Miss You

Author: Pokari, R for mpreg.

Disclaimer: you know it's not mine

Summary: Harry was married to Draco and they had a son.

Pairings: Harry/Draco, Sirius/Severus

Time: Post-Hogwarts

Warnings: a little angst, slightly AU.

Chapter Two

Sirius' POV

Sirius was nervous. He had been sleeping with Severus since he was fifteen but wearing these clothes and being called a whore made him felt cheap. 'Not that I have any dignity left.' Sirius thought sadly.

He knew he was broke and only because of Remus' kindness he didn't end up as a dog in the street.

Remus knew he'd been sleeping with Severus and was given money and things. Though he didn't tell him, Sirius suspected that his friend knew the real reason was. 'I love Severus Snape. But I'd be damned if I let him know.' He would never admit it to the Slytherin, knowing full well that Severus would never want him in any romantic way other than as a bed warmer.

Sirius took the last look at his clothes, if it could be called clothes. Remus had helped him choose his outfit for tonight. As much as he was ashamed for wearing it, he hoped Severus would like it.

He hated his body. He hated his pale skin but what he hated most was the fact that he was hairless. It was just like a boy's body.

He knew he was handsome but he wish he could have had body like Remus, tall and strong. Or like Severus. Severus was the tallest man he ever knew, with adequate muscle and tan skin. He had strong hands and long feet.

He looked at his high heels. Even with these things he still felt short. Azkaban had taken the best of his years, leaving him an average height with skinny body. A little too late for bodybuilding.

Harry's disappearance shocked him. He was looking forward to living with his godson. He cared about him, ever since he was a baby. 'And he looks so much like Jamie.' Sirius sighed.

Sirius was looking for him at every place he could think of, searching at some places he thought Harry would go to. He almost crazy when he couldn't find him until one day Harry owled him, telling him that he was now married to Draco Malfoy.

Sirius went to sit on his bed. "I wish I had been to his wedding." Sirius let out his breath. "Damn you Malfoy." For months, he felt like stop doing anything, stop eating, stop sleeping, and stop waking up when he finally fell asleep.

But he refused to give up. Harry was the last reminiscence of his best friend. He would do anything to get him back. And that was why he start coming to Severus' place.

His first reason was, of course, because Severus was the key to get him to the Malfoy, who had his Harry. But when he dared to be honest to himself, Sirius realised that it was Severus himself that had pulled him.

At his first visit, Sirius pretended that all he wanted to do was hex him. He tried to threaten the Slytherin to take him to the Malfoy Manor. Then he begged him to take him to see Harry. Nothing work.

Sirius came to him almost every night, enough to make Severus beg him to stop bothering him. That was when Sirius changed his tactic.

"Severus." Sirius licked his lips.

"Get away, Black." Severus didn't spare him a glance, continued grading the essays.

Sirius put his wand on top of the parchment, and almost shouted in glee when he finally got his attention. However, the black cold eyes made his heart beating faster and he could hardly breath.

Slowly Sirius circled the table and pushed the man until his back leant on his chair. Once again licking his lips, Sirius pulled off his robe and standing naked before the Slytherin.

Using the man's initial shock, Sirius straddled Severus' lap and started licking him. He rocked back and forth, wiggling his bottom until he could feel the hardness that slowly awaked.

"Do you like it?" Sirius whispered to the other' man ear. "It's just like our old school days."

Reminded of their school days, Severus forcefully carried him to his bedroom and threw him on his bed. He took off his clothes in record time.

"Just like school days, huh." Severus smirked.

Sirius was more welcomed ever since that night and he came almost every night. He wished that Severus had made him live with him but the words were never spoken. He felt stupid for still wishing he would.

Severus was a man out of ordinary. He held a very special place in Sirius' heart. He admired his ambitious will that had made him a rich man. Sirius had a suspicion that Severus thought he was after his money, which he didn't blame him.

He didn't refuse when Severus gave him a key for his personal vault at Gringotts. He would put a generous amount of galleons each month. Sometimes he would buy him things and just as of lately Severus would buy him clothes that wouldn't even fit him.

Sirius had more clothes in the last three months than he would ever need. They never went together in public and he wondered why the man wouldn't stop buying him those clothes.

Those clothes, though expensive, were often too big for him or the colour didn't suit him. He gave those to Remus because they look good on him, and he would wear the little clothes that actually fit him when he came to Severus' place.

He knew Severus wasn't a saint and he knew that Severus had a dozen or more lovers. He came too often to his place and he guessed Severus was a little bore of him and would like to spend his time with his other lover.

'That was the only reason why he asked me not to come every night.' Sirius walked to the mirror again. 'And here I am, wishing him to ask me to move in with him.'

He often wondered whom Severus was thinking of when he fucked his body, but he didn't care. He was addicted to sex with the man ever since the man had first claimed him. Severus had been the first man in his life. He would be the last man. He would be the only man.

Sirius reached a hand to caress his reflection, just like James Porter, Jamie, loved to do. It was after the detention for the dangerous prank he pulled that Jamie talked to him with such a serious expression.

"You have to be careful, Siri." James put his hands on Sirius' face and forced him to look him back in the eye.

"What do you mean?"

"About Severus."

"Dumbledore already gave me detention." Sirius pouted.

"He's a Slytherin." James glared.

"I promise I will watch my back."

"I'll watch for you, too."

Sirius smiled bitterly. "I miss you, Jamie."

James couldn't always watch him and Severus came to his expectation since he kidnapped Sirius and raped him.

Sirius was too shocked to stop him. The pain jolted him out of his stupor but it was too late to do anything. He bit his lips till it drew blood, wishing it ended sooner. Wishing it was Jamie claiming him.

But in the end, Sirius could only fell disgusting toward himself because he relished when Severus was in him. He had let him did it to him again and again until they graduated.

Sex with Severus was never easy or by any means gentle. Yet he never complained. He didn't dare. Sending the man away was the last thing he would ever do.

Back then Sirius had never much thought about sex before. Not with girls and certainly not with boys. Well, he might have considered James but his body cherished Severus' touch. Years he spent in Azkaban didn't change it. He craved him even more if it was possible.

When he started coming to Severus' places as often as he could, Remus had questioned him. He wasn't ashamed of the fact and he let Remus knew it. He told him the truth, sans his affection toward the Potions Master.

Sirius fixed the soft makeup he put on his face. He tied his shoulder length hair with a gold ribbon. "Well, better get going now." Sirius was a little nervous now. He had time to consider this. Two days which he spent alone? He hoped he could ask some advice from Remus but he wasn't at home and this morning when he had asked him, Remus simply helped him finding some outfit. He didn't question him, just kept sending the knowing look.

Sirius took a portkey to Severus' house. Severus gave it to him since he didn't trust the floo system. Sirius hated the feeling of nausea from both means of transport but apparating was out of question. He left of the silence of Severus' living room when he steadied his feet.

Sirius took a small step to Severus' bedroom. He was late. He was never late before, and he wondered if Severus was still waiting for him.

Sirius pushed gently the door, he didn't feel like seeing Severus with one of his lovers but he found him sitting on his bed, alone.

Sirius felt even more uncomfortable when he caught Severus' smirking, watching all his moves. He had put on a heavy robe, preventing Severus to see what he was wearing underneath.

Sirius felt the pull toward the man. His high heel made it difficult to walk but he made it without a stumble.

"Strip."

Slowly he pulled the robe and let if fall around his feet. Sirius wasn't ashamed of standing naked for Severus, though he didn't like his body he knew Severus took pleasure from it. It was just this slave-thing made him feel vulnerable.

Sirius was standing almost naked. There were two little gold triangles that covered his nipple and were attached by gold strings. The many strings gave him so much trouble. He didn't know where Remus got this stuff, not that he was being ungrateful. He even had the manual that showed him how to tie it.

He pulled a pair behind his neck and another pair around back. It reminded him of the muggle bikini he saw Lily once put on. These strings, however, were much longer, so long that he had to circle them around his stomach and back several time.

The red slacks were transparent and fit him tightly with cuts in the sides made him even more naked. It had another red triangle that covered only his manhood.

"Perfect." Severus said hoarsely. He slowly walked to Sirius and circled him.

"Do you like it?" Sirius whispered, just realising that he was wearing Gryffindor colours.

"Yes." Severus touched the transparent clothed that covered Sirius's arse.

"Remus chose it." Sirius couldn't help added it. He felt Severus' hands stopped moving and misread it. "He's a nice person, you know." He wished his lover and his best friend could be friends.

"He has good taste." Severus squeezed the plump bum.

"Glad that you like it." Sirius smiled. "Master." He added mockingly.

"I like that." Severus bit his ear. "Call me that again."

"Master." Sirius mustered difficultly, while trying to stifle his moan.

Slowly Severus let him go. Sirius was confused when Severus walked to bed and just sat down. "Turn around."

Sirius complied.

"Slowly."

Again Sirius did it, slowly this time. He had his hands on his middle and did a little swayed when he turned.

"Come here."

Sirius blushed, the husky voice did the amazing thing to his body, and he helplessly realised that there was nothing he could do to hide it.

"Wonderful." Severus had his eyes on his front that did nothing but to show his state.

Severus tore the transparent thing off easily and had Sirius body bare, apart from the strings that did nothing but added the obscene aura on him.

"Sorry, though it look nice on you, I just realise that I like you better without those things." Severus pulled him onto his lap and started to rub him.

"I can't agree more, Master." Sirius whispered.

"What about this thing." Severus' long finger caressed the gold strings.

"It gave me such a pain just to put it on." Sirius whined.

"Hmm." Severus didn't seem to listen to him. He had his tongue glue to Sirius' nipples. He licked the exposed skin and gently bit the hard nipple through the little clothes.

Sirius was too busy moaning that he didn't realise when he was put on the bed and those nice treat was stopped. He whined at the lost hot mouth on him. When he opened his eyes he saw that Severus was undressing himself.

Sirius sat and he was face to face with the big, hot penis. He opened his mouth and let his tongue out to pleasure the hard flesh. He might be useless but he learnt to be good at bed services.

He didn't wince when Severus grabbed his hair to stop him. Sirius smiled, knowing full well where Severus preferred to come. He calmly watched when Severus climbed to bed and handed him the lube.

'Looks like I have to do all the work tonight.' Sirius thought when he accepted to vial.

Sirius straddled Severus' hip, leaning down to his chest and prepared himself. It felt a little ticklish to lie on top of the hairy chest but he made as little movement as possible and still he fell the hardness stubbing his thigh.

Once he felt that he was relaxed enough, Sirius lifted his lower body, bringing it down to slowly sucked in the hard flesh. He closed his eyes, wanting to savour the feeling of being full again, but he opened his eyes again when he heard Severus' moaning.

Sirius smiled. This was the only moment when Severus was not being himself and sometimes showed him a little gentleness. He was surprised still when Severus smiled.

'Wondering who he was thinking about.' Sirius thought sadly, clenching his muscle. The happiness of being full and those sounds made him reached his climax. He shot his come on Severus' stomach and chest.

"You." Severus glared at him. "Who told you that you may come."

"I'm sorry, Master." Sirius leant down again, this time to lick Severus' clean from his mess. He paid extra attention when he reached the darken nipples.

Severus growled and in one movement had turned the table. Sirius looked at him, he didn't really hate being trapped under the heavy body. He just didn't like to be surprised.

Severus took Sirius' feet and put them on his shoulder to have a better access. He stopped and pulled the string from Sirius' body.

Sirius just laid still, letting Severus take the liberty of taking the thing off of his body. It took him several minutes though.

"You're right. It's really a pain in the arse." Severus growled.

Sirius just smiled. When he finally got all those threads off his body, Severus pushed his knees back to give him a better angle.

Sirius had lost his smile when Severus started to fuck him hard and fast. He didn't slow down. Not until he shot his hot come deep in him.

"Severus." Sirius sighed weakly.

Tired, Sirius fell asleep, never witnessing the gentleness he received from the cold Potions Master.

Ö

Sirius felt the warm body behind him, arms around his abdomen. He turned around and looked at the black eyes of one Severus Snape.

"I'm sorry." He whispered.

"For what?"

"I didn't mean to stay this long." Sirius moved to sit. "I'll leave in a minute."

"Oh, just sleep." Severus grumbled. "You obviously need it."

Sirius lay still. He could feel his face flush. "I've been easily tired this last week. I'm getting old, I think." He tried to explain.

Sirius was surprised to hear the other man's low laugh. "By wizarding standards, you are still very young, Black."

"I didn't do anything but I still end up felling very tired." Sirius yawned.

"Do you mean, our activity last night didn't actually tire you."

"I don't think it's the sex." Sirius turned to look at Severus, desperately trying to hide his happiness to wake up in his lover's embrace. "Do you know that Remus come back home early yesterday, he cooked lunch for me and bought me all that stuff? And he was still up for making dinner for me." Sirius' voice was fading as he burrowed his face under Severus' chin and drifted back to sleep. "I feel very useless." His voice faded away.

Sirius sighed happily, though he was unaware of the strong hands holding him closer to the pleasure warmth.

22 January 04, 6:20 pm