Nothing can stop this: by Kilta
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A whole month had passed. Nokoru was trying hard to find Idomu, the later disappeared after that incident at the toilet. Nagisa locked herself in her room, since the Takamura heir had traveled aboard, no matter how many times Utako tried to convince her that someday he'll be back, she wouldn't listen.
"We have to find him Akira, he still at his filthy game." Nokoru said staring at the clamp campus map that showed on the computer screen, working his fingers on the keyboards.
"That's mean he's still in the clamp campus, oh! If Takamura-senpai were here, it'd be easier to find him." Akira sighed sadly.
Nokoru stopped typing and sighed as well. He looked over Suoh's empty desk. "Suoh." Nokoru whispered softly and closed his eyes memorizing the blue haired ninja. He opened his eyes quickly when the phone interpreted his thoughts. Akira answered it. 'The students' complains are getting more and more in everyday.' Nokoru thought.
"TAKAMURA-SENPAI?" Akira shouted in disbelieve, startling Nokoru off.
"Where are you senpai? … When are you planning to come back? And why didn't you call us or write us a letter at least? We're so worried, senpai we miss you a lot, and it feels so empty with out you."
"Gomen, Ijyuin … I needed sometime to recover, I'm just fine so you don't have to worry about me. Tell me! How does it go in the clamp campus, and how are you all?"
"Just fine senpai- uh! Do you want to talk to Kaichou? Ok … wait a minute."
"NO! Ijyuin wait!"
Akira lowered the phone and gave an innocent smile to Nokoru. "He wants to talk with you, Kaichou."
Nokoru swallowed hard, he hated how his heart started to thump faster. He stood up and took the phone from Akira. Hesitantly he put it on his ear.
"Kaichou, I have something important to do." Before Nokoru could say anything, Akira excused himself and got out the room, leaving Nokoru to talk freely with the other boy.
"Ijyuin? Hallo."
"Hey … Suoh." Nokoru found his voice low and soft. He wondered why he was blushing right now.
"Kaichou! …"
"Nokoru … is just fine." Nokoru blushed more, then coughed and corrected his sentence. "I am not your Kaichou anymore … so you don't have to call me that."
"I'm sorry."
"When … when are you planning to come back?" he tried to say it calmly and carelessly, but what he really wanted was to shout at Suoh and order him to come back right away.
"I don't know."
"Um … Suoh!"
"Yes!"
"I … I … miss you." And he wasn't lying, but he hoped at least that this would bring his ninja back to him.
"No! … Please don't say these thin-"
"But I really do … you swore to stay by my side, didn't you Suoh?" His voice trembled and he couldn't stand it anymore.
"I failed you."
"No! You- … I … I forgive you, come home and let's forget about it ok?" Nokoru blocked his mind from everything. He just wanted to have his friend back.
"But I still love you."
Nokoru gasped, he didn't expect this answer, but with that answer he surrendered to the fact that Suoh would never be his friend ever again, he's still in love with him. "… Suoh."
"I have to hang up now, I'm sorry."
"No! Wait!" Nokoru called for him over and over but it was late.
'He's gone … Suoh is gone.' Nokoru sat on his chair still holding the phone, his eyes went blank, but that didn't stop the tears from falling down his cheeks. 'You can't leave me like this, … not after you-' he paused and hugged the phone close to his chest as he sobbed quietly. But he decided to not give up yet. He put the phone back, then turned to his computer and opened his email, and then he started to type…
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(Australia, 12:09 midnight)
In a Fancy hotel in Sydney, in a certain room a young boy lay on the large bed, he had been tossing and rolling in his sleep, it's not because he used to sleep on a futon, but it seemed that his dream wasn't a peaceful one, especially when the sweat covered his body. "Nokoru…" he tossed again and clutched the bed's sheet. "Nokoru!" he twitched slightly, his breathing was heavy and shaky.
"I was so scared…"
I didn't mean to scare you…
"Inside I was screaming begging, pleading … why couldn't you see?"
The love blinded me that I couldn't hear or even feel.
"Don't say you love me! I don't want to hear it anymore, I want this pain to fade away."
That's hurt me … your words hurt me a lot.
"It's enough … I don't want to see you anymore."
I can't stand the pain.
"Why did you do that to me, Suoh? … Why did you hurt me so badly."
I can't stand it.
"Why my words sounded like dust to you?"
I've got to expiate my mistakes.
"I thought I told you that I don't love you in that way."
I'm sick of hearing that, it makes me want to scream.
Nothing can change what had happened.
I'm sorry, Nokoru…
Suoh opened his hazel eyes and stared at the ceiling. He sighed heavily then sat up leaning his head down as he stared at the cover this time, which started to get wet by the tears that started to drip down on it.
"Why am I so pathetic?" He whispered then he released a sob as he cried. These nightmares were killing him slowly. He got off the bed and turned to take a look at that computer that settled on the small table in the corner of the room. He approached it, pulled the chair out and sat down pressing his thump on the button turning the computer on. He got a lot of emails since he left, and parts of the emails were from Akira.
Suoh typed his email address and his password then he signed in. He waited patiently for his email to open, and as usual there were a lot of massages, some were from Nagisa, Akira, classmates, and others. "Ah!…" Suoh gasped, his heart start beating faster as he stared at the newest massage that arrived to him, he read the sender's name ' 'Imonoyama Nokoru' ' he clicked on the name and waited, then the massage appeared.
Dear Suoh,
You didn't leave me any other choice but to surrender and tell you this, and be sure that I'll tell the truth, because I don't want to lie, especially about this kind of stuff.
I never cared about love, and I never though that one day I'd be having a love affaire with someone, that's why I wasn't so pleased when you confessed your feelings to me, and what made it worst was that you're a guy.
Would you believe it if I told you that in my whole life I didn't thought that one day a guy would come and tell me that he had a crush on me, so it was shocking, scary and weird for me. I'm sorry if I'm hurting you with my words but I'm telling you the truth.
Suoh moved his gaze away from the computer screen. He didn't want to continue and read that massage. He was hurt and afraid of what was coming next. He sighed and looked again at Nokoru's massage.
However, I was mad at you for a while, but not anymore, cause now I know it wasn't your fault. I'm not trying to say that because I want you back, but I am saying the truth and what I really feel.
A tear rolled down Suoh's eyes, he bitted his lower lip and continued reading the massage.
Suoh, since you've gone I couldn't stop thinking of you and I couldn't stop thinking of that night when you loved me, you were gentle Suoh, so gentle that it was so unfair to think of you as a rapist.
Would you give me a chance to try and love you? It is first to me as I told you and I'm confused. Come back and we could start dating if you want of course, and who knows, maybe I really do belong to you.
Don't make me wait for you forever … please!
And I miss you so much.
Yours truly,
Imonoyama Nokoru
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Suoh read the massage ten times and maybe more. It was amazing how Nokoru had that affect on him, because Suoh couldn't stop blushing, Crying, smiling all in the same time, but he was truly happy.
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(Japan)
Nokoru entered the council room. He walked lazily towards his desk. He stopped on the few stairs when he yawned loudly, then he continued up and sat behind his desk. He didn't have enough sleep yesterday, he just stayed online waiting for Suoh's reply, but he got nothing from the blue haired teenager.
He rubbed his eyes and blinked few times, his eyes didn't want to obey him and stay open. "Damn!" he cursed and surrendered to the drowsiness and laid his head on his folded arms that rested on the desk, but he opened his eyes when he felt something underneath his arms. He lifted his head and looked down at the letter that settled on his table, he took it and examined it carefully before he opened it.
Dear Imonoyama Nokoru-kun,
How are you? I bet that you had missed me. All right I have no choice then. Meet me at the clock tower, you know the place, today at seven thirty in the morning.
Waiting for you, lover.
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Nokoru gritted his teeth and clutched the letter. He glanced at his watch, it's seven twenty, there's only ten minutes left he don't have time to wait for Akira. He has no choice but to do it alone.
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When he climbed the last stair he bent down, his hands rested on his knees as he panted tiredly. Climbing that long stairs was so exhausting. He reached the door opening it carefully and got in that secret room. "Show yourself!" Nokoru called with steady voice, and he could hear the low chuckle that he knew so well.
"Nice to see you, Nokoru-kun." Idomu said as he appeared from nowhere, "I should admit it, I really miss you." He walked towards Nokoru with slow steps, and Nokoru glared at him.
"I won't let you destroy our students, Idomu-kun."
"Really?" he held Nokoru's chin up and brought his face closer. "Do you have any … clues?"
Nokoru frowned and slapped Idomu's hand away, then walked passed him to stand beside that small window. "I'm sure I'll find one so soon."
Idomu stared angrily at Nokoru's back and walked to him with fast angry steps. "UH!…" Nokoru shouted in pain as his arms twisted behind his back by strong hands. Idomu pushed him forward out the window and he forced Nokoru to bend down and if only Idomu let go of Nokoru's arms the blond would fall down.
Nokoru stared down with widen scared eyes, everything looked small from up there, if he falls he'll shattered into hundreds pieces. The wind started to blow his hair back, the cold air made him feel like he was going to freeze.
"If I don't know you so well then maybe I'd be fooled with your over confident self. You piss me off Nokoru-kun, I bet you don't have any clue. You're just making a lame hope, don't you? You're just trying to make me lose my temper." Idomu whispered harshly in Nokoru's ear and bent him down more. Nokoru gasped and closed his eyes tightly not wanting to look down, and for his relief Idomu pulled him in again and released his arms.
Nokoru collapsed down rubbing his arm with his hand. Idomu sat in front of him and stared for a while before he put his hand on Nokoru's cheek caressing it gently. Nokoru couldn't fight him anymore. He lost all this energy, so he just looked at his side and closed his eyes tightly as he tried to calm his breathing down. Idomu leaned over and pressed his lips against Nokoru's cheek.
"Let's make a deal, Nokoru-kun, what do you say?" Idomu asked coolly. "I'll stop destroying your clamp, but I need you to promise me something… and I don't think that you'll refuse because you don't have any other choice."
To be continued…