Miss You Chapter 11, a harry potter fanfic

Miss You

Author: Pokari, R for mpreg.

Disclaimer: you know it's not mine

Summary: Harry was married to Draco and they had a son.

Pairings: Harry/Draco, Sirius/Severus

Time: Post-Hogwarts

Warnings: a little angst, slightly AU.

Note: Unbeta-ed

Chapter Eleven

Harry could vaguely hear someone talking now, her voice wasn't familiar to him but he found that he was too tired to bother. He could feel that Draco was with him now; he could care less about other thing. He wished that Larry was with him too now.

"There's a miscarriage, Sir. I'm afraid his body would be very weak now, and he couldn't take anymore stress."

'Miscarriage?' Harry thought. 'How sad, I won't be able to bear it if I lost my baby.'

The voices were still talking quietly, Harry could only recognize a few words now, and his head was killing him.

"I want the best for Harry. I don't care how much it will cost."

'Draco?!' Harry felt relieved to hear his husband's voice. He didn't realise how much he missed him, especially with his newfound feeling toward his husband.

"It's from your company, Mr. Malfoy, I'm sure it's the best." The healer was anxiously playing with her hands. "But I'm sorry, we couldn't save the baby."

'Draco?' Harry was confused now, 'Whose baby they were talking about?'

Harry's relieved was turning into something cold, he felt empty and he realise his body was shaking a little until his conscious took him into the uncomfortable blackness and he couldn't think again.

Draco only stared blankly. He already knew the fact but it still hurt to have it confirmed. "Just do your best to heal him, and I don't want him to find out about the loss of his baby."

"Yes, Sir."

"Stop struggling, kid." Severus unhappily lifted the boy.

Larry turned around when he heard the familiar voice. He squealed happily when he saw who caught him.

"Uncle Severus." He was so relieved that he excitedly hugged Severus' neck, but his hands only reached his shoulders.

"What are you doing here all by yourself, Larry?" Severus frowned, holding the boy more comfortably on his arms. "You're not supposed to leave your house alone."

"I'm not alone. I'm with Cookie." Larry smiled. "And now I'm with you." Larry tightened his hold on the strong neck.

"Where are you Mummy and Daddy?"

"Mummy's not home." Larry pouted. "Daddy's working."

The frowning was now almost permanent on Severus' face. He turned to look at the noisy bundled with weird name. "Silence." Severus growled when the dog made louder noise. He was too tired to talk to a child with the barking in the background. Even he had the limit.

"Cookie." Larry's childish voice scolded his friend.

Cookie barked one last time and sat nicely.

"You have to call his name." Larry explained.

"Really." Severus said uninterestedly. "What are you doing with your… Cookie?" As far as he knew, Harry never left Larry alone, even when he wasn't in speaking term with Draco, he loved Larry too much to treat him badly and made his son sad.

"Uncle Sirius isn't well so Mummy has to take care of him." Larry answered quietly. He was too caught up in his childish anger that he failed to see Severus' worry. "Mummy should take me with him. I miss Uncle Sirius too." Larry tilted his head a little. "Uncle Severus, could you take me to Uncle Sirius' place? I miss my Mummy."

Severus felt something tugged in his heart. He wasn't sure if it was because Harry went to see Sirius while he didn't even know where Sirius was, or because Sirius was unwell. Maybe because he felt pity at the little boy since he knew the child must be missing his Mummy and he couldn't do the small request of taking him to Sirius' place. Or maybe because he was just going crazy.

"I don't know where Sirius lives." Severus answered lightly.

"But… but you're his friend." Larry said in disbelief, his small body shook lightly. "You're his friend."

"How do you know?" It was funny how he felt that he had betrayed the little boy while he didn't care about infidelity when he was with Sirius. He was a heartless man.

"You took Uncle Sirius to our home." Larry was ready to cry now. "I want Mummy…"

"Maybe we should go in and wait for you Mummy there."

"NO… Noooooo." Larry struggled. "Find Mummy, noooo…"

And Cookie, feeling its little master distress started to bark again.

"All right, calm down. I'll take you to your Daddy."

"No." Larry pouted.

"No?" Severus lifted one eyebrow.

Larry shook his head stubbornly.

"So where do you want to go to, except to Sirius' place since I don't know where it is." Severus said in defeated voice.

"Your place." Larry decided after thing hard.

"My place?" Severus frowned. He was sure his place wasn't a kid-friendly environment, 'but it was better then standing here arguing.' Severus thought.

"Yeah." Larry nodded. "Cookie wants to go too, right Cookie?"

Though under Cruciatus he might probably admit that he missed Sirius, he wasn't entertained by the idea of taking home a puppy, but another row of tiring illogical argument was more bothersome, so Severus quietly knelt down to pick the puppy and apparated home.

"How is he?" Lucius asked with concern.

"He lost his baby." Draco answered darkly. His eyes promised his cousins pains.

Lucius himself was too angry and sad to try to calm his son and prevented him from killing his brother's kids. He could have killed them himself.

"What the healer said?"

"Nothing." Draco answered forlornly. It was a known fact that when wizards had a miscarriage, their body and magic was in a great shock that they lost their ability to have babies. "I want Harry to stay here for a day and have all medical attentions he needs."

"Call your mother." Lucius said quietly. "We should let her know that we've found Harry."

Draco went to the public floo and called his mother.

"You've found him?" Narcissa smiled with joy. "Oh, I have to tell Larry, he'll be so happy."

"One more thing, Mother." Draco reluctantly explained about Harry's miscarriage.

The cheerful smile turned into sorrow in a matter of second. Narcissa calmly nodded when his son told her that he would be taking Harry home tomorrow after spending a night in St. Mungo.

Larry was calm when they arrived at Severus' house, though the puppy was barking like mad.

"Cookie." Larry scolded his puppy. "Quiet. You'll scare Uncle Severus."

Severus glared at the obnoxious little boy but decided to let it passed as he put both the dog and its master down.

"Wow." Larry said as he looked at his surrounding. He looked sorry when he stared back at the older wizard. "You should come and stay with us, Uncle Severus."

Receiving pity from a little boy should have angered him but to the contrary he took the little comfort offered by the youngster.

Severus then pulled out his wand and started to clean his room. Larry was happily acting as his boss, telling him where to clean next and where that still needed to be cleaned because he wasn't satisfy with the result.

After he was done, Severus felt better to see the clean living room. It wasn't as grand as Draco's place but it was by no means plain.

Severus frowned. He hadn't had the slightest idea what to do with the toddler and the puppy. He went to the fireplace and started to call Draco's place but someone was using the floo so he couldn't get in touch with anybody from Draco's household.

Severus ignored Larry's complains and started to call at Draco's office only to find it empty. With his patient riding out, Severus tried to contact Lucius. When he realised that he couldn't contact any relatives of Larry, Severus snapped.

"No body's home." Larry said forlornly.

"I'll call Narcissa." Severus said defeatedly.

"No…" Larry frowned.

"Why not?"

"I'm not going home until Mommy's home." Larry pouted. "I stay with you, Uncle Severus. I don't want to be alone." Larry ended his words stubbornly.

"You're not alone." Severus sneered at the puppy.

"Why don't you take me around?" Larry smiled. "You never take me here before."

Severus only shrugged his shoulder. "You never don't want to go home before." He said uninterestedly, children didn't really entice him. "Come, I'll show you around."

Larry excitedly followed the older wizard. He only ever be at his grandparent's home. Severus showed him all the room except for the room that held Sirius' staff, but Larry didn't complain. He didn't really interested in the rooms but he was enthralled by Severus' work place. He asked lots of questions and Severus had repeatedly told him not to touch anything until he was a bit older.

Larry pouted a little but didn't touch anything. Cookie, didn't like the odour of the room, decided to stay by the door, which Severus was relieved of.

"Uncle Severus?"

"Yes?" Severus readied himself for another round of question.

"I'm hungry."

"I didn't cook." Severus shrugged his shoulder. This pass few weeks he had survived solely on consuming alcohol and delivery order.

"But I'm hungry." Larry said stubbornly.

Severus looked at the toddler, in his opinion Larry was even smaller than he remember he was. "We could order food, or…"

"Or?" Larry tilted his head.

They were on the doorway now and Severus quickly hauled the puppy up. "We could cook you Cookie, he sounded delicious."

"NOOOO." Larry angry and surprised voice was enough to turn the puppy into barking machine. "Not my Cookie." He tried to reach for his puppy but really the man was too tall for him, he couldn't even reach his waist.

Severus laughed gleefully. It had been a long time since he had any reasons to laugh at all, not even when he had Sirius and Remus by his side. "But you're hungry, aren't you, Larry?"

"Not anymore." Larry broke in to soft hiccups. "Give my Cookie back."

Careful as not to get bitten by the haughty puppy, Severus put the small creature down and hugged the toddler. "I'm sorry, I was just kidding, don't cry."

"Bad Uncle Severus." Larry lightly hit the man while his other hand hugged his friend.

"Hey, don't cry. I took you out and you could eat anything you want." Severus was good at bribing.

"Cookie too?" Larry stopped crying now.

"Sure." Severus smiled sourly at the boy; he sure knew how to bargain.

Narcissa looked at the clock and frown. Larry should be wake up by now. The pass three days when Harry was abducted, she had ordered Ms. Pinxter to let Larry slept more and brought him to her after he was dressed.

Her frowned went deeper when Narcissa looked at the pale governess. She waited patiently until the younger witch caught up her breath before started question her.

"Master Larry, I couldn't find him." Melanie said, tears in her eyes.

"What do you mean you couldn't find him?" Narcissa said angrily.

"He's not in his room or the playing room."

"Have you check Draco's bed room and his study room?" Narcissa asked worriedly.

Melanie agitatedly shook her head. "Master Larry couldn't reach for the handle yet."

Narcissa left the young witch and went to look for herself. When she couldn't find her grandson at both places, she called for all Draco's employees, including his bodyguard.

Narcissa was beyond rage when no one could tell her the whereabouts of her grandson.

The aurors looked ashamed. Just in less than a week they had lost their precious charges. "The alarm is off because no body without the Malfoy's blood had tried to break in."

Narcissa was fumed. "Go look for him." She said sharply at the aurors.

Narcissa slowly walked to the fireplace to let his son knew about what had happened. She felt like she had failed her son. She tried to stop her tremble enough to let her talk coherently.

"You sure you want to eat all this stuff?" Severus eyed the burgers, chips, cakes, juice and ice cream.

"I'm hungry, Uncle Severus." Larry smiled patiently.

Severus drank his juice and had his sandwiches in piece, he didn't comment when the toddler gave half of his meals to his puppy.

"Just don't feed him the juice and ice cream." Severus couldn't help it. He didn't want the noisy thing sticky and smelly.

"But Cookie will be thirsty." Larry said stubbornly.

"We'll get him milk, and don't let him eat from you plate." Severus shook his head in disgust. "Just wait what your Mummy said if he saw this."

At the mention of his Mummy, Larry's mood was down again. He ate quietly, gave half his burger and almost all of his chips for his puppy.

Severus frowned. "You should eat more. Here, try my sandwich, it tastes good."

Larry let himself to be fed. He quietly ate his cake and juice. His ice cream had melted by the time he was ready to eat it, so he just drank it slowly.

By the time they were ready leave, Severus eyed the little boy critically. "You're a mess. We should get you home and change you clothes."

"But I don't bring any." Larry pouted. "I don't want to go back home."

"I know." Severus said sourly, "I was talking about going back to my home."

"Do you have clothes for me?" Larry asked.

Severus thought for a moment. "Let's go buy you some."

Draco never left Harry's side after he called his mother. His father had left a moment ago, he got a call from his mother but let his father to talk to her. He didn't want to leave Harry.

Draco gently stroked Harry's hand. He smiled when he saw Harry's eyes fluttered open. "Harry, Love."

Harry smiled. His eyes were glassy as if he was still in his dreamy state. He was happy to see his husband. He looked around until he realised where he was. And then the conversation was back to him again.

"How are you feeling?"

"I want to go home, Draco." Harry's smiled faltered. "I want to see Larry."

Draco smiled. "Larry missed you too. It's been three days already. But I need you to stay here for the night, Harry, I need you to rest. You're so weak; Larry would be sad and worried if he saw you like this."

"But, Draco…"

Draco gently kissed Harry's lips. "Tomorrow morning, I promised, we'll be home by tomorrow morning." He reached for the bowl of warm broth. "Try to eat something, 'kay? You'll feel better with you stomach full."

"Are you staying with me?"

"Of course." Draco smiled. "I don't want to leave you ever again."

Lucius returned to Harry's ward after his brief talk with his wife. He tried to compose his expression. There was enough worried for Draco to handle, he would go and find his grandson himself.

"I'm glad you're alright now, Harry."

"Thank you, Father." Harry smiled weakly. "I want to go home, but Draco wouldn't let me."

"And I agree with him." Lucius smiled. "You should get all the rest you could, once you're home, Larry wouldn't even let you take a nap."

Harry laugh softly.

"What mother said?" Draco asked.

"Just asking about Harry." Larry answered smoothly. "Well, now that Harry's safe, I think I'm going to leave to do some work."

"Yes." Draco nodded, he was grateful for his father's support.

Shopping for Larry proof to be a difficult task. The toddler, unlike Sirius, refused to wear robes that didn't fit him, in sizes and colour.

They had spent three hours before they finally got two robes and one pair of pyjamas for Larry. And since it was just another two hours before dinner, Severus decided to buy something edible that would only required a simple warming charm on their way home.

Fortunately, Larry was also tired. Though Severus had carried him during the shopping trip, he was readily agreed to have bath and dinner and then sleep. Severus didn't even find any trouble to bath the puppy too.

Severus smiled when half way through dinner Larry was almost asleep. He found it cute. Severus was surprised, that he would find any kid cute; he usually couldn't stand them because in his opinion kids were noisy and dirty.

"Where's the milk?" Larry asked.

"What milk?"

"Mummy said I have to drink milk every day. I haven't had any milk today." Larry complained lightly, but he didn't refuse when Severus lifted him and put him in his pyjamas.

"Brush your teeth." Severus said tiredly. He was lucky that he remembered to buy a set of children toothbrush.

"Can I sleep with you?" Larry asked. He yawned widely before he looked at the older man with puppy eyes, his pet barked once.

"Fine. But the dog sleeps in the living room." Severus said pointedly.

"But, Uncle Severus, Cookie always sleeps with me." Larry pouted.

"Not tonight." Severus wasn't ready to make further compromising. "Come on, we could lit the fireplace, your dog would find it comfortable."

Larry dejectedly followed but when he saw his puppy was happy, he let Severus to carry him and put him in bed.

Draco was happy to see some colour returned to Harry's face. The healers had did their best and they had verified that Harry's body was stronger now, even his magic was stable, if this were to continue it wasn't impossible for Harry to have more baby in the future.

"Have you eaten your dinner?" Harry smiled gently.

"I did, when you took your nap." Draco returned the smile.

"What time is it?" Harry frowned. "I want to be home, I miss Larry."

Draco laughed. "It's almost nine. Why don't you sleep again, I promise I'll get us back home first thing in the morning."

"But all I ever did was sleeping." Harry pouted.

Couldn't restrain himself, Draco kissed the pouting lips. "Let the healing potions work magic on you, darling. You'll get better soon."

Harry only smiled. He just accepted what Draco told him, never asking him about the conversation he overheard. The healer said nothing about the lost baby either, so it could be only just dreams.

'I couldn't be pregnant.' Harry thought to himself, he let his mind wonder again. Draco's stroking his hand made him relaxed and without realising it Harry was falling asleep again.

Draco kept staring at Harry's loving face. He couldn't believe that Harry was pregnant; he was so sad that they lost their baby before they even acknowledge him. He didn't want to believe that Harry forever lost his ability to conceive. Harry was great with their son; it would be wonderful to have more children.

Draco wiped his frustrated tears. He had called Hermione to brow some potions that would strengthen Harry's magic and soothed his distressed, keeping his mood up. Hopefully it would give him another chance to have baby.

Sighing, Draco stood up and stretched. He had ordered a bed to be put beside Harry's where he would be sleeping tonight. He really wanted to take Harry home, but he was afraid something bad would happen to Harry.

The next morning Draco asked the healer to do the more intensive check up before he took Harry home. Harry was so happy that he would see his son that he didn't complain what he deemed was unnecessary medical attention.

Harry was cheerful. He smiled a lot, which made Draco smiled too. He hated to see Harry sad and down.

"Ready to go home?" Draco hugged his spouse, gently lifted him from the bed.

"Yes, I can't wait to see Larry."

Draco smiled. "Don't worry; you'll see him in ten minutes."

But when they returned home, Ms. Pinxter greeted them with nervous smiled. She congratulated Harry politely for coming home safely.

"Are you alright?" Harry asked with concerned. "You look so pale."

"Yes, Sir." Melanie smiled apologetically.

"Maybe she's just too tired." Draco said. "Did Larry behave?"

"Could you bring him to my room, I miss him so." Harry smiled.

Melanie was ready to cry now. She had failed her masters. But Narcissa' appearance prevented her to say anything more.

"Mother." Harry smiled. "I'm sorry I made you worried."

"It's alright, dear." Narcissa's smile was forceful. "Put him to bed, Draco."

Only after Harry was settling that Narcissa told them what had happened. She wasn't ready for Harry's wild reaction, though.

"It's all your fault." Harry slapped Draco, too blinded by his own hurt and sadness that he failed to see Draco's shock. "All your fault." Harry blindly hit Draco. "I told you I'm fine, I just want to go home. I want to see my baby."

When Draco didn't even move to protect himself, Harry seemed to lose his strength.

"It's not Draco's fault, Harry," Narcissa too tried to calm Harry. "Draco doesn't know that Larry's gone. Even though you came home yesterday, Larry could have been gone." Narcissa hugged the still boy. "I'm sorry, I have let you down."

"My baby… my baby, Draco, my baby." Harry let himself being hugged. "I want my baby. My baby."

"I know, Harry, it's my baby too." Draco knew that it wasn't just about Larry, somehow Harry had found out about the miscarriage.

Harry looked at Draco's red face. He gently stroked him. "I'm sorry, Draco. I'm so sorry I lost our child."

Draco gently kissed Harry's face. He didn't let him go even when he turned to his mother for more explanation.

"I just asked Ms. Pinxter to wake Larry, but she couldn't find him. He left with his puppy. And the alarm wasn't alerted because it was Malfoy's blood going out the house, and not someone tried to break in."

Draco cursed himself.

"I want to tell you," Narcissa looked at his son forlornly, "But your father thought it was better if you concentrate on Harry, and he would handle the search for Larry."

Draco was relieved that his father was the one looking for his son. He knew his father would do anything to get his son back.

"Did you hear that, Harry?" Draco gently stroked Harry's face. "Father is searching for Larry, he would get Larry back for us."

Harry let himself to be cuddle. "What if he couldn't, Draco? Larry is our only son, you now I couldn't give you more children after what had happened."

"Sshhh, someone was prone to find our son. If they wanted money in exchange of returning our son, I'll give them as many as they wanted."

Harry smiled.

"Do you think you'll be alright if I left you with Mother?" Draco asked. "I'll go to Father and find out how the searching progress."

Harry nodded. Just before Draco stood up, they heard the sound of people running to their room.

Severus woke up upon hearing the barking noise. He cursed a little; pulling the pillow over his head in hoping to block the sound but little hands was shaking him and wouldn't stop until he opened his eyes.

"What?" Severus grumbled. He enjoyed sleeping till very late since he didn't have classes to teach now.

"Wake up, Uncle Severus. Cookie wants to go out." Larry yawned.

This was why Severus hated kids and pets, because they were demanding and noisy and dirty. But Severus did get up and let the dog out. Since he didn't think he could go back to sleep, Severus took Larry to freshen up and get dress.

"What are we going to do now?" Severus asked the little boy. He didn't think he could have the repetition of the day before; he was too old for this.

"I want Mummy." Larry started to cry again. "I miss Mummy."

"Come on, let's go home. I do believe that your Mummy is home by now. Even if he didn't, your Daddy would still be home, and we could force him to bring your Mummy home." Severus tried to smile in hoping that Larry would cease his crying.

"Okay." Larry nodded, he called his friend and they were ready to go home.

Severus quickly gathered the little boy and the puppy before the small bundle in his hands had the time to change his mind. In three minutes Severus had them standing by the front gate of Draco's home.

After Severus put him down, Larry pushed the gate open and raced with his friend to the front door. Severus followed in slower pace.

"Master Larry." Melanie couldn't believe her eyes when she saw her little master was coming back.

"Is Daddy home, Ms. Pinxter?"

"Yes, your Daddy and your Mummy are home. They're in they bedroom."

"Really?" Larry squealed happily and dashed toward his parents' bedroom. His puppy barked like mad behind him.

"Mummy, mummy…" Larry called, afraid that his mummy would leave again because he thought that he wasn't home. "Mummy…" Just before he reached it, the door was opened, revealing his Daddy.

"Daddy." Larry grinned breathlessly.

Draco was so shock to see his son. He just swapped him up and gave him to Harry. Cookie also ran to follow his master, but he sat politely by the bed side.

"Mummy…" Larry cried. "Mummy, I miss you a lot, why are you leaving. You could take me with you, Mummy…"

"Larry," Harry also had tears in his eyes, he kissed his son's face again and again, wanted to make sure that his son was indeed with him. "Where have you been? Do you know how worry I am when I couldn't find you at home?"

"I'm sorry, Mummy." Larry sobbed. "I'm sorry…"

"Where have you been?" Harry asked his son when they were calm enough. His hands inspected his son, looking for injury.

"I went to look for you, but I couldn't find you." Larry pouted.

"He's so thin." Harry looked at his husband and in-law.

"He wouldn't eat until you're home." Narcissa smiled, she also had tears in her eyes. "Larry, where have you been? Do you know how sad and panicked we were when we couldn't find you?"

"I'm sorry, Grandma." Larry grinned, he was satedly sitting by his mother's lap. "I'm with Uncle Severus."

"What?" Draco finally could find his voice.

"I found him in front of you house yesterday." Severus said, he calmly walked into room. "He got hysterical when I tried to bring him back."

"I don't want to be home when Mummy's not home." Larry said stubbornly.

"You could at least call us." Narcissa frowned.

"Really, when do you think I should give you the call?" Severus wasn't in the mood for small talk. "When I wasn't busy entertain him or when I wasn't collapsed from the exhaustion? Your son is a monster."

The room was quiet after Severus' rant. To everyone surprise, it was Harry who broke the silence. Harry was laughing softly while kissing his son's head.

"I'm not monster." Larry pouted. "Really, Mummy, I'm being good. We only ate and Uncle Severus bought me robes. But Uncle Severus' bad."

"Hmm?" Harry absently rubbed his son's head. "I thought it was nice of him to buy you robes."

"He said he wanted to cook Cookie because he sounds delices." Larry pouted.

Harry laughed. "That's funny."

Severus kept his mouth shut though he could feel his face heated.

"I like Uncle Sirius the best." Larry grinned.

The room went quiet again. Draco coughed and turned to Severus, offered him a smile. "I know it's still morning but I think I could use some drink right now."

"Yeah, me too." Severus nodded.

"Draco, call you father and let him know that Larry's home." Narcissa told her son before she had all her attention on the two lying on the bed. "So, have you had breakfast? Want to eat something?"

"Uncle Severus couldn't cook," Larry said, "And I'm hungry."

Narcissa nodded, relieved that her grandson had returned to the normal, happy child, she turned to Harry, "What do you want, Harry, I'll get you something to eat."

"Warm milk would be fine." Harry smiled.

When they reached Draco's study room, Severus threw himself at one of the comfy chair. He closed his eyes, didn't really care at his surrounding. He could hear Draco called for his father and let him know that Larry had returned sound and safe thank to Severus. Severus sneered at this.

Draco poured two glasses of very strong liquor; he was weary with this emotion shifting. He could sympathize with his mentor, if the older man really love Sirius then he felt guilty to make things difficult for him.

"So what happen?" Severus asked after the first sip.

"Looks like my cousin have a death wish by kidnapping Harry."

"Oh."

"Thanks for saving my son." Draco smiled genuinely.

Severus shrugged his shoulder. He finished his drink and stood up. "I'm going home. I need to sleep at least for another day."

Draco snickered. "You're getting old, Severus. Are you sure you don't want to have lunch here?"

Severus didn't even have the energy left to glare at his ex-student; he mumbled that he would be back tomorrow. He nodded his head at Lucius and portkey-ed home.

"Is that Severus?" Lucius went to pour himself a drink.

"Yeah, apparently he caught Larry when he was about to leave home and took him to his place upon Larry's insist."

"He looked tired." Lucius snickered.

They were having peace drinking moment until Sirius' head appeared on the fireplace. He looked worried, and both men felt guilty for forgetting to let him know that Harry was safe.

"Well, I'll come in two hours." Sirius said determinedly.

Draco shrugged his shoulder. He returned to his room and found that Harry and Larry were sleeping peacefully. He lifted one eyebrow when his mother was looking at him with concern.

"He wouldn't talk about his lost baby, I'm sad too, Draco, but it would do him good if he want to talk about his feeling."

"Give him some time, Mother."

"You too, go to sleep."

Draco nodded. "After I take my bath. Oh, Sirius is coming. He might join us for lunch."

"I'll take care of it."

Larry woke up when he heard someone was talking to his parents. He rubbed his eyes before he sat down.

"Oh, my Larry is waking up, how cute." Sirius cooed.

"Uncle Sirius." Larry pouted. He went to hug Sirius though. "You should ask Mummy to bring me too, I do miss you too, you know."

Sirius laughingly kissed Larry's head. "Oh, I'm sorry, and I miss you too. See what I bring you?"

Larry looked at the heap of presents on floor next to his puppy.

"It's for me?"

"Of course. I hope you forgive me now."

"Of course, Uncle Sirius." Larry laughed. He kissed the man before he went down from his laps. He petted his puppy's head and then he was engrossed in opening the presents.

"You shouldn't do that, Sirius." Harry smiled. "You're spoiling him."

"What are you talking about? Me? Spoiling Larry?" Sirius smiled. "You know how sad he was when you're not home? It's only little things to make him feel better."

Draco though agreed with Sirius, he wisely said nothing to oppose his love. He just smiled his gratitude at Harry's godfather and offered him lunch which Sirius gracefully accepted.

"But I should be home by four." Sirius sighed. "It was rather difficult to apparate across the country, luckily Billy has the right connection and he could get me the permit though it has time restriction."

"Do you like living there?" Harry asked softly.

"Sure, it was beautiful there, and we live near the beach. I find it peaceful there."

"Time for lunch." Narcissa announced.

Harry nodded and called for his son. They walked hands in hands to the living room. Draco silently followed them; he kept his attention at his spouse. He noticed how Harry ate only little portion, and spending his meal time to feed their son.

Larry on the other hand was very content; he had his mother attention solely on him. Even Sirius was feeding him too.

After lunch, upon Draco's insist, Harry was lying in the bed again. Harry was complaining that he had had enough resting, but Draco wasn't compromising. So Harry found himself in bed again for at least two hours while Sirius was playing with Larry. Draco was nowhere to be found, while Narcissa and Lucius had gone home after lunch. Sometime Larry would show him what he got from Sirius, sometime Sirius would leave Larry and talked to him.

"Are you alright, Harry?" Sirius asked while he gently stroked Harry's had.

"I think."

"Tell me, Harry, you know you could talk to me about everything."

Harry looked at his son to make sure that he was listening. "When I was kidnap," Harry whispered, "I won't eat what they gave me."

Sirius had to bend his head closer to be able to hear Harry, and it was killing his back but he wasn't complaining.

"I lost my baby, Sirius." Harry sobbed silently.

"Oh, Harry." Sirius knelt down by the bedside and hugged his godson. "I'm sorry."

"I want to give Draco another child." Harry whispered. "I want to have a good memory of us having a child together, but now, I'm not sure I could have any more baby. This is all my fault. I've let Draco disappointed."

Sirius gently wiped the tears away. "It's not your fault, Harry. You didn't ask to be kidnapped. I'm sure Draco knows that."

"Mummy?" Larry worriedly stood next to Sirius. "Are you still angry 'cause I left home?"

Slowly Harry stood up. "I'm not angry. I'm just sad. What if I couldn't find you? Where should I look for you? I only have you now."

Larry cried. "I'm sorry, Mummy, I promise I won't leave again. Mummy, don't cry."

Harry reached for his son and hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry, I don't mean to get angry at you, I'm just sad."

Sirius hugged Harry and his son. "It's alright now, Harry, things would be better now. Don't worry, 'kay?"

Harry wouldn't let his son go, and apparently Larry had lost interest of his new toys, so he was just lying by his mother's side. "Never leave me again, understand."

"Yes, Mummy." Larry happily hugged his mother.

"Come on, let's nap together." Harry smiled at his godfather.

"Me too?" Sirius lifted his eyebrow.

"Why not?" Harry smiled.

"Come on, Uncle Sirius, we'll have room for you too." Larry grinned

Sirius grinned back and climbed the bed. "Ow, my back." Sirius sighed contently.

Harry grinned. Despite his bitterness for losing his baby, he was glad that Sirius was happy now. He just wished that Sirius would stay with him longer.

It was one hour before four that Draco came home and found the three occupants of his bed. He smiled gently at the serene look on Harry's face.

"Hey." Harry yawned. "You're home."

"Yes, I got something for you."

"What is it?" Harry frowned. "Not another potion I hope."

"I'm afraid it is." Draco scrunched his nose. "Do you remember Lucas Knight?"

"Should I?" Harry frowned.

Satisfy that Harry didn't remember the man that was his employee now; Draco explained that he had employed this Potion genius. "He created this potion that would help wizard and witch that had had miscarriaged."

Draco quickly went to Harry when he saw that depressing look. "Shh, it's alright, Harry, we could have another baby."

"You know we couldn't Draco." Harry whispered. "I couldn't."

"Well, three out of tens wizards who took this potion could have at least one more baby." Draco smiled. "Are you willing to try?"

Harry smiled tearfully. "You went to get this potion?"

Draco only smiled. He didn't explain that he had gone to the ministry of magic to charge against his cousins. Though he would give in to the satisfaction on killing them, he would be entertained enough that his cousins would be put in jail for their crimes. He could understand his father's feeling to want to help his twin brother, but he just couldn't forgive his cousins. Never.

"You drink this twice a day, before you sleep in the night and after you wake up in the morning." Draco explained. He put the potion in the nightstand and went to kiss Harry. "You'll feel better, I promised."

Harry wanted to protest but the knock on the door stopped him. Draco told whoever it was to enter.

Melanie slowly entered the room. She put the tray slowly on the small table, all the time avoiding Harry's eyes.

"Thank you." Harry said softly.

Melanie looked at her mistress and wanted to cry. "I'm sorry, I should have watched Master Larry and wouldn't let him leave this house. I'm sorry. I… I understand if you want me to leave."

Harry shook his head, "Don't worry about it. If I'm not abducted, Larry wouldn't be thinking about leaving."

"Ms. Pinxter." Draco spoke with the distant voice. "Larry is getting older, it would be more difficult to… teach him and look after him. I hope you're staying to help us. Unless of course if you're planning to get married or working for other family, we won't stop you."

"No, Sir, I love Master Larry." Melanie hurriedly said. "I… I'll do my best."

"Well, then I hope you're staying." Draco said in the polite tone as he dismissing her.

"That is so nice of you." Sirius grinned.

"Well, I couldn't just fire her." Draco mocked him.

"Of course, what time is it?" Sirius slowly stood up and strengthened his clothes.

"Three thirty." Draco answered. "Why don't you have tea before leaving?"

"Can't you just stay with us?" Harry looked at his godfather with sad eyes.

Sirius smiled a little, didn't know what to say. He did want to stay with Harry, especially after what he went through, but there was something that made him scare to even stay for more than a few hours long. Something unbearable that ridiculously made him wanted to cry.

"I'm sorry, Harry, I guess I'm not ready." Sirius blushed, he smiled shyly. "I'm not even sure what I'm supposed to get ready against."

Harry looked at his godfather, completely forgetting what his godfather had gone through to make him leave in the first place.

Harry shook his head and smiled uncertainly. "Well, maybe when you've decided to come back, you could come and stay with us."

"Sure." Sirius nodded heartily. He would promise anything to make Harry smile again.

Draco coughed uncomfortably; this was too emotional for him. "Well, if we didn't start the tea now, it would be time for Sirius to leave already."

Sirius stretched lazily and went to wake Larry. "Wake up, Larry, we're having cake."

It took minutes for Larry to really wake up, but the little boy didn't really happy to have a cake. He was contented enough to have his mother by his side.

Wiping his mouth, Sirius went to his godson and hugged him tightly. "It's time for me to go."

"If you have to." Harry smiled dazedly.

Sirius chuckled, "I guess the next time I see you all, would be on Larry's birthday."

Harry wanted to go and walked Sirius to the living room and saw him off, but Draco forbid him and Sirius didn't look happy too, so Harry decided to humour them and stayed with the still sleepy Larry.

Harry and Larry were staying in the bed until it was time for dinner. Even after dinner, they were back to where they were staying before, going through the presents from Sirius with Cookie lazily laying between them, while Draco went to his study room to have some work done.

Harry lifted his head when Draco entered.

"Can Larry sleep with us?"

"Of course." Draco agreed readily. He had talked to his parents and they were agreed that right now, Harry had the need to be near Larry. Since he had lost his baby, he needed the assurance that his only child was safe, especially when he almost lost him too.

"Yay." Larry grinned happily. "Cookie too?"

"No." Draco started to regret himself for buying the puppy.

"But Cookie will be sad." Larry frowned. "Please, Daddy?"

Draco sighed. "But he's sleeping in the floor. If he as much as putting one foot on my bed, he's sleeping in the kitchen." Draco snarled at the dog, but Cookie only barked once.

"Can you get Larry's pyjamas?" Harry asked softly, little smiled in the corner of his lips. "Larry needed to get change. And his toothbrush too."

"Maybe we should take him to his room and change him?" Draco said.

"No." Harry shook his head. "Here would be fine."

"Very well, wait for me here." Draco understood that Harry didn't feel safe in their house, particularly at night. The only place where he could feel safe was probably their bedroom.

When Draco returned, Larry was retelling his story, of how he got caught by Severus, and then they spent the day shopping for his robes and pyjamas.

"Uncle Severus has bad tastes." Larry would say again.

Though Harry was scared by what his son did, he also proud of him. Draco could see it in his eyes. 'Must be his Gryffindor blood.' Draco thought forlornly, sure that his son would be sorted into Gryffindor house if he were to enter Hogwarts.

That night Draco had waken up again and again, each time was because Harry was having nightmare. He would go to his spouse and tried to wake him up. Each time the nightmares were getting worse.

"Shh, Harry, it's alright." Draco gently rubbed Harry's face. "It's me, Draco, I'm here now. Please open your eyes, Love. You're safe."

Harry sobbed. "Where's Larry?"

"He's here. He's sleeping with us."

"Really?"

"Yes. Do you want me to get you something?" Draco rubbed Harry's face lovingly. "Do you want to go back to sleep?"

Harry only looked at Draco with empty eyes. "Could Larry don't have to go to classes tomorrow? I want to spend the day with him."

Draco kissed Harry's forehead. "I think he needs the days off. He was so sad, too, when you're not here."

Harry nodded his head. "I don't to go back to sleep, Draco. Every time I close my eyes, I felt so alone. I thought I lost you and Larry again."

"Never again, Harry, I swear I keep you safe from now." Draco swore that Harry and his son would never go through such dreadful experience again.

Harry looked at his husband with trustful eyes. He gently rubbed Draco's cheek, where he hit him before. "I'm sorry, I hurt you."

"I'm fine." Draco kissed Harry's hand.

"Could you just hold me?"

Draco held Harry tightly. He too needed the proof that Harry was here with him, and the warm body in his arms was real. He took a deep breath, wanting the sweet smelt of Harry lingering in his mind and soul

"Draco…" The voice came out no louder than a whisper.

"Yes?"

"Never leave me again. Never let me leave." Harry sobbed. "The only way to make me feel safe is when I can see you and Larry. I need you and Larry to be with me always. I wish Sirius could stay."

Draco chuckled lightly. "There's no way I'm letting you go Harry. Remember what I've done just to have you? I love you that much, I'll never let you go, ever."

Harry smiled, he felt asleep in Draco's arms and didn't have nightmare again until it was time to get up.

Larry was ecstatic when he was told that he didn't have any classes today. He had his mother with him all day. Even his father wasn't going to work.

Draco made sure that Harry drank the potion. He had floo-ed Hermione and had her sent the potions everyday. He knew it took time for the potion to take affect, but he didn't expect him to get worst either.

Harry still didn't want to talk about Draco's cousins, what they had done and what would happen to them now that Draco would surely punish them. Draco too didn't want to bring the subject, afraid that it would make Harry even worst.

Draco was silently studying Harry's expression when Severus arrived.

"Uncle Severus." Larry grinned. "Mummy's home."

"I can see that." Severus smiled his rare smile. "This is yours."

"What's that?" Harry asked suspiciously.

"He forgot his robes when he decided that he wanted to go home." Severus said sourly.

"Thank you, Severus." Draco smiled. "Are you staying for lunch this time?"

"Sure."

It was after lunch that Larry showed him the present from Sirius.

"Sirius was here yesterday?" Severus asked Draco with disbelief tone.

Severus was angry. He almost had the chance to meet Sirius again, but he ruined it. He did go home and sleep, and then he ordered lunch and some liquor. He didn't even need dinner since he was drunk until he woke up with his head hurting.

Severus started to feel sorry for himself. He glared angrily at Draco.

"I don't know that he's coming." The blond quickly said.

Without saying another word Severus left and went to Hogwarts. He ignored the students looking at him with weird expression and went straight to Remus' quarter. The door was opened after he pounded hard on the door a few time.

"Do you really have to do that?" Remus greeted him with no hospitality at all. He wasn't happy to see him either.

"I did think it would be better if I blasted the door, it would give a better effect." Severus sneered.

"You're crazy." Remus sighed. "What do you want?"

"Do you have any drink? I think I need it."

Remus opened the door and let him in. "What happened?"

Severus told the werewolf what had happened. From Harry abduction and Larry's escapade, to his almost seeing Sirius again.

"Is Harry alright?" Remus asked with the hints of worry in his voice.

"Sure, he would be fine. Draco would make sure of that." Severus glared; he wasn't even reaching his point. "I was so close, could you believe that?" Severus said sadly.

Remus said nothing but offered him a drink.

Severus laughed humourlessly. "Do you know what I did after I refused Draco's offer for lunch? I slept and drank."

"What are you going to do now, Severus?" Remus asked sombrely. "You not even close to the man Sirius love."

"You kept saying that he loves me," Severus glared. "And you know what? He left me. He didn't want me, he want us to be together. Gryffindor."

Remus silently watched his ex lover. "That's because he loves you that much. He thought you love me, and that was why he chose to leave."

Severus looked at the werewolf. "Do you really think the two of us have no chance? Maybe we could work it out. We might be happy together."

Remus smirked. "Really Severus. You should stop fooling yourself. Tell me, who were you thinking of when you get yourself drunk? You didn't madly in love with me and I know I don't love you, what we share was only carnal need."

"Yeah." Severus sighed dejectedly. "You're probably right."

"You're pathetic." Remus sneered. "Pull yourself together, Severus. He would return one day, to where Harry is, and if he saw you like this, he might realise that he didn't love you."

Severus only sneered back.

"He returned you money, didn't he?" Remus smiled to himself. "It's a proof that it wasn't money that makes him stayed with you. I'll make him love me, I'll be a better man and he would love me. He used to care about me."

Severus frowned; he didn't like this at all. "I didn't come here to hear your gloat."

"Go back, Severus." Remus smiled sadly. "We really shouldn't start this."

"I will look for him, Remus." Severus said lowly. "Next time, I'll make him stay with me. He couldn't just leave me like this."

"I know you would."

"Hey, think we could be friends?" Severus lifted one eyebrow.

Remus frowned. "What do you want?"

"I don't think I can move. Just let me sleep will you?"

Remus shook his head. "Sure, we could be friends, but that wouldn't stop me from taking Sirius away from you."

"You could try, my friend." Severus smirked. "But whatever it is that make Sirius to love me, I'll find it back and make him madly in love with me."

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