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I do not own SM
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It's All Because of You
(Rated MA)
eM.pHi
V. One Sided
I've noticed lately, you ain't the same and I…
apologise for all the times I made you cry
you're emotions go crazy, confusing my lately…
I know you're worth, what you deserve…
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Addiction, such a simple word could hold such grasps on someone. It mightn't seem like much, but addiction can break souls… tear families… and cause death amongst its lackeys… odd, how in order to live, one must succumb to their addiction… only to ultimately die in the end… addiction was a nasty thing, evil, relentless… cunning… it destroyed even the strongest of them all, the ones who seem unbeatable, inhumane. Even they, could be in line for addictions twisted ways…
One of these so called, inhumane beings was Usagi herself. Yes it seemed that even the toughest of lawyers fall under the spells of addiction. To those who know of this addiction find it surprising, some even laughed and questioned whether something so trivial as that could be counted as an addiction, but to Usagi, her addiction was her destroyer. It had caused her shame numerous times over and over again throughout her adulthood… yet it seemed that today would be the worse…
It had been a week since that incident with Mamoru, the man that had stolen her heart, only to break it so. And although it was only a week, it had seemed that he had yet again invaded her life. The image of the raven haired man with his unforgettable azure eyes resembled somewhat like a bug, an annoying bug that would buzz around within her mind until she would wake up in bed with a hot sweat dripping from her brows. It seemed that her dreams were becoming more… vivid, to say the least…
He was a dangerous man…
She had buried herself in work, sometimes even staying at the office until the break of dawn, and although she had completed her work for the next two months, it seemed the employees and her employers had little to celebrate about, as she was a walking time bomb ready to explode. This only happened to prove to Minako what a walking wreck she was after seeing her ex once again.
Because after being snapped at for no particular reason Minako had, had about enough. She sat Usagi down and demanded why she was being so damn jumpy all of the sudden. This only made Usagi mumble something incoherent, and then began to speak in jumbled terms of how randomly she had ran into her ex, who happened to be Mamoru, and how he had been so egotistical, and a complete jerk, yet managed to make her feel like she was the only person in the world.
This made Minako thoroughly confused and therefore forcefully kicked Usagi out of the office, and demanded that she relax.
More like kicked my arse out of that office and demand I don't return until I'm sane… she thought moodily, it wasn't her fault that this stupid man had to be so infuriating, she had it up to the peak of her sanity before she would seriously began to go almost psychopathic.
The feeling of joy was felt lesser and lesser each day since the moment she had ran into him, and to make things worse tonight marked the night that she would see him. Just this thought made her feel almost sick to the stomach. Could it be that she was feeling abnormally nervous? If only the fool hadn't called her that afternoon in such a chirpy mood, reminding her of her early death, then Usagi wouldn't have been this… annoyed – to say lightly, as she felt nothing more than to ram her tiny fist into his family jewels.
Are you sure it's your fist and not something else Usagi…?
Stupid voice. Shut up.
Curse the man for his ability to cause her to feel as if she were a confused teen yet again, fretting about the worries of boys and sex. She was an adult of 23! Those years of puberty had vanished many years ago, and she'd be damned if she had to feel them again. They had caused her hell back in the day, confused, angry, and annoyed and no way in the 7th seas of hell would she ever want those emotions present once again.
"Cunning little bastard…" she muttered under her breath, only to blush furiously as an elderly woman in front of her turned with a tsk, and gave her a bit of a dirty look. Thank god that she was feeling at her lowest, or else she would have made herself a bigger fool by glaring back and giving the lady a good talking to. Sometimes she wondered why god didn't give people the ability to read minds – it wasn't like she was swearing at the child before her. Damn that man for causing me to feel like such a fool! She cursed colourfully in her mind. He was driving her crazy, to the point that she questioned her sanity.
Life could simply not get any worse…
"Ms. Tsukino… is that you?" a husky, oddly familiar and dreadful voice sounded from afar.
Why god…? I was a good child…
Usagi cursed loudly in her mind, as she did not want to receive another dirty from that woman before her. It seemed that god liked to play dirty on her today. It wasn't embarrassing enough to be mistaken as a mere child on their first meeting, standing here before her addiction will inevitably cause him to question her adulthood once again.
She had to gulp a large quantity of normal before she could face him, where she knew lay an amusing smile upon his face. Yet when she had managed to pull up all her years of training as a lawyer, and voided her face of emotions, what she saw for a split second almost caught her off guard. Almost.
Emotions had run so intensely through his eyes that she was almost overthrown by the depth they had. His eyes were like windows into his soul, and for that moment, she had felt his pain. Yet it disappeared as soon as it came, and the amused smug look was plastered on his face. Bastard… she thought, wanting nothing more than for him to feel pain.
"Well… I must say it's an amusing yet delightful surprise to see you here." A deep chuckle escaped the grand canvas of his body when he had reached her, and it seemed that at that particular moment, the sex pheromones of women within a 15 metre radius of him grew substantially at his mere existence. Usagi grunted in annoyance, as she watched the female species practically frothing at the mouth.
Pathetic really… she had thought so disgustingly, it wasn't bad enough that everywhere he went back in the day, that women were practically at his feet, but it seemed that over the years, not only have the numbers grown substantially, but losing their sanity and human like nature was just too much. Did they have no dignity? It made her feel slightly robbed that her fellow sisters weren't radiating extreme hate at this god like man. "What an unpleasant surprise seeing you here" she hissed, causing him to smile at her even more.
It didn't seem to bother Mamoru at the latest that he got under her skin. In fact it gave him much joy to be the centre of her hatred. It was a game of cat and mouse. Yet instead of a mouse, Usagi would be more like a rabbit, and instead of a cat, Mamoru would be more like a lion. A damn handsome and powerful lion. Although sometimes he wished he affected her in other ways than just pure hatred, for the closeness that he had once shared with her was indeed, dearly missed.
But he was simply enjoying this too much to bother at the moment. At least they were communicating in some way, whether it be words of disgust or annoyance.
"Work was driving me a little insane so I thought I'd take a bit of a break. Walking does wonders you know? Though it gave me a great shocker to see you here… especially someone like you dear Usagi"
"Why you pompous, infuriating, conceited-"
"Yes I know it gives you great satisfaction in saying such loving words to me dear Usagi, but I must ask you, why, is someone at you stature, standing before a lolly skill tester?"
Her face grew bright red at his statement. Really, he didn't have to go and state the obvious, couldn't he be at least human enough to realise that she was a victim of addiction? She had thought she'd grown out of these years ago, but it seemed that no matter where she was, what she was doing, or if she was in the midst of something else, once her eyes have landed upon a lolly skill tester… she was at it with a fierce vengeance.
Mamoru wanted to chuckle at the annoyed pout she had upon her face. To his relief he was glad to see that she hadn't changed completely. That somewhere deep inside that cold shell of hers, the old Usagi still had a strong hold. He could still remember the moment he had seen her at one of these skill testers. Such determination was radiating from her as she cursed, mumbled and grunted each time she missed one, yet smiled, laughed, cheered and taunted the machine each time she won.
Even when he hadn't known her at all during that time, he'd felt contentment to simply watch as she used up so much energy on such a simple machine. In fact their first meeting happened during one of her… energetic visits to the arcade.
After a very tiring and shitty day at university, all he wanted to do was simply go get a nice, strong black coffee. He felt that his energy levels were slowly dying and nothing but a good hit of caffeine would fix it. Once he entered the arcade though, he couldn't help but almost break out in a wide smile as he watched the girl with the long shiver blonde hair play at the skill tester.
It wasn't a lolly one today – which was odd – today she took her anger out on the stuffed animal one. But after failing miserably for god knows how many times, she'd given up and flopped down on one of the chairs at the counter, ordering a very large double chocolate and strawberry ice cream, with extra whipped cream.
He would never forget the look of surprise and happiness when he'd placed the stuffed animal next to her. Her blue eyes changed from a dark grey-blue to an almost crystal blue.
"I saw how determined you were…"
He was bought back to the present however when he was gracefully shoved out of the way in order for Usagi to play. Just watching her made his eyes soften, and the fond smile to linger upon his lips. Sometimes he wondered why she had left him, because, as much as he try to deny it… he still loved her. Loved her more than anything in this world.
Shaking his head slightly at her muttered cursing, he stood behind her and watched. At times like these he wanted nothing more than to feel her body pressed up against his, feeling her mould into his body as if they were two halves of someone.
It was too bad he had to ruin her mood…
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"Stupid, annoying, conceited, egotistical-"
"You know a simple thank you would be much better to listen to"
They were sitting in a quiet little café at the moment, and while Mamoru had a smile upon his face throughout their lunch, Usagi was the complete opposite. A thundercloud could be seen hanging over her head each time she muttered curses at him from under her breath. Odd for she was the fairer of the two, and seeing her in such a mood made Mamoru chuckle lightly to himself.
He had truly been missing out on too much over the past years.
"Bloody bastard…"
He watched her over the rim of his coffee cup, wondering whether she would be out of words soon. Though it was highly unlikely, it never hurt to wish. Okay, so it was partly his fault for causing her to be in such a foul mood, but it was just too much of an opportunity to ignore. He couldn't really help it if she sucked on skill testers.
"Freken wanker…"
So he kind of teased her each time she lost at the skill tester. So he kind of laughed when the child after her had gotten more lollies than she had. So he kind of provoked her into wasting more money in order to repair her dignity, she really didn't have to speak so… colourfully of him.
"Faggot…"
Okay so after losing roughly 20 worth of coins on the skill tester, she had accused the machine of being rigged and demanded her money back. And okay, he'd pushed her to the side to show her that the machine was in fact not rigged, and that she just sucked really badly, by winning 20 worth of candy back. She should be thanking him. He totally had reimbursed her.
"fuc-"
"Sweetie, honestly, I understand that you love me, but could we stop with the pet names?"
The face that Usagi pulled almost made Mamoru chock on his coffee. He couldn't really explain it, but it was a mix between being totally disgusted to just swallowing a soar lemon. And even if it'd only lasted for about a second, Mamoru would never forget it. It was just like her to not give a rat's arse on what people thought of her. Even when she was a highly recommended lawyer, the best in Hong Kong and Japan, her straight forwardness and ability to crack someone made her a force to be reckoned with.
Even if she'd changed slightly over the years, in Mamoru's eyes, he knew he could get her back.
"There a much worse names I could give you dear" she said through gritted teeth. She knew that if she held onto her coffee cup any harder that it would crack and the hot content would spill all over her hands and expensive suit. Not to mention the stupid man sitting before me would simply find that utterly amusing, and I would never be able to live that down.
"I do hope you mood is better during dinner tonight Usagi dear, laughing when eating is a difficult task to do"
"I hope you choke on a large piece of steak you bastard"
Mamoru kept a smile upon his face, even though the words she had uttered had caused his heart to sting in pain. How could he crack her if she were so stubborn? "You really wouldn't want that my love, who would pay for the bill?"
A grunt gave him the affirmative that he had won their petty argument. Him Mamoru Chiba, had won an argument from Usagi Tsukino the highly sort after lawyer. Maybe he should've been a lawyer instead.
Standing up he looked down at her in a kind and gentle smile. "I'll come pick you up at 7 tonight" when she had opened her mouth to protest he cut "only because I know you'd make up something and end up either leaving me stranded or pretending to be sick" throwing down a few notes, he left her sitting there, probably glaring at his back.
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Fin.
Yay! After an extremely long wait for the chapter I'm finally able to finish off this chapter!! Longer than normal which is a good (: just over 5 pages along! Hope you like it. I feel the chapter isn't exciting, but at least it isn't all sad and depressing like the others lol.
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