Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters. I don't own South of Nowhere. Oh yeah song lyrics for chapter 2 "6 8 12" by Brian McKnight... Song in this chapter is Hinder "Get stoned"... not mine
Summary: Okay so I wanted to try and work on something that has to do with a break up so... this is what I'm going with right now... Ashley and Spencer dated for 3 years before Spencer broke it off at the beginning of their sophomore year in college. And they have been broken up for about 25 days and Ashley is having a really hard time with it... It will get better you can't keep spashley apart.
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Author notes: I hope everyone that reads this story likes it. And I hope you review and tell me what you think... THANK YOU!
DaPhoenix--- Thanks for the review... Because I'm writing it off the top of my head.. I'm just typing it as it comes to my mind... I didn't even know what to do with the mysterious girl at first but you find out in this chapter... Heres the post...
yo gurl jackie--- okay so I was thinking about getting them back together soon... but not sure yet... Like I said to DaPhoenix its coming to mind as I type so not sure what's gonna happen until I type it up but heres the post and thanks for the review...
southismyantidrug07---- yeah theres a lot of nosey people but you can't always hate them for trying... LOL anyways it should it better... Hopefully... LOL... heres the post and thanks for the review..
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The Life With In You
By:babygirl2006
Chapter 3
(Ashley P.O.V)
Her name is Danielle. She's a Junior. She doesn't really know what she is in college for. She said by the time she leaves this place she is going to be able to get a job doing anything she wanted. Shes taking classes for everything. Shes the girl I meant on the beach a month ago. I needed someone to talk too. Someone to hang out with. And plus she wouldn't give up on trying to get things out of me. She reminded me so much of Spencer. I think thats the only reason why I talk and hang with her as much as I do. I miss Spencer more then I've ever missed anything in my life. I think I'll always miss her though. Just everything about her. Her smell. Her smile. Her embrace. Her eyes. Her lips. Her laugh. Her touch. Her skin. Especially the way she bit her nails when she was nerves. It was funny and I always made fun of her about it. But its something that I will miss. I know Spencer doesn't like seeing me with Danielle because we flirt a lot. Everyone sees it. I know they do and I know Spencer doesn't like it but theres nothing going on. Shes the one that let me go though. I didn't tell her that I was never going to be with someone again if I wasn't with her. I never told her that I was going to wait for her. I know in my heart though if she came to me at this very moment and asked me to be her girlfriend again I would. Just because I was in love with her that much. Because I'm still in love with her that much. That throughout my life will never change. If she came to me 5 years from now I would still take her back. Well I can't lie maybe I wouldn't but thinking about it right now. Right this minute I would.
"Hey baby!" Danielle said walking up behind me and slapping me in my ass.
"Hey dear! How are you?" I pulled her into a hug. I look over her should and my eyes lock with Spencer's. Shes just standing there staring at us. She looks sad. Like I'm doing something wrong. Like I broke up with her for Danielle. Like I'm cheating on her. Spencer shakes her and turns around. I let go of Danielle and run after her. I don't know why I'm running after her but I am. I grab her arm and spin her around.
"Are you okay?" I asked her. She had tears coming down her face. Did I do something? What did I do to make her cry? Why is she crying? I ask myself all these questions that I can't answer only Spencer can.
"I'm fine Ashley. Just leave me alone... okay?" Why is she being like this? Why?
"You're not fine. What's wrong? Spencer?" I grabbed her arm again because she tried walking away. "Will you talk to me? I have never done anything to you. Why are you mad at me? What did I do wrong?" I screamed this at her I don't know why I screamed it.. it just came out the way. Everyone was staring at you now.
"Can we not talk about this here?" I grabbed her arm and pulled her towards my dorm room. She stopped outside the door and looked at me. I think she was scared to go in there. Last time she was in there was one of the worst days of my life.
"What?" I know why she stopped. I wanted her to say it though. She just looked at me like I was stupid and shook her head no. I opened the door and pulled her in. My roommate still had classes for another 4 hours. So we had awhile to talk or yell and scream. I just stood there looking at her. She refused to look at me though.
"Ashley... I can't..."
"Can you start with something else? Last time you used those words you turned my world black." I interrupted her and looked away. Being near her is bring everything back. I feel my eyes start to water up. I tried to blink them back but it wasn't working. So I gave up and just let them fall.
"I want you still. I still love you. I miss you so much. I regret everything I said to you. I regret giving you so much pain. I regret making you cry. I regret everything. I just want to hold, kiss, and most of all love you again..." Spencer stopped. I don't know if that was it or if her words just got caught in her throat and she couldn't say anymore. I don't know but I had to say something.
"Spence... I understand were you are coming from. I can't though. I can't be with you just because you miss the way we were. I'm in love you and always will be. But unless you're sure about it I'm not going to go back out with you." I know I told myself that if she wanted to get back together I would go for it but I'm looking out for me this time. Not her...Me. Is that so bad? No its not because if you got hurt as bad as I did you would be thinking about your feeling... not hers.
"okay.."
"Thats it? Thats all you're going to say?" I looked at her confused. I don't get it. She wants to get back together but she won't tell me that shes in love with me.
"Yeah thats it." Spencer said then turned to walk out my door. I stepped in front of her.
"Hold up. I'm confused here. You want to get back with me but... What's going on here?" I'm still so confused. I don't get her right now. What is she trying to do? "Is it that you are only doing this because you think I'm with Danielle? We aren't together. What is it you want from me Spence?" I said to her. I just want answers. Nothing else. Right now all I want is answers from her.
"I don't know. I thought I knew. But I don't. I'm sorry Ashley." I was stunned was she doing this again. Spencer turned around and walked for the door.
"Just hear me out... If it's not perfect I'll perfect it till my heart explodes" I screamed to her before the door closed behind her. I know she heard me because when I said it she froze and the door didn't close all the way. I waited for her to come back in.
(Flashback)
Spencer and I are sitting on my bed. We just got here. She didn't want to go home after school. So we went to my house. We only had about an hour though before her mom started freaking out. She doesn't like us being together and its hard not being able to see her whenever I wanted too or whenever she wanted to see me. Everything is hard these days but I'm welling to go through it for her. When we do see each other we try to block out everything else and just focus on one another. Spencer got up from my bed and went to the radio. Hinder filled the silence of the room. Spencer pushed me onto my back, sat on my stomach, put her mouth at my ear and started singing.
Just hear me out
If it's not perfect I'll perfect it till my heart explodes
I highly doubt
I can make it through another of your episodes
Lashing out
One of the petty moves you pull before you lose control
You wear me out
But it's all right now
Lets go home and get stoned
We could end up makin love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
You wear me out (We could end up making love instead of misery)
But it's all right now
Without a doubt
The break up is worth the make up sex you're givin me
Lets hash it out
Cause your bitchin and your yellin don't mean anything
Don't count me out
I can handle all the baggage that you're carrying
You wear me out
But it's all right now
Let's go home and get stoned
We could end up makin love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
You wear me out (We could end up makin love instead of misery)
But it's alright now
Lets go home and get stoned
We could end up makin love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
Go home and get stoned
We could end up making love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
You wear me out
(We could end up makin love instead of misery)
But it's all right now
(Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me)
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
I started laughing at her.
"Why are you laughing?" She asked.
"Have you even ever got stoned before?" I still continued to laugh as I asked this. She shook her head no. "You are singing a song about getting stoned but you have never got stoned before. You're crazy. Do you know what stoned means?"
"Yes I know what it means. And I have got stoned before... just once.(she rolled off of me)I'm never doing it again." She looked at me like last time she did it she was not someone she liked.
"I'll take that as you didn't like it." I still can't help but laugh at her.
"Why do you keep laughing at me? It's not funny?" She whined.
"It's just the faces you made while saying it. It was funny. What happened? What made you dislike it so much?"
"I'm not saying. You will laugh at me. But that song is to you. No matter how much of you're yelling and everything you do I will never get tired of it because for you I will go through anything no matter what. And plus the make up sex is the best especially when you're mad at me."
"Wow Spence..."
"What?" She whined at me again.
"I can't believe you just said that. I think we are hang out to much. You're becoming more forward. And I kinda like it. It's a turn on." I started laughing again. She pushed me as hard as she could and I went falling to the floor. I laid there. I can't believe she just pushed me off the bed.
"You're going to die for that Carlin." I got up from the floor and looked at the bed. She wasn't there. Where the hell did she go. She left without me even noticing. How did she do that? I searched the whole house. She was no where to be found. I came back into my bed room. And out of nowhere she tackled me to the floor. She just laid on top of me.
"What is with you and making me hit the floor? The shit hurts you know that. Just cause it's carpet it doesn't mean its softer." I whined at the girl above me. She just looked at me. "Why are you looking at me like that?"
"Because... you are so beautiful. I love you so very much. I will do any and everything for you. You are my world Ashley Davies." She said this and continued to look into my eyes. "No matter what happens with us. No matter what I say or you say to me or how bad we fight or break up for whatever reason I will always be in love with you. I love you and you're my everything. You always will be no matter what." I didn't do anything but meet my lips with hers.
(End of Flashback)
The reason why I said ' Just hear me out... If it's not perfect I'll perfect it till my heart explodes ' because I knew she would remember that day. The first day she ever actually expressed her true feeling to me. And I knew she would remember everything she told me. I know she didn't forget .
(Spencer's P.O.V)
I stopped. I know why she said it. That day meant a lot to me. To us. How could I forget. That was the first time I was ever really open with Ashley. We were dating for a little over a year. I opened up to her and she came right back and opened up to me. That day made me fall more in love with Ashley.
(Flashback)
"Because you are so beautiful. I love you so very much. I will do any and everything for you. You are my world Ashley Davies." I paused and looked deeper into her eyes. I started again. "No matter what happens with us. No matter what I say or you say to me or how bad we fight or break up for whatever reason I will always be in love with you. I love you and you're my everything. You always will be no matter what." I told her. I meant every word I just said. I still looked into her eyes. Next thing I know her lips where on mine. I pulled away out of breathe 8 minutes later. I put my head on her shoulder. Thats when she decided it was her turn to talk.
"Spence... I love you too. More then life itself. I will do anything for you. You know... we have been through a lot this past year and 2 months. You always make my day no matter what happens with you next to me I will always smile. You are my rain at times but most of all you are my sun. And I love you so much. I don't know what I would do without you. You make me who I am. You make me want to be better then who I am. Not not just because I love you but because you love me. You will always have my heart. My whole heart. No one will ever take it from you. Anything could happen. You could tell me that you wish I was dead or break my heart into a million piece and my heart will still belong to you. And I will never break yours as long as I live. You mean why to much to me to even think about doing that to you." I lifted my head and smiled at her. I didn't know what to say. No one has ever made me feel the way she does. I don't think anyone could ever come close to the way she makes me feel. My eyes started to fell up with tears and they slowly began to fall down my cheeks. She wiped them away and pulled to into a hug and we stayed that way for as long as we could.
(End of Flashback)
That song by Hinder was what started that conversation. I am in love with her. What am I doing? Am I trying to break her heart all over again or break it even more then what I already have? I need her back. I want her back. I have to have her back in my life. I'm in love with her. Why is it so hard to except right now? I don't know but I know I have to talk to her and get her back. I walked back into her dorm room and shut the door. She just looked at me. I really didn't know where to start or what to say. My mind has thousands of things running through it.
"What do you want me to say? You know I remember that day. It was the best day of my life. You telling me how you felt. Me telling you how I felt..."
"Spence... what I said that day I still feel. None of what I said has changed. I told you then my heart is yours. And you did break my heart into a million pieces and I was right back then my heart still belongs to you." She told me as she stared into my eyes.