The Black Line Continues

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This will probably be a rather short chapter.

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Chapter 5: Having Doubts

It was now the end of October, Twelve Grimmauld Place was empty except for Sirius, Remus, Kreacher and Buckbeak and the werewolf was now four months pregnant. But it wasn't all fun or peaceful in the house, it was the thirtieth of October which meant that tomorrow would be the anniversary of James and Lily's deaths and Sirius was feeling quite depressed.

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It was getting very late at night when Remus went downstairs to find Sirius, he had been having a lay down upstairs as he had been up and about all day after following Madame Pomfrey's order to exercise. But without his lover beside him Remus didn't think he'd be able to sleep.

When he found Sirius, his lover was sitting at the kitchen table staring almost unseeingly into the fire; the dark haired man was so deep in thought that he hadn't even heard Remus come into the basement.

"Siri?" Remus tentatively put his hands on Sirius' shoulders when the other man didn't acknowledge him.

Sirius jumped when he felt the gentle hands on his shoulders, he hadn't realised he wasn't alone anymore. He turned his head to see Remus watching him in concern. "Hey…shouldn't you be sleeping?"

Remus frowned and ran his fingers through Sirius' thick, dark hair; "I'm not tired. Are you all right?" He moved to sit down in a chair next to Sirius but he found himself being pulled onto his lover's lap and gently kissed.

"I was just thinking…" replied Sirius quietly; he gazed into Remus' curious brown eyes. "…Nearly fifteen years exactly since that rat bastard betrayed James and Lily…I think I'm still trying to come to terms with it…"

Remus slipped his arms around Sirius' neck and felt Sirius' arms go around his own waist, "You never really had time to mourn though, did you?" he replied quietly.

Sirius rested his head on the smaller man's shoulder and sighed, "No… That's not all though." Remus pulled away slightly and gazed at him. "The day before it happened, Jamie and I had an argument…about you."

"Oh Siri…"

Sirius sniffed, "All because I was too stupid to see the truth. I mean, I know now why you kept disappearing without a word but I didn't back then…and James and Lily tried to make me see and I refused to believe them." He looked at some point passed Remus' shoulder. "I stormed out after we argued and I said I might come back a couple of days later to check on them… I was such a fucking idiot."

Remus used his thumbs to wipe the tears away from Sirius' eyes, "Yes you were…but we all suspected each other…" he hugged Sirius again. "I can't imagine how you feel if that was how you last saw them alive…I wouldn't blame you if you wanted to bawl your eyes out on my shoulder either."

Sirius managed a weak smile before pressing his face into the crook between Remus' neck and shoulder.

The two stayed like that, hugging on the chair, for nearly an hour. By the time they finally pulled apart it was around one in the morning.

"Do you feel a bit better now?" asked Remus, as he ran his fingers through Sirius' hair.

Sirius shrugged, "A little…there's still something else I wanted to talk to you about."

Remus shifted a bit so that he was now sitting astride Sirius' legs, "Well if you're not tired then we can talk now."

Sirius smiled grimly and sighed, "Its about this baby…" he noticed Remus' expression instantly turned to one of worry. "Don't get me wrong, Remmie, I do want this baby. I want nothing more than to have children, especially with you. But…I just never wanted to have a child in the midst of a war; I'm not asking you to abort it that's the last thing I want… But what if something happens to us? I mean, I nearly died at the Department of Mysteries, what would have happened then? If I had died I would never have known you were pregnant…" he had one of his hands on Remus' waist and the other on the small bump of his lover's abdomen. "I know we're both safe here and that Harry's relatively safe at Hogwarts but I'm afraid, I'm afraid for our futures…for this baby's future…"

Remus placed his hands over Sirius' and chewed his bottom lip for a moment before speaking, "I'm afraid to, Siri, I've been wondering what we're going to do ever since I found out I was pregnant… I'm just trying to take it day by day, I'm not going to try and predict the future or something, and as much as you love him I don't think I want to put all of my faith into one teenage boy.

"Right now I think I just want to hide out here until it's all over…no matter how long it takes." He gazed into Sirius' worried grey eyes. "I guess we'll just have to take it how it comes. There's not much else we can do, is there?"

Sirius shook his head slowly, "I guess not." He brushed his lips against Remus'. "I feel like I haven't been saying this enough, but I love you."

Remus smiled slightly, "I love you too, Siri." He pulled Sirius into a tight embrace and pressed a kiss to his lover's neck. "Shall we go to bed?"

Sirius sniffed and nodded, "Yeah…let's go to bed."

The two soon headed out of the kitchen and up to their bedroom for what turned out to be a rather restless night's sleep.

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A/N: Short and probably not my best, I know, but I will make it up to you all soon. Updates may become a bit less frequent over the next month or so, as I have my final exams, but by the beginning of December I will be on my two-month summer holiday so there will be plenty of time for me to write.

Next Chapter: Somebody thought to be dead is brought to Grimmauld Place. Harry floos. Remus will be six months pregnant.