Hey you guys sorry it took me so long to get this story up. I have been hitting some road blocks on to write next But I am working on the next chapter and hopfully will have it up soon. Ok enough of my babbling here is the story. Oh and one more thing. Sadly I own nothing...
Do I love Jacob? I struggled with this question all night long. Is it possible to love more than one person? Is it possible that I love Jacob the same way as I love Edward? No, that's not possible, I love Edward. Not Jacob. At 6:30 U finally rolled out of bed after my long night. I showered and got dressed. I trudged downstairs to find and Edwardless kitchen. I looked at the fridge to see a note written in his beautiful hand writing.
Dear Bella,
It
will be sunny today, to sunny for me to be able to leave the house
this morning. Sorry I can't take you to school today.
All my love,
Edward
I sighed as I read the note. I won't even be able to see Edward until after school. I threw the note away in frustration as I mentally prepared myself for my long day with out Edward. I slowly ate my breakfast as if stalling for time. After spending about ten minutes looking for my keys I got into my truck. The roar of my truck caused me to jump. I thought that maybe I was getting a little spoiled with the soft sounds of Edward's car. I pulled out of the driveway as I thought that Mike was in my first class. I groaned as I thought that he will most likely be bothering me today. I stopped my truck in the school parking lot and made it to class in time for the bell. I sat in my desk at the back as I waited for the teacher. I glanced at Mike his face lit up as he saw that I was alone and Edward was not here. I quickly grabbed my book and pretended to look at busy as possible.
"Hey Bella." Mike said as he walked up to my desk
"Hey Mike." I said
pretending to be absorbed in what I was doing
"What's up?"
He asked me as he leaned against my desk'
"Nothing." I pretended to listen to Mike as I waited for the teacher to walk in. I wondered what was taking her so long today.
"Bella?"
Mike's voice broke me out of my concentration on the arrival of our teacher. "Sorry I did not catch that." I said as I looked back at him. "What did you say?"
He looked at little
nervous. "Um would you like to go to the movies with me this Friday
night?" he asked.
I looked at Mike with a frustrated expression.
"Mike, I am not going to be able to go out with you. Edward is my
boyfriend." I said hoping it would get though his thick skull. I
watched as his face fell. I thought maybe it really did get though
this time. I smiled as the teacher walked into class and called
everyone to attension.
The rest of my day went by in a long slow
blur. I sighed as the bell for lunch rang. I knew Edward was not
there. I bought my lunch as I looked around for a place to sit.
"'suse me would you mind if I sat with you?"
I turned to see a familiar face. "Jacob!" I exclaimed as I looked at him. "What are you doing here?" I asked
"I wanted to talk to you." He said looking at me. "I figured now would be the best time seeing as the bloodsucker can't come to school today."
I winced at Jacob's name for Edward.
"Sorry." Jacob said looking apologetically at me.
"I know you are." I
said as I walked over to my usual table at lunch. I sat down and
watched Jacob wrinkle is nose in disgust.
"Bella ca we sit
somewhere else? It smells like them." He complained.
I looked at Jacob and frowned "This is where I always sit." I said stubbornly.
Jacob raised his hands in surrender. "Ok. It's fine." He said as he sat down at the table.
He looked t he seriously. "Bella, I want to ask you something."
"Yea Jacob, What's up?" I asked knowing what he was about to ask me.
"Do you love me?" He asked looking at me seriously.
I looked at Jacob. The truth was that I was not entirely sure of the answer to that question. Did I love him? Jacob. I love Edward."
"That does not answer my question, Bella." He said looking at me. He seemed desperate for an answer
I sighed. I knew it was not an answer to his question. But I was not entirely sure of the answer to the question myself. "I don't know." I said lamely.
Jacob looked at me as if I were crazy. "What do you mean you do not know?" He asked "It's a simple question that needs a simple answer."
I did not know what to say to him. I mean I did care for him, but does that mean that I love him?
"Bella." Jacob said as he put his hand on top of my own, breaking my train of thought.
"I don't know Jacob." I said looking at him. I did not want to talk about this anymore.
"Why not?" He persisted. "I just want to know."
I looked up into his eyes. He was pleading with me for an answer. He wanted to know so badly. I felt I could not be there any longer.
"Jacob I don't want to talk about this anymore." I said as I got up to leave.
"Wait, Bella." Jacob said as he grabbed my hand.
"Jacob I want to go." I said looking at him. I made sure that my eyes did not meet his. I did not know how much of this I would be able to handle anymore.
He yanked my hand pulling me into one of his hugs. I stood there as he hugged me.
"Bella-"
I cut him off. "Jacob I can't do this right now." I said looking at his hand still in mine. "I have to go." I said as I turned to leave. Jacob held on to my hand a moment longer then let go as I walked away. I thought I could not stay in school any longer. I walked out of school and headed out to the parking lot.
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