Ok, so sorry it took me soooo long to update but i didnt know what to write, if it should have been a couple of years or what.
But a BIG thanx to everyone that reviewed
and if you have any ideas for other chapters they would be very helpful
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I do NOT own the chacters, Stephenie Meyer does.
This is for the chapter 1 as well
Chapter 2
Well I'm back in the class
Falling out of your past
All the letters that I wrote
And you thought as a joke
And the phone never rings
When you're cold and it stings
All the holidays suck
By myself 'cause I am fucked
And I'm dying, dying, dying
-Sugarcult (How Does it Feel)
Bella POV
Its been a couple of days since I left that note for Edward. I hope he listens to what I wrote cause I cant handle seeing him again, to tell the truth I regret leaving that note for him I should have let him believe I was dead, but I couldn't because he would have gone to the Volturi, and to tell the truth I wouldn't have been able to live with my self if he had gone there.
I'm on my way to Alaska I had to steal a car in Port Angeles more specify a Mini Cooper, so has not to get to much attention which I don't need right now for obvious reasons.
Edward POV
"Edward are you alright, you're very quiet" Alice said as she stood in my doorway
"Do I look alright" I snapped at her. While moving to stand in front of her.
" I have to find her Alice"
" but she's dead Edward, you cant go digging up her grave its not respective and you know it, your just going to have to deal with that fact" Alice said rather angrily.
" But"
" No Buts, Just deal with it she's Dead, your not the only one who hurting at the moment did that ever a cure to you, we all thought of her as family. Alice said
" she's not dead, look at what she left" I said as I thusted the note at her.
Alice stood stunned as she read the note though.
Then she spoke
" you know we cant go looking for her Edward, don't you"
" And why the Fuck not"
" She doesn't want to be found, and how are you going to find her, you have no idea what her powers are if she's a vamp" Alice said
" I'm going to try, it's the least I can do isn't, I have to tell her how I feel"
I raced out of the room I was running out the front door when Alice's thoughts ran though my head.
Please be careful, and don't be disappointed if you don't find her, she doesn't want to be found remember that Edward.
I continued running as fast as I could around the surrounding area till I picked up her scent, the only problem was every time I found her scent and started to follow it, it become a dead end and then I had to start all over again from the beginning. I soon realized that it was hopeless and made my way back to the house with my tail between my legs. When I made it back to the house Alice was sitting on the front pouch, looking at me, then I heard her thoughts
I told you wouldn't find her, she doesn't want to be found .
With that I just walked right though the front door and in to the lounge where everyone looked up when I entered the room, I could hear their thoughts and knew they were trying not to think of Bella for me or themselves I couldn't be sure. The one thing I didn't want right now was there symmetry, I just wanted to find her and tell her how I felt. I would give anything to have her back with me.
Bella POV
What am I going to, where am I going to go. Oh my god why did I leave, maybe if I'd stayed then Edward would be if me now, and he would help me understand what was happening and I wouldn't have to do this alone.
Maybe I could go to Alaska, to the people Edward knows there, they'll be able to help me with what I am, what I've become.
Oh Fuck what have I done, maybe I should turn around and go back to Forks and tell everyone I got lost in the woods and only just got back.
No I cant, I cant go back, what was I thinking.
Five Hours Later
OK Bella calm down you came this far you can walk the few steps to the door and knock. Oh no the doors opening, well no looking back now is there.