Chapter 12

So much time had past since the 'revolution' of some of the Organization

members ended. Roxas had all but disappeared from the face of any

world and we who were once thirteen were now only eight. Zephyra and

I were lying naked and entangled in the sheets, staring out to the

World That Never Was. I leaned my head down to smell her hair which

always and forever smelled of exotic spices since she last visited

the Land of Dragons. She had an unfortunate mishap with a spice

vendor and forever she smelled of ginseng. It was a nice smell for

her. I nibbled lightly on her ear. "I love you,"I whispered. She froze. She looked up at me with startled eyes.

"What did you say?"

"I...I said I love you," I responded, confused by her reaction. "I... I thought that... I thought it was obvious." She disengaged herself from my arms and immediately started picking up her clothes. "What's the matter?"I got up and went to her, wrapping my arms around her waist as she bent down to pick up her shorts.

"Axel," I heard her whisper. "You can't say you love me. You do not feel

love. We have no hearts." I sigh in frustration and move one of

my hands from her waist to my hair.

"You don't have to keep saying that you know," I whisper back.

"Why not? You don't mean it when you say you love me because you CAN'T

mean it.. no matter how much you want to." I barely heard the

last part of that sentence she had lowered her voice so much.

"Why can't you just accept that I want to mean it and move on," I asked as I seductively nibbled on the back of her neck. Neither of us had a mission to go on anytime soon and the Superior hadn't called on us or for a meeting. She jerked a

little out of my arms, effectively moving her beautiful neck away

from my hungry lips.

"Because I don't want you saying false words to me ever. Especially those

three words." I laughed darkly then.

"If you don't want me to say false words to you, then every word

involving an emotion is false.

"Don't be a smart mouth to me Axel!" She had put on her shorts and was

hastily put on her cloak. I grabbed it and I shoved her against the

wall. She gasped then moaned as I pushed down her shorts and my

fingers slid down to her pussy. I slid three in and out slowly, all

the while ravaging her mouth before stopping completely, leaving her

standing weak kneed against the wall.

"According to you, you didn't really just feel that," I said sharply as I

began to stomp away. Then I felt ice and my legs were stuck to the floor. Irritated, I melted the ice. I went to walk away but I felt her hand on my throat and she threw me down onto the bed. She straddled me and impaled herself on my member. My eyes widened in surprise. We were never ones for quickies, but this looked like it

was going to be one as she started slamming herself up and down on me

at an alarming rate. Just as I was about to come, she got completely

off me and looked at me with a vindictive edge.

"According to me, you weren't really close to orgasm," she said as she

threw her cloak on herself without bothering to put on anything underneath. She left and I almost cried as I used my hand to finish the job. I thought about what I had said. I almost cried again... because she had not said those three words back to me.

I wasn't angry with him. I was frustrated with him though. He had said

he loved me. He couldn't love me. Why did he have to say he loved me?

I was working towards getting our hearts; I did not have much luck. I

was still looking. I was so irritated with Axel's lack of patience

that I almost ran Xaldin over. He reached out to balance me out.

"Xemnas was looking for you," he muttered as he continued on his merry way. I sighed and I went to the Alter of Naught where Xemnas stood looking at the nearly complete Kingdom Hearts.

"Superior, you were looking for me," I said as I did a little bow. He turned

his orange eyes to me and his eyes seemed to be lit with an insane

fire.

"Yes. I have another person for you to kill." I swallowed. I had assasinated

someone since he had asked me to kill Everly.

"Sir, why not ask Xaldin or Xigbar?" I was shocked at myself. I had never

questioned the Superior's orders. But this was one thing I was not willing to do again. Xemnas smiled a cruel smile as he advanced towards me. I backed away without any conscious thought of doing so.

"Zephyra, did you ever wonder why you were brought into the Organization so easily? Why you were allowed to keep your name the way you had always had

it?"

"N-n-n-no Superior... I just thought..." Xemnas laughed then.

"You were allowed all these... 'privileges' because you were chosen to kill

without question. That is why you have existed. You were made to be a killing machine. Ever wonder why you could beat almost anyone in combat? It is because when you were Created, you were given the speed and agility of a Heartless." I was backed up against the wall. Xemnas was sneering at me with his cold, pitiless eyes looking at me. He leaned down far too close to me... I could see each of his

gleaming teeth as he went a hairs-breath away from my ear; an ear that Axel had been lovingly nibbling not even an hour ago. "You have always obeyed orders without question, did you ever wonder why? Everyone else complains... did you? Never. Do you wish to know why?" I shook my head.

"N-n-n-n-no. NO! Don't tell me!" I tried to escape from beneath him against

the wall, but he grabbed my arm and roughly pulled me against him. I was caught in his vice-like grip. I struggled against him, but he did not let go. He laughed openly at me now. He bent his head to my face and forced me to look into his eyes. He was grinning a wicked smile.

"Well, since you want to know so bad," he whispered as he moved his mouth over to my ear again. He whispered words I did not think I would

ever, ever forget. "You are not a full Nobody Zephyra. You are only half of a Nobody. You are a Heartless as well. You did not deserve to be among our ranks, yet you have become our greatest asset. Because of you, we have captured more hearts than we ever did with Roxas," he spat Roxas' name out between his teeth. "After you finish a mission, when you sleep, we go into your mind and take the hearts of the people in your memory. You are nothing more than a tool to use Zephyra, to use how we see fit. You do not deserve the name of a Nobody. But because of you, soon we will be real." He let go of me then so that I fell to the ground at his feet. He smiled a cruel smile and said "You will never exist Zephyra, because you are and will forever be a Heartless first and foremost... You are a Heartless Zephyra... Do not pretend to be what you are not."