I saw Axel sitting by himself in a corner. He had been like that since Roxas had betrayed the Organization a few weeks ago. There was something that had been on my mind since Roxas left, but I couldn't talk to Axel about it. I wanted to learn more about the one I had come from. But that would mean traveling abroad and I didn't want to leave the Organization like Roxas. I had no opportunity...until now. I walked up to Axel and tapped him on the shoulder, pulling my hood up as I did so. He looked up at me and I nodded. He nodded back and stood up. We started walking together. We hadn't gone five steps when Demyx came running up. "Hey Axel, have you seen Zephyra?" Axel glanced at me and I nodded slightly. Axel nodded at Demyx and then jerked his head at me. Demyx did a double-take and then recovered. "Hey Zephyra, congrats on the new mission!" I inwardly groaned.
"Thanks Demyx," I whispered. He looked over at Axel.
"Yeah, she's one lucky girl to get THAT mission." Axel cocked one eyebrow.
"What mission are we talking about here Demyx?" Demyx raised his eyebrows a bit.
"You mean...She didn't tell you?" I decided now was the time to get out of there.
"Hey Demyx, so sorry to rush, but...Xaldin needed to talk to us, so..."
"Oh, OK then. Congrats again Zephyra." I waved and grabbed Axel by his elbow and dragged him away. When we got far enough away, I let go.
"So, care to tell me what this mission is?" I sighed.
"I've been assigned to travel to 7 worlds and kill Heartless and collect their hearts."
"What worlds?"
"Uhm... Hollow Bastion, Port Royal, Agrabah, Halloween Town, Olympus Coliseum, the Land of the Dragons,and Twilight Town. It would only be temporary though..."
"So when do you expect to be back? That shouldn't take longer than 4 weeks."
"...only I'm going to be doing more than just killing Heartless and collecting hearts."
". . .Is there more to the mission than that?" I shook my head. "The what else are you going to be doing there?" I took the deep breath before taking the plunge.
"I'm going to discover who I was before I was Zephyra." Axel got a wild-eyed look and then without without warning, he had me up against the wall.
"You're gonna leave, just like Roxas did. You're gonna leave me too, well I won't LET you!" I gave him the even-level stare I give everyone.
"Do you HONESTLY think I would be like Roxas and leave the Organization? The one thing that has given me a purpose again?"
"Why aren't you HAPPY with that purpose?"
I couldn't look him in the face. I looked away." I feel like something is missing Axel. Like there's a part of me I don't know. A part I need to know."
"There is something missing Zephyra...it's your heart. THAT is why you joined the Organization in the first place."
"There's something else missing Axel. I don't know what it is exactly, but I know it's there and I'm going to find out what that is." Axel looked like he was going to argue more, but instead he lowered me down a bit and rested his head on my stomach. I rubbed his hair almost subconsciously. I honestly would rather have him be angry at me than this defeated attitude he had right now. "Hey don't worry. I'll be back."
"I know." But he still didn't raise his head. In fact, he clutched tighter to my sides. I didn't really mind. I actually liked him caring so much. However, the wall was getting uncomfortable.
"Uhm, Axel? Could you put me down please?" He looked up at me then, his eyes so heartbreaking, I knew that if he could, he would be crying. Nevertheless, he lowered me down slowly, dragging me all the way down his body. "Let's head to my room. We can talk more there."
"Nothing really to talk about," he mumbled, but he followed anyway.
I couldn't believe it. She was leaving me just like Roxas did. I don't get it... What is it that these two are looking for? There isn't anything more than the Organization...is there? We got to her room and we sat on the bed. "I know I can't talk you out of going, but please don't be a stranger."
"I won't, I promise." She leaned against me and I slid my arms around her, after looking around to see if he window curtains were closed and the door was locked. She looked up at me, her orange eyes sparkling of their own accord. I turned her light next to the bed off and we were both cast into darkness. I bent down to capture her lips with mine. She turned into me in response, responding even more by invading my mouth with her tongue. This is what we did every night, but tonight felt different for some reason, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I think it was because the difference was coming from me. I moved my lips from hers to her neck. I was wondering how far I could push my luck tonight. She stiffened for only a little bit, but then she moaned softly and arched her head back, giving me more space. I wondered just how far she'd let me go tonight, because I knew right then, if she didn't stop me soon, there was no stopping me tonight.
I felt him push me back onto the bed. I knew something was different about him tonight, but I wasn't about to stop him. It FELT so good. He moved to my throat and dragged his teeth over my pulse. Then he kissed his way down, his hands sliding down to the zipper of the robe we all wore. I froze for a second. Oh god, I thought, he's undressing me!Did I dare stop him? No, his teeth teasing my pulse pulled me closer to the edge. I felt him unzip the robe and push it gently off my shoulder as his lips moved down to where my neck met my shoulder and he bit down. I gasped out of shock and pleasure, not pain. My robe was off me and I heard him take his gloves off and trace his finger all the way down my arm and pull my hand up to his mouth, where he nibbled on my wrist before kissing it. I moaned softly, my hands trailing up to his shoulders. I reached for the zipper of his robes and he whispered in a voice that wasn't his own, "Zephyra." That caused me to look up into his eyes, which were so dark, they were black. "If we continue this, there's no stopping." I think he was warning me, not threatening me. I could feel a warm bulge right on my stomach where he was resting on top of me. "If you want me to stop, say so now, because I won't be able to later." For a moment, a hint of fear passed through me, but I was too gone in pleasure to care anymore.
"Axel," I whispered. He looked at me with such intensity, I felt my mouth go dry. Instead, I nodded and said, "please...continue. Don't stop."
"Are you sure you want this," he asked as he trailed his hand slowly up from my stomach to my chest, where the main knot for my top was, tucked inconspicuously under a few of the strips of cloth. I knew that he really wanted me to say yes, but the fact that he would stop would've brought tears to my eyes. I nodded, I couldn't speak. If possible, his eyes went darker as he bent his head to mine to capture my lips again as his hand reached the main knot of my top. With apparent ease, he undid the knot and began to unwrap my top, lifting my top half off the bed while he did so. While he was doing that, I was unzipping his robe and pushing it off his arms. He stopped and helped me take his robe off before returning his attention to my top. Soon, it floated down to the building pile of clothes and my chest was exposed to him. I was always a bit self-conscious about my boobs, so I tried to wrap my arms around them to hide them. Axel grabbed my hands and held them above my head as he looked at them. "Why were you trying to hide them," he asked as he nuzzled one. I moaned softly.
"I...I'm a little self-conscious about them." I arched to his head.
"Oh but why? I think they're very nice," he said with a wicked grin as he bent his head to my chest, taking one of my nipples into his mouth. I gasped, pleasure coursing through my bloodstream. If possible, I arched more towards him. he let go of my hands and I used them to press his head more onto my nipple. His other hand started gently circling the other one. I was breathing heavily now and I think Axel was too. He raised his head up to look at me, before sliding his hands down to the belt with the cloth on it. "You wear far too much clothing," he complained as the belt joined the rest of the clothing on the ground by my bed. I looked at him and decided he was right, seeing as how he was wearing no top and he had his pants on only.
"I guess so," I agreed as I reached for his pants. He swatted my hand away and waggled his finger at me.
"Uh Uh UUUH," he admonished. "None of that." He took my shorts off and then as the leggings came off, I was lying there, completely naked in front of Axel. I blushed and looked away from him. "Aw, is someone feeling a little self-conscious?" I nodded. "we'll need to fix that." With that he pulled down his pants and he was lying next to me, completely naked too. My eyes for some reason were drawn to his 'anything but little' friend. He grinned a proud grin and then pushed me back down on the bed. "Easy tiger. Relax, it'll come soon enough." I threw a look of fear at him real quick. His face melted into a frown. "What's wrong Zephyra?"
"N-N-N-Nothing. He's just...uh... really big." His face smoothed out into a smile and he lay down on top of me, his friend right at my entrance. I almost panicked. But I realized that I was with Axel and I trusted him.
"So what was the problem?"
"I...er...don't think he'll...uhm... fit." He smiled a reassuring smile.
"He will. Don't worry." He then slowly began pushing his way into me. My mind floated away. I closed my eyes and held my breath as he went oh so slowly into me. Suddenly he said, "Don't worry Zephyra. You can open your eyes. It's all the way in."
"You mean I took it all?"
"Yeah," he kind of grunted at me, and when I opened my eyes, I could see he was struggling to contain himself. I nodded at him and he began moving in and out of me. Fire...I was on fire. Everything inside of me was burning and it was yearning for something to cool it down. The heat only grew as Axel picked up his pace. I moaned loudly, I know, and then began matching his pace.
Cold... I was so cold. I felt like ice had entered my bloodstream. I needed heat. I was thrusting frantically into Zephyra when her legs came around my hips. She was warm. She had the warmth my body was craving.
When my legs went around Axel, he felt very cold. He had the coolness my body was craving. I gripped his cold shoulders and trust myself harder onto him, every thrust stimulating me in ways I couldn't possibly begin to understand.
Her hands on my shoulders were so warm, but when she trust herself harder onto me, basically slamming herself down onto me, I felt a wave of ice crash over me so that I almost stopped breathing. I know I shivered.
I felt him shiver. But the cold felt so good to my overheated body. My body screamed. I needed release. And suddenly, there it was. I was screaming, but the relief was so intense. the cool balm I needed was there, and when Axel came inside me, it only furthered the cooling process.
When I felt her come, hearing her scream, my body felt a flash of warmth and that was it. I exploded inside of her, the ice leaving my body and the warmth from hers coming to me. It was heaven to feel warm again.
When my mind finally came back to me, Axel was resting on top of me, still buried to the hilt in me. I had never felt so good in my life. Axel's breathing was normal, so it must have been awhile since we finished. Axel stirred on me. "Am I getting heavy," he asked as he pulled himself out of me. I shook my head; I didn't think I could speak. "I should probably get back to my own room." I shook my head again.
"I...I want you to stay," I whispered. I think that was all I could pull off. He looked up at me with his now green eyes and said
"You sure?" I nodded. "Ok then," he said as he lay down beside me. He flung an arm out and I rolled next to him. His arm came around me. "You okay," he asked.
"Yeah, just tired." I saw a faint smile on his face.
"Yeah, I am too. We should get some sleep. We can talk in the morning." I nodded. I needed to think a bit. He fell asleep soon enough, but I lay awake for a bit. I thought I would feel guilty afterwards, but I didn't. I had just slept with Axel and I wasn't ashamed by that. Did I love him? How could I? I had no heart, but there was something there for him and I felt no regret over sleeping with him. Would I do it again? I looked up at him sleeping next to me, a faint grin on his face. I snuggled next to him and as I drifted off to sleep, I gave myself an answer.
"Hell Fucking Yes."