Sakura stood at the edge of her couch double checking her bags to make sure she had packed everything that she would need for her journey. She mentally recited her plan letting her eyes wander through the almost empty apartment. Most of her things had been packed away to make things easier for her parents if she did not return.
"You really should lock your door." A voice scolded from the shadows behind Sakura and startling her from her thoughts.
"A locked door would not prevent you from entering if you wanted to." She retorted turning to face Kakashi while placing a hand on her hip. His uncovered eye traveled to the packed bags and Sakura could tell that he was frowning.
"You still plan to leave?"
"Of course." She answered incredulously. "We've all ready discussed this."
"They wouldn't want this."
"Who cares what they want. They're dead." She turned away from him not able to withstand his gaze for a moment longer and walked towards her window. "I can't keep living my life like this." She mumbled placing her hand on the glass while looking at the dark and deserted street below. "I'm being ripped apart inside Kakashi. The guilt of still being alive when I should have died so many times in that battle, but they saved me. The guilt of moving on when I believed it would never be possible for me to love another. The least I can do for them is avenge their death." Salty tears began to slip down her cheeks as regret settled in her mind realizing she had revealed more than she had wanted to. Sakura heard Kakashi's steps closing the distance between them and her heart began to beat painfully fast. His chest barely grazed her back as he rested a hand beside her head and her body tensed.
"They would have wanted you to move on Sakura. To live the life they gave up." His breath tickled her ear as he spoke and his hand came to rest on her waist. "Stay with me." Were his last words before turning her into his arms and kissing her passionately with unclothed lips. Something deep within Sakura stirred as he pressed his body to hers and she responded fervently to the kiss. They broke apart gasping for air as Kakashi lifted her from the ground and Sakura wrapped her legs firmly around his waist, fisting his hair and pulling him into another kiss. This was torture she decided as Kakashi released her mouth to run his tongue along her ear as she bit back a moan of pleasure. Sakura felt her weight being lifted from the wall only to find herself pressed firmly between Kakashi's body and her couch while he kissed her. They had become gentle and tender and he drew back from her running his thumb over her cheekbone before tangling his fingers in her loose hair.
"I'm sorry." Sakura whispered while her jade eyes welled with regret.
"For what?" He asked confused and a heavy silence fell between them. Sakura laid motionless watching his expression change from puzzled to understanding when he felt the weight in his limbs. She held up her hand showing him the simple ring on her finger and Kakashi struggled to speak. "Sakura...what did...you do?" His body began to sag with more of his weight resting on top of her as his head came to rest in the crook of shoulder.
"This wasn't supposed to happen. I didn't mean for it to go this far. " She muttered while feeling his hot breaths tickle her neck. "I've partially paralyzed your body and the anaesthetic will take effect soon."
"Why?" His speech was becoming heavy and slurred.
"Would you have let me go?" She asked quietly all ready feeling the curve of his lips into a smile.
"No." Sakura smiled sadly as his breathing became heavier.
"Please don't follow me when you wake up in the morning Kakashi." She slid from underneath him and carefully rolled Kakashi onto his back. She avoided his gaze as she left to her bathroom where she immediately began to run the shower. The water burned her skin as she let it run down her body, but Sakura didn't care. She quickly finished putting on the clean clothes she had laid out earlier and grabbed her black vest zipping it up quickly before returning to the living room.
The anaesthetic had taken effect and Kakashi laid on her couch sleeping soundly. Sakura hesitated slightly before crawling on top of him and resting lightly on his waist. Her wet hair dripped onto his face as she leaned down gently tracing the thin scar on his left eye while trying to memorize his features. They had always tried so hard to see his face while they were younger and this would probably be last time she would see it.
"I wish things could have ended differently Kakashi. I think we would have had a good life together, but I can't be selfish and forget about the others." Sakura lamented and pressed her lips to his for one last kiss. She gave him one more brief look before crawling off of the couch and gathering her things. It was harder than she had expected to leave him, but she closed the door firmly locking it and placing the keys in an empty flower pot. Sakura turned down the deserted street disappearing into the darkness and from the hidden village.