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Chapter 2
Seven years old...I was such a beautiful girl, long red-blonde hair, green eyes. Then, I was so adorable, well, maybe too much. But that's another story. At this time, my parents were always fighting. So one day, I went downstairs, near the front door. My father's luggage was by it. And I saw him, sitting on the couch. He looked at me. At that moment, I didn't know, but it was the last time. And now that I think about it...probably the last time of my not-that-much-long-life.
"Hey, little Angel. Come here," he gestured at me.
His voice was grave, some kind of sad. He had his guitar (yeah my dad was a musician) in his hands. So I came with the hope inside of me that he would play something for me. I was close to him. And I saw the water in his eyes. I felt my heart squeeze. I remember that I was afraid.
"You know you're the best thing ever for me…but I need to leave you and your mom. Because your mommy loves someone else. Do you understand, Scarlet?" he asked me as he looked into my eyes.
I was stuck. I just stopped to think. In the head of the little girl that I was, my fairytale was broken now.
"Yes, I think that I understand, Daddy. Will I ever see you again?" I asked him.
Okay, now it's the first big lie I was told of my life.
"Of course. You're my daughter! And I love you!" he embraced me in a hug.
I hugged him. And I never saw him again. We only talked on the phone. I know that he has a wife and 3 kids.
"Me too, Daddy. I love you more than the universe. I promise that I will not like 'the someone else'!" I promised.
It makes me laugh how I was kind of smart when I was younger. A cute ballet dancer.
"Scarlet, I want to give you something," he began.
He showed me his guitar and put it in my little hand.
"I put my soul in here, so take care of it."
He looked at his watch.
"Okay, angel...I need to leave now. Take care of you and your mother."
He gave me the biggest hug ever...and walked away. I never saw him again. And I keep the guitar...and it will be always the only one that I will have. The only one that I play with...this guitar…it's now my soul.
So, seven years old, no dad anymore. Welcome to the new step-father...it's really because of him that I am what I am now. It's hard for me to talk about this part of my life...if it was only the fact that my dad is gone, but it's not sad for me. You know when you're a kid, you are just innocent, think that everything is beautiful, everybody is trustful? And he broke that...He broke everything in me…
'Breathe Scarlet...breathe...everything is all right, he will be in jail soon. No, not tears...'
The worst thing is that he didn't do it just once but he did it so many times. I'm not able to say each time. I remember the first time. I remember him and his friends. I remember his universe and how he treats me, remember the last time...
He was leaving with us. My dads was gone, my mom invited him to live with us. My friend was sometimes laughing at me with this situation, like Holly J...she was my friend at this age, with Anya. The three girlfriends of the ballet.
My stepfather and I were alone one night. Babysitting for him and pizza for me! Yeah! My mom worked late.
I remember this night. It was fun, I watched baseball with him and he showed me some tricks with his motorcycle. You know the cool stepfather. My bedtime came around. He kissed my forehead...and after my lips. He put his tongue in my mouth. I was so young, so innocent, understood nothing. Not able to put him off on me. Oh yes, I remember each detail. He was on me, I was able to smell him...beer, cigar and beer. He began to caress me with his rough hands...everywhere. He pulled down his pants, his boxers, mine too... you know the rest. I lost my virginity at 7 years old, by my stepfather. I will always remember this night. It sticks in my head. I think of that each day of my life.
So the me that you now know begins in this era.
End of
Chapter 2
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