Chapter 2:Plans

As I said the words, they lingered in the air, refusing to fall and leave.

I couldn't push this from my mind, it would always find a way back in somehow.

"You need to make a plan, Bella." she said and with that, Mary Alice was gone in a brush of wind.

"I know. I know." I whispered, mainly to myself. I basically knew what I would do. I wasn't sure if it would work and if it didn't, it would be very bad for my self esteem. I would tell him when I was ready for it.

I didn't know when exactly this would be, but I would make sure to tell him somewhere he couldn't turn me down for that second.

I wasn't going to risk telling him sooner in a crowded place for fear he would continue anyway. And, even if he didn't, we would have to go home sometime.

It would be easier this way. Hopefully.

I just had to hope when I told him, he wouldn't wait. For when I did tell him I was ready, I would want it that second.

I laughed to myself at this thought. I decided to focus on other things because the last thought in my head left an awkward tone to the ring of silence.

What did the small boy in the woods want, anyways?

He was trying to take me somewhere. I wasn't exactly sure why. To lead someone else there? Maybe this boy held some grudge against Jasper. But how would he possibly know about that? This was confusing, but better topic wise.

I sighed. I was walking back to the house when I heard Esme's scream cracking through the air. I ran there as fast my feet could manage and saw she had been taken in a bear hug by Emmett by surprise. I laughed at her reaction and exhaled, not noticing I had stopped breathing. I rarely did now that I didn't need it.

I walked up to my bedroom to see a broken window. A million thoughts ran through my head. I looked around to find the same little boy, looking swiftly through my things. I was frozen in shock.

Time seemed to stand still. He finally looked up at me, his red eyes glowing with such intensity it made me see color spots – such as when I was human and I stared at small flames on candles. He glared back and eventually took a pear necklace that tied with a strip of black velvet in the back that my mother had given me in my human life and attempted to jump out the window.

I jumped for his hand and pried it from him. He let me take it, but ripped a small lock of my hair and left in a hurry. I groaned in annoyance; my hair what was with this whole grabbing my hair thing?

I looked out the window to see him run away. I would have been worried about how he landed had he not been a vampire.

I needed to fix the window, but couldn't go into town to get a plate of glass; I was still faking being dead and that would be just the smallest bit suspicious.

I would have to ask Jasper; he had been able to stay alive in this little game, no one ever knew we had been together because we didn't know each other until I had to disappear from the public eye.

Sometimes at night if I felt I had enough self control and after hunting again, I would go see Charlie and Renée. I rarely went because I could barely control myself on the trips to get the mail in the morning, much less be in a confined space with no people around.

Even when I did go, I took Jasper, or sometimes Esme.

Once I even took Carlisle.

I laughed and the sound twinkled through the air from the metal of the pipes on the harmonium we kept in the living room. I hadn't even noticed I'd left my bedroom. I shrugged the thought off quickly.

I looked around at my settings and noticed for the first time that the walls were different colors.

I had thought them all to be just white, but now that I looked closer, they ranged from ivory to beige very tastefully. I mumbled a, "Hm." in approval and walked up the stairs rather slower than normal.

I had a feeling I would not like what I saw when I reached my bedroom.

My thoughts went to Mary Alice for some reason.(A/N: DUN DUN.)

I opened the door slowly, and saw birds had flooded the room. I hadn't hunted in a while and neither had Mary Alice. I saw her feeding off the birds – they were rather large – and it sickened me, as it always did when I saw her hunt.

Her small body in that odd position drinking of the blood of animals three times her size made my bones grade together as my stomach did back flips in the want of puke to grace my lips.(A/N:L M F A O. xD)

I saw her freeze as she realized my being there. She turned to look at me, her eyes wide with horror, and I simply nodded and she left.

That was awkward..Elizabeth and I thought is unison.

I couldn't believe the mess. Mary Alice had been very cleaned in hunting, this surprised me, but the birds pooped a lot. I called for Esme to come; I would need help for this.

We talked a lot while scrubbing the deep blue carpet with water and soap.

I smiled as she told me that all Jasper seemed to do before I came was hunt and walk around the woods after she died. No one was allowed to say her name after that. Nor Edward's.

I felt she was keeping something back in her voice as she told me of Edward. I was suspicious.

"Your not telling me something." I said.

"What do you mean?" she asked, slightly panicky.

"Your hiding something."

"No I'm not, why would you say that?" she asked and started fidgeting with her hands and hair.

"I can feel it." I said, my eyes narrowing and she knew she was caught.

She just sighed and I knew she had given up the charade.

"Spill."

"I saw him in the forest a long time ago. End of story." she said. I knew this was the end of her story. I sighed, disappointed with it.

"Sorry, I just don't have anything else to say." she said.

"It's fine, I just thought you of all people would try and hide something more interesting. I would have not asked had I known that was all." she laughed and I did, too.

When we finished the room, she went to town to get the glass for the window. I had to flee off a few more birds until she was back.

Replacing a window is much harder than you would have thought.

It took my five minutes alone to figure out which way it went in the open gap of air that covered the wall. The window was apart of the wall of glass, as I liked to call it, so it was hard enough just getting it through the door.

When that job was done, after 30 minutes, we headed downstairs. Today was a rather slow day, and Jasper had gone hunting.

I wasn't leaving the house again until we found the boy that attacked me. That was as much Jasper's rule as mine.

I decided to go find Mary Alice.

Where ever she was.

She went back to her room I think. I took the two second walk there and knocked.

She said, "Come in!" over the sound of thumping.

I walked in to see her doing sit ups. I stared at her and said, "What are you doing?"

"Working out." she said matter-of-factly.

"Why?"

"I'm bored." I laughed at this. "Do you have any idea of what your going to do about the Jasper situation?"

"Kinda.." I said, trailing off.

I told her my plan and she nodded in an understanding way.

"Yeah, well that's all fine and dandy, but when are you going to tell him?" She said, cocking her eyebrow in confusion and tilting her head to the side.

"When I'm ready."

"Yeah, but when will that be, exactly?"

"Uh..." I hadn't thought of this.

"Exactly. What do you think he'll think if he possibly tries to again, and your not ready, and the next night you magically are? Don't you think he's be a little ticked?" hadn't thought of that, either. "And what will you wear?"

I hadn't thought of anything! Crap. I was dead.

In more than one way.

I let the sudden overwhelming feeling take me over and I lost all traces of the virtual consciousness I had. Yet I still held on just enough to make my way to my bedroom couch to think.

So I lay there, thinking.

Jasper walked into the room and I turned to smile at him. He smiled back like always.

But just like he had lately, there was something missing.

I pondered on it for a while and I realized it started happening when he stopped trying to push the limits.

I wondered if not being... physical in our relationship could cause this.

I suppose it could, from what I've heard from Elizabeth, it was definitely a part in their relationship.

I guessed it would be in ours, too.

And not too far along the way, either. If it would pull him from this lite depression, it was worth it.

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Okay, sorry it took so long to get up, but at least it's up. Thanks for the reviews, even tho i didnt get a lot. it took my till the second chapter of the prequal to get a lot of reviews too, so i wasn't expecting much (: hey, the 1st one has gotten 800 reviews since i ended it! :D Okay, i wasn't here to bable about that.. this chapter -- kinda shorter than the last but only by like, a page. (: the playlist: All You Wanted by Michelle Branch; Presure by Paramore; I'm Good by Blaque; Paralyzer by Finger Eleven; I Will Folow You Into The Dark by Death Cab For Cutie; Waiting by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus; The Great Escape by Boys Like Girls. lots of songs again. lol mkay, review! thus ending my chapterly rant. (: