Envy
Your need for me has been replaced.
And if I cant have everything well then just give me a taste
- "Sin" - Nine Inch Nails
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Seeing the girl that I had watched from a distance for so long, I let out an involuntary gasp.
She had turned into, unmistakably, a woman.
Her figure was developed, and her red hair was so tempting, the way she tossed it over her shoulder.
I have heard rumors, however.
Rumors that she will never be mine.
For she is dating him, Harry Potter.
Yet another thing that he successfully takes away from me.
It burns my eyes to see her, her delicate hand wrapped in his.
To think that it could have been me, if only I had made a move earlier.
He could have been my friend, had he only not taken, bit by bit, every piece of what I had ever wanted.
His false pity makes me cringe, when he mentions the parents that have never quite been mine.
His heroic acts are self promoting, and I have never believed him to be honestly humble.
He is attention seeking, no matter what people may say, and there is never a doubt in my mind that had I been that way by nature, all that is his could have been mine.
Including her.
She whom I follow like a dog follows his master, she whom I cannot resist.
Whenever she blinks at me with her large, amber eyes, I feel something welling up inside me, and I also feel the irresistible urge to throw something at Potter.
I have also heard rumors that she is a slut, sleeping around with Potter, Dean Thomas, even Malfoy.
I don't believe any of these rumors, for there is no way that her perfection could be inclined to do anything bad.
My longing to do something heroic has been almost overwhelming, I want to prove myself to her, to prove that I can be better than Potter.
I want her to see me for who I truly am, a strong, confident man, not a foolish and cowardly boy.
I want her to see my as hers, not as that idiot who melts his cauldron in Potions.
But most of all, I want to hurt Potter, who has taken away so much from me.
I will prove myself, and become a Neville Longbottom to be proud of.
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A/N So I know this chapter is pretty short (again), but it took me forever to write, and I feel like I couldn't possibly make it any longer. If you didn't guess, the pairing is Neville/Ginny. I know the lyrics at the top have already been used in a previous chapter, but it's a short song...so I kind of have to repeat stuff. Only one more chapter to go!
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