Disclaimer: Still don't own Gakuen Alice but soon. Mwuhahaha –gets hit by a brick-

The heart is a mere muscle which we sometimes deny following but isn't the brain also just another muscle? Why do we follow it also?

-Winter-fall

Keep your heart broken

Chapter 4: Will it be you?

Mikan opened her eyes and saw nothing but darkness. She looked around but nothing could be seen she was alone with no one. She looked down on the ground revealing nothing but pure black like a never-ending pit, tears were threatening to fall when a voice called her name.

"Mikan…" the voice continued to call her for the next few minutes when she decided to answer it back.

"Who are you?" she asked standing up. The voice didn't answer. She looked around and saw a boy just her age walking to her. His eyes were hidden by his bangs and he continued to walk toward her.

She didn't know why but she felt fear. She slowly walked away from him not noticing that she was not going to step on anything anymore. She continued to force her foot backward and realized too late and she fell again for the second time.

She waited for eternal darkness but unexpectedly she felt a tight grip on her wrist. She looked up and saw two crimson orbs intently staring at her with all the emotions it can give.

"Natsume!"

Her eyes opened wide revealing an almost orange red sky. She tilted her head a bit causing pain to her whole body and saw another raven haired boy but not Natsume.

"Natsume is it now?" the boy asked amusingly. She rubbed her eyes for better vision and saw no one else but her sempai.

"Tsubasa- sempai?" she asked in a whisper.

"Are you alright now?" the older boy asked

"I'm ok a bit sore but ok. Sempai? What happened to me?" she asked seriously.

"I don't know I just found you floating by the shore." He explained a hurtful expression obvious on his face.

"So you saved me…not him." She said sadly and just forced the thought away and gave Tsubasa a big hug as thanks.

"Come on Mikan." Tsubasa said as he scooped Mikan into his arms and carried her, her head on his shoulder and him holding her tightly for her not to fall.

"Sempai?" she asked lazily.

"Do you think it's better for me to hate Natsume?" she asked. Tsubasa was a bit taken aback but continued walking.

"Why?" he asked.

"I don't know so I would have fallen for Ruka or you." She mumbled before sleeping again leaving a troubled Tsubasa.

Enfolding your love in my heart

By the dawn I'll become

The road keeps us apart

For some time I'll be gon

"Natsume?" Ruka asked his best friend. "What happened to Mikan?"

"She found her savior…" he said sadness in his voice and continued. "…and Ruka? It wasn't me."

" What are you gonna do?" He asked after putting a comforting hand around his best friend.

"Nothing is left to do." He stated simply before collapsing to the ground.

" So you'll stay here under this tree and just watch in the sidelines?" Ruka asked almost in irritation.

"No. I'm leaving." He stated simply almost in a cold manner as his eyes just seem to go through his best friends.

You promise you swallow your tears when I leave you

You promise to follow the leads I will give you,

You said you would crawl in the dark from the laughter

You said you would long after me ever after.

Hotaru was walking to her room when she saw a tall figure carrying a very visible orange haired girl. Her heart skipped a beat, it was either because of fear or the exciting curiosity within her. She discreetly followed the man, which led them to Mikan's room.

'What have you done now idiot?'

She walked closer and saw that it was Tsubasa carrying a snoring Mikan. She noticed the worried features that graced the older student's face. She watched as he delicately laid Mikan on the bed and gave her a particular smile. She understood what had happened and decided to confront him about it.

"What has happened to Mikan?" she asked in her usual tone.

" I found her floating on the shore by the lake in the northern forest." He explained in a nervous manner, obviously shocked by Hotaru's sudden entrance.

"What were you doing there?" she asked, inquisitive as usual.

"Looking for her." He answered back a bit hesitantly.

"She said something before going to sleep didn't she?" She asked with slight amusement.

"Yeah." The older boy answered back while scratching the back of his head.

"What?" she asked again.

"It's nothing important." He said.

"To me but it is to you." Hotaru retorted.

" My you are a smart one. Well, she asked me if it was better if she fell in love with Ruka or Me…" he said and got lost in his thoughts again.

"Will she then?" she asked seriously.

"Sadly…I think yes." He stated simply and they both understood what that meant.

My love will grow black if you heart get stolen

Just promise to keep your heart

One day I'll come back if the doors still open

Just promise to keep your heart broken.

The next morning Mikan happily walked through the halls trying to ignore the gossiping students scattered through the halls. She continued walking when she was surprised by a rumor that she was apparently able to hear. She stopped and tried listening to the said rumor again.

"Did you know they say she's the reason why Natsume is leaving." A girl a year older told to another.

"Really? Who does she think she is?" replied the other.

She stopped listening from then on and continued to walking to their room. It was currently a Wednesday and the past days were very hard on her. She started pondering on why such a rumor would exist.

'Why is he leaving?' she asked herself when she noticed she was nearing their classroom. She looked up and saw their door and easily turned the knob and entered the room. She forced a smile again and greeted everyone a good morning and again tried to hug Hotaru but as usual she failed.

"Baka!" the sound of Hotaru's infamous baka gun resonated in the classroom. With this Mikan was forced to the end of the classroom just like before and Yuu would come and help her stand up. She stood up and thanked Yuu when she noticed a particular presence was amiss. She turned her head and saw Ruka all alone in their table. She stared at Ruka's melancholy figure and decided to let it past 'til later.

"Hey Mikan? Will you join us for lunch today?" Yuu asked her.

"Sure! I should after what happened yesterday." She said happily as she started walking to her seat.

"What happened Yesterday?" Yuu asked from his seat. Mikan made her self comfortable and looked at Yuu with a smile.

"Don't worry Yuu-kun nothing bad happened to me yesterday." She explained and received an all-knowing-look from her best friend.

"She almost drowned yesterday if Tsubasa didn't save her." Hotaru explained out of the blue.

"Were you hurt? How did it happen? Weren't you with Ruka?" Yuu asked one after the other so Mikan had no choice but to cut him off.

"I do still have a few muscle pains but nothing that sleeps won't cure, I slipped and Ruka left for some urgent business and I wasn't thinking at the moment that was why I fell." She explained causing Yuu to calm down. Soon the teacher came in and started discussing a new topic for them.

After the almost endless topics, their classes ended. She fixed her bag then slung it over her shoulder. She then made her way to Ruka who was just sitting in his chair looking at the window.

"Ruka?" she asked disturbing the boy from his trance.

"Yes Mikan?" he asked back.

"Are you alright?" she asked concerned.

"Yes, but you were gonna ask about Natsume I presume?" He said with a smile.

" Am I that readable?" She asked in embarrassment.

"Mikan I'm sorry to say this but..." He started. Then Natsume's word started echoing in his head.

'Ruka don't tell her anything about it. I've hurt her far too much.' Natsume's voice said making him recall what had happened yesterday.

"Ruka don't tell her anything about it. I've hurt her far too much." He said.

"But not knowing about this will destroy her." Ruka reasoned.

"Persona told me about this before but I kept denying it for her sake but now I've decided, I can't take it back." He said seriously.

"Is it because of your pride? So you're going to hurt her to no end until she forces herself to fall for someone else?" He asked, his voice rising.

"She's gonna fall for you no one else Ruka, no one." He stated and started walking away.

"But what?" she asked getting more worried by the second.

"He's on a trip for the school." He said forgetting what he was supposed to say.

"Oh." Mikan said and that was all, nothing left.

Days go by like the wind

And this life is too short

It makes no sense to give in

To release you from my thoughts

A lonely figure sat in the darkness when another taller figure appeared into view. The lonely figure was actually Natsume (A/n: Wasn't that obvious?) and the taller figure was Persona. The taller figure wore his usual garments but now with a more mischievous smirk on his face. Natsume was aggravated by the mere thought of him and now was worse since he was in the presence of him.

"What do you want?" He asked bitterly.

"Why did you suddenly accept the offer?" Persona asked with the grin getting more big every second, if that is humanly possible.

"None of your business!" he answered back.

"It's that Mikan girl, Isn't it?" He asked the boy with an eyebrow raised.

"I have no other connections with that girl, were through." He said seriously as he looked on the ground.

"I see you have fallen in love with the girl. We'll need to do something about that." He said his smirk getting bigger once again.

"You sadistic bastard! What are you going to do?" He asked shouting at him.

"Oh nothing, unless you double the said agreement. Four instead of two." He said rather content with himself.

"Agreed." Natsume answered after an exasperated sigh.

I promise to write you I'll always remember,

I promise to try to be back till December

I said I must go, I must face this disaster,

I said I would come after you ever after.

Mikan sat under a tree facing the drowning sunset. She hugged her knees to herself as she watched the sky before her turn from blue to an orange-reddish hue. She watched the sun slowly go behind the mountain and not to be seen until tomorrow for another day.

'Crimson. Blood.'

She suddenly thought of those two words. She tried thinking why and only received thoughts about Natsume. She remembered the things that connected to his past and his present.

'You don't need to see the darkness…'

' He destroyed his whole family and an entire city…'

'He's really a kind person but people just misunderstood him…'

'He's hurting deep inside he just hides it…'

She started remembering times when he would always tease her about almost everything about her. She didn't notice there was already a person beside her until it interrupted her.

"It's quite amazing isn't it how from such a red hue it suddenly turns blue?" a voice asked and snapping her out of her thoughts. She looked up and saw her sempai with a smile just staring at her.

"Sempai!" She greeted happily. The boy sat down beside her and kept quiet for a few minutes which worried her.

"Is their something wrong sempai?" she asked concerned.

"You see Mikan, it's like this…' The older boy started to sweat as Mikan got confused by his actions.

"I think I like you." He finished. Mikan let out a giggle. "I like you too sempai." She said.

"No I mean…I..I-I Love you Mikan." He said as his voice got a bit loud. She couldn't answer, in short she was dumbfounded. Her mouth opened but no words came out. She was almost losing breath and luckily, they got interrupted by someone.

"Mikan! Natsume is leaving!" Yuu exclaimed.

"What!" Mikan said in almost a whisper, disbelief evident in her eyes.

My love will grow black if you heart get stolen

Just promise to keep your heart

One day I'll come back if the door's still open

Just promise to keep your heart broken.

"Sir? Shall we get going?" A not so old man asked while opening a limo door. The supposed passenger looked at the gates of the Alice academy for the last time.

"Yes." He said and entered the car. He made himself comfortable and was about to close the window when he heard that annoying but sweet voice of hers.

"Natsume!" She called out but he forced himself to ignore it. He left them by the gate with no explanation or a goodbye.

For ever and after my life

just promise to keep your heart broken...

Mikan fell to the ground and tears started flowing down her cheeks again. She held tight on the iron bars of the gate.

"Damn that bastard! He left without saying anything." She exclaimed putting all her anger on the gate. Her friends just stared at her with pity and also sadness. Hotaru just put an arm around her best friend and comforted her.

"Let's go Mikan." She softly said to the girl. And they made their way to Mikan's room and helped her to sleep to forget this sad departure for just a few hours. Only one stayed though it was Tsubasa.

She stood up from her bed, totally aware of the older boy in her room, and walked to the window sill. Tsubasa just decided to keep quiet and watch her.

Tsubasa sempai?

If it isn't Natsume…

Will it be you?

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winter fall63: Here is the chapter. I'm sorry if you expected Natsume but every story needs a surprise so I decided this would be a great time for it. Please don't kill me. But if you do have any ideas in killing me please do say so in your review it would be very entertaining to read don't you think so?

Anyway I thought of making it into a Ruka x Mikan x Natsume but I saw that it was too common already and I have fallen in love way too much on how Hotaru and Ruka really work so I decided to go with Tsubasa but if you people don't like that tell me please..

Anyway thanks for all the reviews. If confusion arises please do say so and I will directly try my best to edit of the benefit of the readers. Excuse my wrong grammar and misspelling.

Thanks for the reviews again! Can't wait for the rest!