Chapter 7

Whitney sat on the couch watching the television, when Chad came into the room and sat down next to her. She didn't even look at him.

"baby I love you and only you."
He said looking at her as she continued to look at the TV she then turned around to look at him.

"Whitney the only woman I am in love with is you."

"Come here baby."
She leaned into him laying her head on his chest. They watched the TV together. They were watching BET J Soul Sessions when they showed a video from a little time back.

Whitney watched the screen and then glanced at Chad. The look on his face was of sadness but also of lust. At first she thought because of the person in the video. The fact that she was now deceased. But then as she looked more at the video she realized that the woman actually looked a lot like Chad's lover, Trish.

The video went off and the show went to commercial.

"you know I use to have a crush on Aaliyah when I was in high school."
Referring to the artist in the video they had just seen.

That did it, Whitney got up from the couch.

"Where you going baby?"

"Oh so that's what it is. Trish reminds you of you're fantasy woman."

"What?"

"May she rest in Peace but come on Chad she's a spinning image of you're lover. Oh well maybe I should go out and straighten my hair, and why don't I buy some men clothes while I'm at it!"

"Whitney Stop! Do you hear you're self, look I didn't mean anything by it. I'm sorry."

"No…. I'm sorry I should've never gone off like that. I should've never said that. I'm just a little stressed and um… I need some air. I'll be back."

"wait a minute."
He said as he grabbed her hand.
"Who was you're fantasy crush?"

"Chad?"

"No come on baby I'm serious. I told you mine, I wanna hear yours."

She smiled and sighed.

"I uh… don't laugh okay… okay."

"okay I won't."

"Alfonso Ribero, Carlton from The Fresh Prince"

"Carlton!"
Chad busted out laughing.

"you said you wouldn't laugh."

"yeah I did I'm sorry… are you serious though?"

"See…"

"I'm sorry baby"

"I guess it is kind of funny."
she giggled too.

"Okay well I'll let you get you're air."

"um actually I don't think I'm need that anymore."

"Oh really."

"Mm hmm come here."

She said to him as he leaned in closer to kiss him she wrapped her arms around neck. His cell phone went off again. Whitney sighed.

"Baby I'm sorry this could be important, I'll only be a sec."
Chad went into another room she quietly followed him trying to listen to his conversation.

"Oh I apologize I had forgotten you had called earlier. No that's good…. when? Tomorrow? Look I can't just…. No okay… yeah I'll figure something out. Yes I understand… okay goodbye Mr. Black.

When Whitney heard Chad coming she rushed to the couch and plopped down.

"Who was that?"

"That was Mr. Black, Crane has another business venture that there putting me in charge of anyway I have to go out to Atlanta tomorrow for a meeting."

"Oh"

"Whitney I'm sorry."

"I know."
Whitney sighed and buried her face in her hands.

"hey you're early."
Fox said to a smiling Whitney as she walked towards him.

"Well Chad's out of town and I didn't want to be in that big house all by myself. So I decided to just come on over. Is that okay?"

"Is that okay? Whitney you can come see me anytime you want."

"Good to hear."

"Listen Chad will be gone the whole weekened so I thought that I spend my time here. Miles is with my parents and so…."

"you wanna be next to me."

"yeah I do."

"When are you gonna stop playing this game Whitney?"

"What game Fox?"
"When Chad's gone we get it on. This isn't right Whit. I want you in my life and in my bed all the time, without having to sneak around."

"I know I want that too, but…"

"But what you don't want to hurt him."

"yes I don't."

"You don't want to hurt…. Whitney listen to you."

"What?"

"you don't want to hurt him…. Whitney he practically chewed you're heart and spit it out! He didn't give a damn about you when he was fucking another woman brains out so why give a damn about how he feels!"

"Because I still love him!"

"He's the father of my son Fox."
She shed a tear.

"That should have been my son."
He looked down and frowned.

"Fox I…."

"No Whitney don't say anything."
But she quickly disobeyed.

"Fox I didn't come here to argue with you, I came here to…."

"make love to me and then go back home to you're loveless marriage."

"Stop finishing my sentences! You know this was a bad idea from the start. I should've never made love to you that night. That was a mistake, this is a mistake."

"This is a mistake Whitney…."

"Yes this is a mistake! I'm a married woman and I'm doing the one thing that almost ruined my own marriage. This isn't right Fox. I have to stop, we have to stop."

"So that's it, you just forget about me?"

"I have to, This isn't me Fox. When I'm around you I feel so secure and I loved that feeling but then when I go home and tell my husband lies. I feel so dirty and ashamed."

"So just leave him."

"I can't Fox."

She said with tears streaming down her cheeks. There was the old Whitney again. The vulnerable one with no backbone at all. She knew what she was saying was crazy and a lie, but yet she tried her best to believe every word of it. She didn't want to leave him, she wish she could turn back the clock and say yes to when he proposed to her.

She tried to wipe the falling tears from her face, but more started to fall. She looked at Fox with the most sadden face he had ever seen.

"Don't say it Whitney."

"I'm sorry Fox but I have too…. It's over."

She got up from the bed, and began to walk away.

"No it's not"
Fox said as he grabbed her arm turning her around to face him.

"tell me that you don't love me…. tell me that you don't love me and I'll stay out of you're life forever. Come on say it."

She was silent.

"Come on Whit, tell me that you don't love me."

"Fox?"
She shook her head and turned around as her hand slipped from his. She walked closer to the door.

"No! Because I want to hear you say that you don't love me! Because if you don't then there's no reason why we should be together, right!"

She turned around to face him again but was still silent. She stood still, and he walked up to her. Gently taking his hands and holding her face.

"See you can't even say it. Because you know in you're heart that you want to be with me, as much as I want to be with you. Don't give up on us."

He went into kiss her and she almost pushed him off until she saw the flashing images in her head of Chad and his lover. She continued to kiss Fox hungrily and passionately.