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Chapter 7 - I Don't Wanna Feel It
"Honey, where is the napkin? We forgot Wyatt's napkin!" Piper started rummaging through the contents of one of the bags she was holding.
"It's right here, Piper." Leo replied with a smile.
"And his bottle?" Piper looked at her husband.
"In the car." Leo sighed but still kept a smile on his face.
"What about that blue pajamas Phoebe got Wyatt for his birthday?" Piper asked quickly.
"It's in the bag you're holding."
"And extra diapers? His jacket? Oh, did we put two blankets in the car in case it gets cold in the evening?" Piper widened her eyes.
"It's all taken care of, Piper." Leo sighed heavily. "And with the little luck, we'll be there before evening."
Phoebe laughed. "You'll be lucky if you get there before morning, Leo. It's gonna take hours to actually convince Piper everything is alright."
Piper looked at her little sister with a sarcastic smile. "I just wanna make sure everything's ok."
"Everything is okay, honey. Now you need to go." Phoebe laughed.
"Yeah, ok..." Piper turned around and started walking towards the front door but before she made five steps, she spun around again. "Oh and if the demon attacks..."
Phoebe chuckled. "We'll just call for Leo. We know."
"Yeah, if Leo by any chance doesn't hear you, call for Cole." Piper said quickly.
Phoebe sighed. "Uhh yeah, of course. But please try to make sure Leo hears us, okay?"
Piper raised her eyebrows. "So that you could avoid Cole for another week?"
Phoebe rubbed the back of her neck. "I'm not avoiding him." she said quickly and slipper her sister a very fake smile that even she knew looked not-so-convincing. "What makes you think I'm avoiding him?"
"I can see your wisdom teeth." Piper mocked. "Besides Phoebe, you have always sucked at lying."
Phoebe pouted. "Would you just go already?" she asked her sister and stepped forward to help Leo take one of the bags to the front door.
"Yes, we will." Piper grinned. "You just be safe and... try not to endanger your relationship with Jason, will you? I never stick into your personal life but I'm pregnant so I just have to live through my sisters."
Phoebe rolled her eyes and pretended to be annoyed but ended up grinning as usual. "Yeah, whatever. I know better than to let go of Jason right now, Piper. Don't worry too much about it. You just take care and keep this little one here safe." Phoebe bent over to Piper's belly. "Bye, my little nephew." she said in the baby voice. "I love you, you are gonna be the prettiest baby in the world and your auntie is gonna spoil you and buy you stuff and love you..."
Piper rolled her eyes even though she found her little sister very funny when acting like that. "Shall we?" she said to her husband. "She could go on like this forever if we let her."
Phoebe pulled a face at her sister but smiled nevertheless. "You guys have fun." she escorted her sister and her brother-in-law to the front door as soon as all of the bags were carried out to the front porch.
"We will, thanks." Leo smiled and wrapped an arm around Piper's shoulders.
"You and Paige try having fun too." Piper hugged her sister. "And remember - Jason good, Cole bad." she chuckled.
"I know, just go!" Phoebe laughed. She was relieved to see her sister finally allow herself to be dragged off to the car by Leo and sighed as she watched them drive down the street and out of her sight.
"Jason good, Cole bad?" a male voice came up behind Phoebe and she quickly spun around.
"Cole, you scared me." She said quickly and tried not to look too nervous. Confrontation with him was the last thing she had expected.
"That's not the answer to my question." Cole slipped her a small smile which she returned only half-heartedly.
"It's just... sister stuff, don't think too much about it." Phoebe leaned onto a doorframe, torn between the desire to run inside the manor and slam the door into Cole's face and the desire to sit down and talk things through with him.
"Ok, if you say so..." Cole said while pulling an I-don't-care expression Phoebe could easily see through.
"Uh... Do you want some coffee?" Phoebe asked as she stepped inside the Manor, offering him to come inside.
"I think the real question is - do you want me to want it?" Cole replied. It was the cat-and-mouse game they could play for eternity if they allowed themselves to.
"I could use some company." Phoebe nodded. "As you could probably see, Leo and Piper have just left so I'm all alone."
"Though I am probably not the best choice you could pick, I'll pretend to be buying that and accept the invitation." Cole smiled and walked inside. "Just for the record, it's one teaspoon of sugar and no milk."
Phoebe looked right into his eyes and sighed heavily. "We might not have been living under the same room for quite awhile now but that doesn't mean I completely forgot everything about you, you know." she said quietly.
Cole took a step forward, now almost invading her personal space. "The kind of coffee I like?" he challenged, already knowing what her answer will be.
"Amongst the other things, yes." Phoebe whispered and backed off as Cole took another step forward. She took a deep breath to regain her composure. "I think I'll just go and make that coffee now." she said quickly and rushed off to the kitchen.
Cole leaned onto a wall with a small smile lingering in the corner of his lips. He was well aware that none of them needed what they were doing at that moment but he couldn't detain himself. His heart was aching for Phoebe, he couldn't deny himself the one opportunity he had had of spending some time with her, without her sisters or anybody else in their way.
He took a deep breath and went into the kitchen after Phoebe. When he stepped into the kitchen, he got nothing but a short glance from Phoebe who was apparently too busy making coffee. "Phoebe?" he asked in a low voice.
Phoebe sighed as she turned around to look into Cole's eyes. "Yeah?"
"Forget about the coffee, I should get going." Cole said with the last remaining ounces of strength within him.
"You've got work to do?" Phoebe asked politely.
"No, I just don't see this going anywhere where we want it to go." Cole replied and watched Phoebe shift her gaze from him to the floor. He could have sworn that she smiled for a split second although she gave no sign of it when she looked back at him again. "I'll just... see you later." he said slowly.
"Yeah, okay." Phoebe said and almost shivered as he took a step forward to give her a kiss on the cheek. His lips touched her cheek gently and the next thing she knew was that she pulled him into a kiss, one unlike any kiss they shared ever since he was vanquished as the Source. They both had their eyes shut and Cole wrapped his arms tight around her. They just kept kissing without thinking what they were doing, for they knew that if they thought about it only for a second, they would realize what a stupid thing it was.
Phoebe's heart was pounding against Cole's chest, she had her arms around his neck and was breathing heavily, concentrating only on his lips on hers and nothing else in the world. She ran her fingers through his hair and deepened the kiss, desperately hoping to stop the time and remain like that forever.
They were slowly moving towards the refrigerator and when Phoebe finally hit it with her back, their kiss broke. They were panting heavily and still had their eyes shut.
"Damn it." Cole heard Phoebe whisper to herself. He slowly opened his eyes to find her gaze piercing him. He let go of her and took a step backwards. They should have never kissed. He should have never allowed himself to feel all he was feeling at that moment. It was going to be so hard to walk out the front door of the Manor and he knew that was what he had to do.
Cole was looking back at her with such intensity that Phoebe couldn't even think about trying to calm down. "What just happened..." she started quickly, still breathing heavily.
"I know." Cole cut in.
"No Cole, you don't." she said a little angrily.
"Yes I do." he said, acting as if her attitude wasn't hurting him at all but she knew better. "You're going to say that what just happened didn't mean anything."
Phoebe looked down and Cole laughed bitterly. "Ok, I'll leave now. But if you give yourself only a second to think about this, you'll know that it did mean something to you. Maybe in your head it didn't but it did here." he gently placed his hand on where her heart was. Phoebe took his hand in hers slowly and walked into his embrace. Cole felt his heart skip a beat as he hugged her tightly.
"I don't wanna feel it." she whispered brokenly and he smiled. His instincts were never wrong and she proved it. She still had some feelings for him, after everything that happened between them.
"I know you don't. I've been there too, I know how that feels." he whispered back.
"Please go." Phoebe said while looking up into his eyes from his tight embrace.
Cole nodded and slowly let go of her. He figured it would be best if he didn't blur out right in front of her so he turned around, walked out of the kitchen and blurred out after closing the front door of the Manor and stepping out into the porch.