Complicated
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Wow, this chapter is really a patchwork. I wrote almost every paragraph individually then put them together. Then I wrote more paragraphs and rearranged the previous order. I also deleted a great part of them… But it is ready now! And sorry for its taking so much time but I never was satisfied with this one.
I hope it will make sense.
Chapter 6: Cohabitation
It had been already a month since Calleigh moved into Ryan's apartment. He couldn't believe it. It felt like as if they had been living 'together' since ages. Before that he couldn't imagine living with somebody else but with Calleigh it felt so natural. Somehow she knew how to act around him and how to deal with his OCD without making a big deal about it. That month was like living a dream. More or less…
Fortunately she managed to pull herself together. That couple of days after she had found out about Jake was terrible. He was really worried about her. Granted that she went to the doctor and she said that everything was okay with her, and she really looked better, but it didn't make his concern disappear. Sometimes he would see her just sitting in front of her food without eating anything or other times she was too pale for her own good and she became tired very soon. Once or twice he also heard her heaving in the bathroom in the morning. After a month of observation he began to realize what the problem could be with her. But he wasn't sure… and Calleigh didn't tell anything.
So he couldn't do anything but to do everything to make Calleigh feel better. And he did so.
It turned out that it was fun living with her. He fell in love with the Calleigh who he was working with. Granted that she was an excellent company to work with but most of the time she was all professional. On the other hand the Calleigh he was living with was a completely other person. She was fantastic. And he loved her even more. She was adorable when she left her work attire and attitude. He got to know the woman who changed into a pair of old jeans and a worn T-shirt as soon as she got home. He saw her in a way as not many people did before.
As the days went by and Calleigh got used to her new situation she became more and more relaxed and she opened up to Ryan in a way that she hadn't done before. They spent long nights talking on Ryan's couch. Usually they were lighthearted conversations about trivial things, nothing serious, and they usually ended up laughing till their tears were falling. Calleigh even made friends with Johnny which consequently led to the boy's constant visit to Ryan's. The two of them were hilarious when they got together… or really tiring as Ryan could experience on a regular basis. On these occasions Ryan needed all his willpower not to bang his head in the wall. That was the side of Calleigh that he could bet nobody had seen before and nobody could even imagine that even exists. She was able to talk with Johnny for hours about nothing at all in a way as if it would be the most important matter on Earth. Observing that strange couple during their meetings was like watching an absurd drama.
Their relationship considerably changed during that last month. However, for an outsider everything would have seemed ordinary. Nobody knew about Calleigh living at Ryan's as they found it more appropriate to keep it a secret. In case people would get ideas that they shouldn't. But it didn't prevent them from gossiping about how Jake cheated on Calleigh.
They began spending more and more time together. It wasn't a surprise as they were living in the same apartment but still… At lunch time Ryan would show up in front of Calleigh asking if she'd feel like eating lunch together or he would simply drag her out of the lab to grab something to eat as he knew that she hadn't eaten anything that day. After work Calleigh would also ask him if he'd like to have a drink before they'd head home. Sometimes they would share these lunches and drinks with the others but other times they would be all alone.
They became closer not only emotionally but physically as well.
The visit of Ryan's grandmother helped a lot in that area.
As they had anticipated it, that weekend was really an interesting one. That was the point when their relationship took a turn. This was due mostly to the fact that Hester was a very keen observer so Ryan and Calleigh had to be very careful if they hadn't wanted to be busted. That meant that during those two days they really acted like a normal couple. They shared little touches whenever they could, they held hands when going for a walk with Hester, and they cuddled on the couch while watching the TV. And, of course, there was the fact that they slept in the same bed.
The first morning was rather awkward when they woke up in each others' arms but they quickly got over it and when the following morning found them in the same position they acted as if it had been the most natural thing on Earth.
Ryan's grandmother left almost three weeks ago but somehow they didn't give up behaving like a couple. They didn't even notice it.
CSI MIAMI CSI MIAMI CSI MIAMI
Calleigh first felt nervous about living with Ryan being afraid of him finding out her pregnancy as she wasn't ready to talk about it. Not as if she wouldn't be happy about it but talking about it was another matter. Fortunately she bore her pregnancy well and morning sickness was a rather rare visitor. She didn't even cry often anymore and she became more and more balanced. However she became exhausted rather easily which she found rather annoying just like the fact that she could just as easily loose her appetite.
Nevertheless she was happy. She had still doubts about certain things but she was happy.
And mostly it could be thanked to Ryan. He was wonderful during the time they spent together. He knew how hard the past month had been for Calleigh. She was used by Jake. She was ready to give him another chance and trust him but he didn't appreciate it, what's more, he screwed it. However, Ryan knew completely well how precious it was to have Calleigh's trust. And she trusted him completely.
She didn't even notice it but she could be herself around him. She did such thing in the company of Ryan that she was sure never would have done if it had been anybody else. She felt such happiness and freedom that she hadn't experienced since she left Louisiana.
However, she still was confused about certain things and whenever she found herself alone disturbing thoughts attacked her mind. She loved Ryan that one was sure and she began to suspect that maybe he had the same feelings towards her. However, she had just broken up with Jake and she was expecting his baby. She didn't know what would happen with anything. With Jake, if he found out that he'd have a baby. However, on second thought, that was her least problem. But how would Ryan react? Would he run? Or would he accept the fact the she was expecting another man's child? Was he ready to be a father? Did he want to be a father at all? She spent much time thinking about these questions and trying to give an answer to them but every time she became rather annoyed with herself. Why on Earth am I thinking about these things? Maybe he didn't feel anything at all for me.
She really hated this uncertainty and she hated herself more for being unable to do anything about it.
She was afraid of doing anything about it.
When did her life become so complicated?
TBC (I hope sooner than this last one!)