Chapter 13
I was sitting on the edge of my bed, thinking about the argument Zephyra and I had not too long ago when I heard a portal open behind me. I turned to see her entering my room and collapsing on the floor. I heard sobbing coming from her. Crying out, I raced over to her and pulled her into my lap. She was crying fully now, tears pouring down her lovely face. I whispered soothing, loving words to her as I rocked her back and forth in my arms. Finally, she stopped crying enough to talk. "Zephyra, what's the matter?"
"I...I really am nothing. Even if we get our hearts back, I won't be real again. I will never be real again." Renewed tears fell down her face, but she just wiped them away with a defeated gesture.
"What are you talking about? Every Organization member will get their hearts back once we are real." She shook her head.
"Not me."
"Why not?" She looked up at me with eyes that would have broken my heart. As is, it caused an ache in my chest where my heart should have been.
"I...I can't..." she looked away then. "I'm leaving the Organization." Startled and frightened, I grabbed her arms.
"Wha... WHY?"
"Because I'm not going to be used anymore. I don't want to belong to a group that uses me as a tool."She stood up and took off her Organization outfit and put on the clothes that had been left in my room from earlier. She hesitated, and then turned to me. "I am going to find out who I was before. See what kind of person I was. If I wasn't a good person, maybe I won't feel so sad about not being real again. Also, I'm going to find your heart for you."
"Zephyra, stay with me... please." Tears were filling my eyes, I knew. I could feel the pressure behind my eyes. She looked at me with heartbroken, pitying eyes.
"I can't. Trust me when I say I can't. I will find your heart for you. I promise." As she began to fade into a portal she created behind her, she whispered, "By the way, what you said to me before... right back at you." And then she was gone. I cried, letting all the pain and sorrow I felt flow. She loved me... at least I thought she did. I cried harder, knowing she still hadn't said those three words to me.
I felt bad for leaving Axel without telling him why I suddenly decided to leave the Organization. But I couldn't tell him... I couldn't tell him I was a Heartless. I looked back at Castle Oblivion as I reached the alley which had a portal in it. I was never going to come back again, except for when I would Axel his heart back and then together we could leave. I did something very immature and sent the Castle the middle finger and said "FUCK YOU ALL YOU MANIPULATING BASTARDS!" Then, I lowered my hand and whispered barely above hearing, "except you Axel. I promise you will see me again. And the next time I see you, we will finally be able to be fully and completely together." I turned away and entered the portal, leaving this world I had known for so long to never again return. I never did return to this world. For not everything is as it seems in this reality known as light.