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What would you do if the person you loved, who loved you in return, left you for reasons unknown? And although you try to understand, you just can't seem to grasp the reason why…
Would you simply let it be then? And move on, as if it were another relationship in time, or would you stay and fight? Fight for another chance to be within their heart once more? This is a story of two lovers, broken by time… and brought together by fate…
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I do not own SM
It's All Because of You
(Rated MA)
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eM.pHi
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II. Wash Away My Tears
If only you were here, you'd wash away my tears…
the sun will shine, and once again you'll be mine…
since you've been gone there's such an emptiness inside…
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I was a little hesitant about this story at the beginning. Although a lot of people didn't really like the thought of me starting again, I feel I had to. Please understand that I did it because I wanted to, and knew that if I wanted to portray to everyone that I was a good writer I would have to do so.
Other than that I'm thoroughly relieved that it all worked out fine :) the reviews, favourites and alerts were wonderful and totally made my day! Thank you!
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The afternoon was bright and sunny, yet the cool winter air that brushed past exposed skin gave people a shudder or two. Even though it was nowhere near the cooler season as of yet, Mother Nature did always liked to play games. Grumbling I pull the jacket closer around my neck, the cool air was chilling me to the bones, causing long and ecstatic shivers to run up and down my spine where even large amounts of woolly materiel couldn't cover. Rei had reminded me to wear a scarf today, but I scoffed at her idea. Me, Mamoru Chiba wearing a scarf (which was oddly pink, even though she insisted it was red) would be in the same category as me wearing a Santa suit and harassing people for change in the middle of May.
I was never a big fan of winter; in fact the damn weather gave me such a foul mood at times that it drove me, and usually Rei insane with annoyance. My temper was limited to a thin thread in winter, my appearance was haggard and scrooge like in winter, and my ability to stay awake was such a difficult and sometimes such a painful task that often, I find myself waking up in my office at near dawn. Me and winter just didn't go hand in hand.
Like today for instance, after that… incident at the restaurant last night with Natarii, I feared going home and getting scolded by Rei for my reckless behaviour, and something along the lines of breaking yet another girl's heart… so thought it be… best avoided… therefore I resorted to the comforts of my office towards the City district, telling myself that I will start (and hopefully) finish the files that needed to be completed before the merger took suit. However once I was half way through reading the first contract, the cooling air around the office, and the ghost like whispers of the wind outside made me drowsy with sleep…
I was sure I'd only closed my eyes for a few minutes… yet here I was walking around mid morning the following day, with a slight hunger in my stomach and the undeniable feeling of irritation and loneliness. Irritated because of the unbelievably cold air that hung like a terrible stench and yet lonely because there were so many damn couples around. I felt the pit of my stomach churn in response when I came upon two couples in a passionate kiss. Have they no shame? Showing such affections out in public really wasn't needed. If people had wanted such things they would rent out romance movies, or if they were hardcore enough – porn.
Shaking my head in annoyance at the couple I lowered my gaze, there was no need to see such affections when one was obviously completely lonely. Walking swiftly, at an abnormally fast pace, I kept my eyes firmly on the ground as I made my way, hunched back, through the busy streets of Hong Kong. Suddenly starting to feel home sick I couldn't help but miss the quiet and lazy atmosphere of Japan. Everything was so simple then, so… carefree… you couldn't walk down a street without seeing someone you knew, or who knew you… everyone was friends with everyone else… people were happy… I was happy… but I lost that happiness… all too many years ago…
It was a day similar to this, if I recall correctly, the sky above was bright and sunny odd for a winter's day, and people were milling around holding hands, giggling and talking about what they would do during the winters break. I remember watching her from afar before I approached her that day… watched as she giggled at the childish acts children around her were doing, to seeing her crystal cobalt eyes soften at the sight of an elderly couple, still very much in love… I remember feeling my eyes become softer at her beauty, and my heart grew with such adoration for her… she was mine… my one and only love…
How time can change such things… now I doubt she even remembers my name…
Taking in a deep breath, as if to vent out the stupid past that has somehow, suddenly begun to build up within me, and letting it go, I watched as the air clouds over in a bubble of smoke by my mouth, before dying down to nothing but an even colder midst in front of my face. Grumbling, I began to walk faster. Maybe if I were to hurry home – despite the shouts and raves I would be receiving from Rei – I would be much warmer, and dare I say… sane.
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She was staring at the clock impatiently, as if daring it to go any slower. Her long manicured nails tapped restlessly upon the arm of the cream sofa in which she sat upon. Her short shouldered length raven hair, which was normally kept with such promise, frayed around her in disarray. From the dark circles underneath her eyes and the agitated look that she gave to employees within the household, who scrambled off at her intense stare, it was evident that she had stayed up the previous night waiting for a particular man to arrive home. To say that she was disappointed, annoyed and dangerously murderous was an understatement. Upon hearing about the wonderful display of a public break up last night, involving her brother and a humiliated female companion, who also happened to be one of her friends, she was close to seeing red.
She couldn't understand the man that she called her brother, he was strange, and had a personality so far from hers that it was sometimes such a hassle to try and figure him out, that she usually found herself giving up in pure exasperation. She was sure that his lack of interest of the female sex has nothing to do wit the possibility that he questioned his looks, as Rei had caught him many times in the bathroom mulling over his wrinkles or the hardly noticeable zit that he clamed to have appeared. His cabinet was filled with creams and facial peels that would put a woman's cabinet to shame for crying out loud!
Under normal circumstances, Rei found herself, although thoroughly disappointed, indifferent about his personal life involving ladies from all around the world. However, this particular lady friend in which her dear brother had decided to snag happened to be one of Rei's, overly dramatic, yet close friend! And if that wasn't enough, Rei had to go through the night listening to consent wailing and crying from the woman while the Neanderthal does god knows what!
The door crept open and Rei's eyes shot towards the sound, knowing all to well that her dear brother had finally decided to return home. Gripping the sofa arm in an almost killing reflex, she watched, with predatory eyes, as the raven hair man walked swiftly from the door past the living room, where she sat, to the base of the grand staircase, at such a speed that it was almost blind to the naked eye.
But being known to have sharp eyes, the sight of her brother was all too clear. Before Mamoru could place a foot upon the base of the staircase, Rei's chillingly calm voice rang through the air, "well, well, well… if it isn't my darling brother… what an interesting night it was for the both of us…" she purred, like a lioness ready to pounce upon her prey. She grinned, a grin so large that it bore two pairs of sharp canine teeth from both top and bottom row.
From her position she could see her brother visibly gulp. Knowing all too well; however the fearless and emotionless person he may appear to others, to a fellow Chiba, he was nothing more than a softy. He chuckled nervously, running a hand through his already messy hair, "Hello dear sister, you look astonishingly beautiful this morning, have you done new something to your hair?" he asked in a terrifyingly sweet voice.
"If you call this" she said pointing to herself "beautiful, than I fear that not only have you temporarily lost what little mind you had left, but you have somehow also gone blind!" her voice rising an octave higher with each syllable that she spoke until the last word uttered was so hight it caused the household to wince in pain.
Mamoru put his hands up in defence, trying to calm his raging sister; although knowing all too well that by doing so would render useless. Still he guessed he couldn't blame Rei for not understanding him. It wasn't as if he presented himself fregit from the ladies that surround him, far from it actually, seeing as he'd kept her awoke most of the nights from his companions consent moaning from down the hall. But honestly! It's not like she liked Natarii that much either! He thought, trying to stop the urge to roll his sapphire eyes at her. Even if he loved his darling sister with all his heart, he just couldn't understand why she was being so moody.
Well he supposed he couldn't be too judgemental. Rei and Natarii were friends after all, and being the… possessive and overly dramatic person that Natarii is, he had a strong hunch that she had called Rei up right after that moment and wailed uncontrollably over the phone to her until dawn. And though he was grateful that his lovely sister cared so much to worry over him and his life, he wished that she would stop, and live her life to her fullest, instead of wasting it away like he was…
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I growled deep within my throat, it frustrated me to no end that he was acting so calmly about this matter! He was a fool! Why would he want to be so damn stupid? I knew he was hurting inside for some reason, and even though I try to weasel it out of him he still keeps up the act of being the jolly Chiba, brush if off with a simple wave of his hand and the all too familiar line nothing to worry about dear sister, it was just another girl. Does he honestly believe that I would worry less if I knew why he chooses to be so lonely? The complete idiot! I thought, baring my teeth in an angry scowl at his retreating back. Anyone with half a brain would know that Mamoru Chiba was lonely. It was so evident in his eyes…
Shaking my head, I couldn't help but still feel great dislike for my own flesh and blood at this particular moment in time. He was acting like a five year old, like a child! Toying with people's feelings like that! Doesn't he know that by hurting other people, it does nothing to cover up his own pain? By hurting others, his just putting more oil onto his own ache… so many people talk about the feeling, of being hurt, in songs, through movies, in poetry… but I know that he's the only person understanding their meanings… he was the only one feeling the pain… and although the smart and handsome prodigy of my mothers first husband, I feel that Mamoru has a lot to learn when it came to love.
Sometimes I wish I could slap some sense into that thick skull of his.
Yet I couldn't help but noticed that bits of he's personality reminded me so much of a friend I had back in the collage days. She was well mannered, tall, blonde and very strong minded. Her motto was always 'go hard or go home' but even with that persona, from getting to know her I knew she was a kind hearted girl, gentle yet broken inside. I could still remember moments when I would catch her drifting off into her own world… and if you were to look closely enough, you could see the pain that was in her eyes, the hurt and loneliness that cried out for help… there were so many things in her past that I couldn't even measure up to.
She held such an air about her that, despite her small frame and angel like appearance, she was stubborn and one hell of a debater. Her voice would rise with each statement she had, and her ability to walk with such confidence made me envious at times. She had taught me heaps, how to stay strong through tough times and how to stick to what I believe in.
"Your heart is the strongest muscle in your body. If you have passion for something, show it."
I hadn't seen her since I'd moved in with my brother 10 months ago, back when I knew nothing of a brother. However, once I had found out, thanks wonderfully to my mother who happened to blub it out when she was hospitalised, I felt… reluctant to share my life with a stranger and therefore stayed with her. She was generous and although she worked non stop at the hospital, she was always full of energy. From last I heard she now works at this big law firm in the city district. And although she hates it there, the money is 'godly…'
Sighing once more, I head towards my room. Running a hand through my terribly messy hair, how at times I missed the length of it, but it was beginning to be irritating when it fizzled in the warmer seasons. At least now it was simpler to manage, not to mention it's totally with the fashion trend. Walking past his room I growled, no matter how of a good mood I was in, he's stupidity drove me up the wall! There's no use in trying to teach an old dog new tricks, and with such a thick headed skull such as his, the ability to get any sense into him would be nothing but a big, fat, waste of time!
Once inside my room I run and fall happily upon my bed. Due to Natarii's insistent crying last night, I hadn't had the opportunity to catch any shut eye. What I need right now is a good slice of cake and coffee and a nice friend to bitch too! Maybe I should call her up and try to catch up on old times… i'd do it tonight I thought, as I closed my eyes, awaiting sleep with open arms…
However, it seemed that god decided differently as my cell phone began to ring continuously beside my head. Grumbling I was ready to ignore the call, believing that if it were important, they would simply leave a message… however my hands stopped in their track when I saw the name flashing upon the LCD.
Minako Aino…?
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