's features. Could he lure Hagi away, when the time came, leaving Saya exposed to Hellsing's military? He decided he first had to be sure of Hagi's feelings for him, he had to be sure if Saya was gone, it would be him he would run to.

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Hagi had spent the last two days in agony, where had Alucard gone? He'd tried waiting in the park again, hoping for a visit from his dark lover, but there had been no sign of him either night. He sat on the ledge of his open hotel room window overlooking the city of London, the others were in the dining room on the lower level, but he didn't feel like joining them. He laid his head back against the wooden window frame and sighed softly. He wished he had some way of reaching Alucard, but he'd just assumed he'd come back to him each night. His loneliness had been harsh. He'd tried to get Saya to talk to him like something other than a simple servant, but she hadn't been very receptive to him, as usual. Now he questioned why he stayed by her side, why his loyalty to her was so strong. But, he was her chevalier; it was the only thing he'd ever known.

The young vampire left the window and went to lie down on his bed. He closed his eyes, maybe if he could sleep, he'd get a temporary reprieve from his loneliness and aching heart.

Hagi woke to the feel of something pressed against his lips, his eyes shot open and focused on the reddish brown eyes of Alucard. When he recognized the figure looming above him, he lifted his arms and forcefully pulled him down on top of him. Hagi kissed him fiercely, he'd wanted so badly to feel this vampire's touch again, and now, his wish was granted. He felt Alucard's long lean body moving against his and the elder vampires hands roaming his sides. "Where were you?" Hagi asked through deep breaths when Alucard's lips left his to explore the young vampire's neck.

Alucard stopped his attack on the soft skin of his lover's neck and lifted his head to gaze into his face. "I had something to take care of, I told you," he tried to explain. "Did you miss me?" he asked. He watched Hagi's expression change as pain showed in his features. Hagi turned his head and looked away. "What is it? Why do you turn away from me?" Alucard demanded.

Hagi's head screamed with things he wanted to say, ask, and confess. But as usual his fear kept his mouth shut. It was easier for him to remain silent than to let his emotions take control and make him say something that could be used against him, something he could be teased with.

Alucard saw him shutting down, but this time, he knew he'd almost gotten Hagi to open up. He had to find out what was going on behind those beautiful eyes with the heavy lids. "Hagi, please talk to me, I want to hear your voice, I want to know you, not just your body." He pleaded.

Alucard's words gave Hagi the confidence he needed; he turned his head back to face his lover and gazed determinedly into his eyes. "W-Why were you gone so long? Don't you know I was afraid you wouldn't come back?" he questioned, his voice growing heavy with emotion as each word poured out of him. Tears stung his eyes; it was very difficult, what he had to say. Confessing his fears, his innermost thoughts to this vampire who he'd quickly come to rely so much on hurt. "I-I don't want you to do that again, I want you to stay with me tonight, don't leave, please don't leave," he drew him close and held him tightly as tears escaped down his cheeks. He'd never spoken words like that to anyone, never actually felt that way about anyone. But to think the elder vampire would come, pleasure him and leave again so quickly was just not acceptable to him tonight.

Alucard held his lover and was shocked by the outpouring of emotion he witnessed. He decided to push much further, "Hagi, do you love me?" he asked. He heard the young vampire's breath hesitate. He knew his feelings for Hagi ran deep, it had been over a hundred years since he'd felt this way about anyone, and they were human, a relative of his current master. It was a promise made to this human a long time ago that held him captive to the current leader of the Hellsing organization. He always kept his promises. He realized he had yet to get a response to his question, "Do you love me?" he asked a second time. Then he heard Hagi utter a strained answer.

"Yes," Hagi finally responded. He had to think about his answer, it was obvious he felt this way, but saying it out loud was almost unbearable. He buried his face deeper into Alucard's neck.

"Don't you want to know if I love you?" Alucard asked gently. This creature was so strange, it would be natural for Hagi to ask the question himself, but he didn't. He just seemed content to give his answer and leave the rest unsaid. Just as Alucard became certain he would not hear another word out of Hagi's mouth, the young vampire spoke again.

"Please tell me, if you love me," Hagi implored. He almost didn't want to know the answer to that question, what if Alucard said no? But why would the elder vampire bring up the topic if it wasn't how he felt?

"Of course I do, Hagi, I love you. I've loved you from the second I set eyes on you, that is why I couldn't kill you that night and why I'll always come back to you, why I'll always stand by you," Alucard confessed. He felt Hagi's hold on him grow tighter still and was surprised to hear soft sobs come from his lover. "Does it make you sad to hear me tell you that?" he asked, confused.

Hagi sniffled before he replied, "No…I've just…never been loved before, no one has ever…said that to me," he divulged. He didn't understand completely himself why the words caused him to weep. Maybe it was just years and years of loneliness finally peeling away, the thought that maybe his long wait for a true partner was finally over. Maybe it was for the loss of realizing he'd never gotten this from Saya, she would never be this to him as he thought she would.

"Not even your master? Does she not love you?" Alucard questioned.

Hagi felt like Alucard could read his mind, "No, not the way you do, I am only a servant," as he spoke the words, he knew them to be absolutely true.

Alucard smiled, Hagi was his, only his. Now he had to find a way to break Hagi's loyalty to the female vampire. "Hagi, I am your servant," he said softly as he pressed his lips against his lover's. Hagi's response to his kiss was instant, like a switch had been flipped on. Alucard felt his lover's hands roam his body and his hips urgently press against his own. Now that they'd seemingly pledged themselves to one another, Alucard wanted to consummate their relationship. He lifted himself sideways and allowed Hagi to explore his growing hardness. He felt Hagi place his hand on him and rub sensually over his pants. He moaned and pushed into the sensation. He felt his fangs start to pulse as his desire deepened.

Somehow, Hagi had found a way to break through a portion of his passiveness. Maybe it was the tender words Alucard had spoken to him. Maybe it was how the exposure of his emotions and feelings to his dark lover had been treated with dignity. He didn't dwell on it at the moment; instead he enjoyed the newfound freedom he'd allowed himself. He let his hands go where they wanted, he broke partially free of his emotional bonds and let himself pleasure his lover without being coerced. As he stroked Alucard through his pants, his own arousal overtook him and he found himself needing attention, "t-touch me," he pleaded.

Alucard was pleasantly surprised by the forcefulness of his young vampire. He happily obliged as he broke away from Hagi's insistent kisses, opened his younger vampire's pants and licked his own hand, soaking his palm. He plunged between Hagi's legs and stroked him steadily. He felt Hagi twist beneath him and his breathing quickened. "Hagi, I have something new I want to do," he whispered huskily through his exposed fangs.

"I'll do whatever you want," Hagi admitted, running his fangs lightly across the soft skin of Alucard's neck. His hunger was increasing rapidly; he was finding every part of his body sensitive to Alucard's touch. Hagi gasped as he felt Alucard's hand leave his hardness only to lightly tap on his chest as his lover unbuttoned his shirt. His bare chest shivered slightly from being exposed to the cold of the room and the sense of lips and sharp fangs grazing the skin. He felt Alucard leave him and fear gripped his heart for an instant; why was he so afraid of him leaving? He opened his eyes and gazed at his lover standing next to his bed, hastily removing his clothing. He watched in fascination as the fabric peeled away to smooth pale skin, a long and lean body.

Alucard lifted himself off Hagi so he could undress. As he disrobed he saw Hagi watching him, his expression turned from curiosity to lust as Alucard removed the last piece of clothing. He leaned over Hagi and locked onto his eyes as he lifted his torso and removed his jacket and shirt. Then he lay his lover back down and carefully removed his shoes and socks. Alucard finally turned his attention to Hagi's pants; he gently prodded him to lift his hips as he slipped the black trousers down and off. Then Alucard lowered himself onto Hagi's naked body.

Hagi gasped as he bathed in the skin-to-skin contact and delicious blood that flowed beneath it. He wrapped his arms around the elder vampire and just held him for a moment, loosing himself in the sweet bond. Then slowly at first, his passion took over and he began sucking and nipping at Alucard's neck, pressing lightly at first against his bare hardness.

Alucard relished the feeling of his young lover against him. He closed his eyes and let all his senses take Hagi in. He began moving in time with him as his thrusting became more urgent, taking friction from Hagi's abdomen. He let his lips wander the translucent neck and allowed a fang to gently pierce Hagi's skin so only a drop of blood found his mouth. He let a wave of hunger wash over him as the red fluid dissolved on his tongue. It drove his need and he urged his fingers into Hagi's mouth. He felt his lover suck on his digits, wetting them as they probed. Then he reached down to Hagi's behind and caressed the smooth skin briefly before focusing his attention closer to his center. He felt Hagi lift his leg so his reach could go deeper as he placed the slick fingers around his lover's entrance and circled.

Hagi moaned loudly, this was an entirely new sensation and he enjoyed it, he somehow wanted to feel more. He found himself involuntarily moving downward to increase the pressure he felt there. Then he gasped as the finger entered him and explored, finding a spot that sent Hagi into near hysterics. He panted and thrust his hips wildly into Alucard, his teeth found flesh and he bit down hard. Blood rushed his mouth and he almost lost control if Alucard hadn't pulled out of him and gently, but firmly guided his fangs out of his flesh.

"Hagi, not yet," he said softly.

"What did you just do to me?" Hagi asked, his face flushed and confused.

Alucard smiled, "I knew you'd like that," as he positioned himself lower on Hagi's abdomen and raised himself slightly on his elbows. He locked onto his lover's ravenous eyes and placed his hardness at his entrance. As he slowly drove into him and found his sweet spot, he watched Hagi's expression turn to ecstasy. The young vampire's brow tensed and his mouth dropped open as his eyes closed. Alucard pulled out and drove into him again, harder this time, keeping his eyes on Hagi's reaction. Then he slicked his hand with his mouth and placed it over Hagi's throbbing hardness while he bent over and exposed his neck to him.

Hagi never even knew his body could feel like this. He shuddered with the continuous pleasure that shook his system. He felt like everything was on fire, he could barely hold on to the release that threatened him. He didn't even notice his lover's fangs thrusting deep inside his shoulder.

Alucard drank and possessed his lover. He shook with an intense desire. He felt his climax come on suddenly as Hagi poured his seed into Alucard's fingers. His body pulsated with voracious contractions as he surged into Hagi's body. He lye panting on top of his young vampire lover as everything slowed and the two tried to steady themselves.

"Don't go," Hagi pleaded abruptly, his voice anxious.

"I won't. Tonight, I'll stay here with you, Hellsing be damned." He stated with conviction. He felt Hagi's arms tighten around him. "Promise me something," he requested, as he remembered Sir Integra's plan for Saya and his own plan for his lover. "If something were to happen, if you were attacked, say, promise me you'd trust in me and let me protect you."

Hagi was confused, what was he talking about? Were they going to be attacked? Then he remembered the night they met, Alucard had mentioned he was sent to kill him. He'd never questioned it after what they'd done. He didn't want to do or say something that would keep Alucard from returning. "Why? Is there something I should know?" he questioned, growing alarmed.

"Just please promise me, I honestly don't know how I'd go on without you," he replied, shuddering at the thought of loosing his new lover.

The words worked their magic on Hagi, "Of course, I promise, I'd trust you to protect me," he said dreamily as he snuggled in closer to Alucard's body.