Okay, so I know I'm like really rubbish with this whole updating thing, but life is really hectic & yes I can see you're all going "whatever" & "heard it before", but that's all I'm going to say. I'm making this chapter extra long so you guys will keep on reading, hopefully I will be more on top of things after today. Hopefully have another chapter up at the weekend.

We are now advancing to everyone at the party!

It was another college dorm, another dorm full of drunks and wannabes. It was the normal for a college student to go to a party like this at least once a week, but hell just about every college student made sure to go to a party just about every night and that's the way they liked it, they could get so drunk, get up got to class & then get ready and go to another big party. This was the life or that's what most people thought.

Haley was dancing with Ryan in one of the rooms, she was having a relatively good time. She was grinding up against him and she just happened to look up and see Nathan & Lucas walk into the party. Oh God, this is going to be one hell of a night, she thought to herself.

After seeing them she turned around to Ryan:

"Ryan, want to go get some drinks?"

"Yeah sure, what kind?"

"Urmm…straight vodka tonight." She smiled, Ryan also smiled usually when Haley got drunk as much as that, that would mean they would be doing more than kissing by then end of the night.

Ryan turned to get some drinks, which left Haley on her own again. So, she just went off to the side and took a seat she couldn't really be bothered with the whole big scene around her if she danced on her own. She wanted a quiet night. In her head she knew it was not going to happen especially with both Ryan and the Scott's here – it would be anything but quiet.

She looked around the room and all she could see were couples dancing, they looked happy. She always envied those people, those who could be in a relationship and were truly happy about it, they liked their partner or maybe it was even true love or maybe it was just the drink. She wondered if she would ever be this happy. Would she ever find that guy who would always make her happy and no matter how bad something was, it would feel better because he would be there by her side. She let out a small sigh – this was pure fantasy, a fairytale, it would never happen not to a girl like Haley.

"Hey babe, here's your drink" Ryan said.

Haley grabbed it from him and swallowed it all in one: she needed this tonight. The alcohol was her only friend as far as she was concerned. This was her getting started for a big night. A big night full of alcohol and partying: her mood had now swayed from a quiet night to a big party night. However, she wanted away from Ryan. He would just pull her back.

"Ryan, I'm going to get another, I'll see you around in a bit ok?"

"Yeah sure thing Haley" he said this while watching a bunch of girls walking past.

"Yeah erm how about I don't see you later, the minute I say I'm going you're already going about how to get another girl." She yelled out at him.

"Haley piss off then, I don't need you."

"Ryan?"

"What is it?" as he turned around Haley's hand came in to contact with his cheek.

"Don't ever come near me ever again!" she screamed at him. This got the attention of those at the party. There was a circle of onlookers around them now.

"You bitch," at this Ryan lifted his hand to hit Haley and she just put her hands up to defend herself. She crunched her eyes closed, she didn't want to see him do this to her. After a while of her eyes being closed she opened them, surprised that she hadn't been smacked yet.

When she did open them however, Ryan was gone, he must've realised what he was going to do in front of the crowd. No doubt he'll come by my room later wanting to have a go she thought. The crowd had dispersed and were back to dancing.

"Okay so where is that drink?" she said allowed to herself. She definitely needed this drink and the 10 after it too.

After a few drinks, Haley was back on the dance floor and dancing like there was no tomorrow, she wasn't known for being outgoing, so you can imagine the faces of her fellow students when they saw her dance to provocatively. Yeah, Haley James was dancing provocatively! She was enjoying it. She was drunk and having a great time. This is what every party should be like, she told herself.

Then she felt a pair of hands come onto her waist and all of a sudden she had a dance partner. She didn't turn around to see who it was, it didn't matter tonight, and nothing mattered tonight. As she grinded into him she could hear him moan and his moans were getting louder and she could feel him harden. This is when she turned around. She closed her eyes and plunged at the guy and kissed him, she slid her tongue into his mouth. It wasn't a great lustful kiss. It was just meaningless. A meaningless kiss was what she needed tonight, a meaningless night would do fine for her.

As they pulled away from the kiss, Haley turned back around and started grinding him again. Haley didn't care, this was how she was going to get her fun for the night. After a while of dancing with that guy she walked away from him. She turned around to see him when she was leaving but he was already gone. He was obviously looking for a no strings attached night as well. She let out a small laugh, this was what college parties were about, she finally understood why people loved them so much. You could dance with anybody, have sex with anybody and it would be okay in the morning because it was just a random hook-up. Haley brightened to the idea, a random hook-up sounded good.

After a while of dancing some more and drinking more Haley was extremely drunk. She had never been so drunk in her life. It was feeling good, being this drunk. She was just walking around by herself. It was fun, looking at other people and what they were doing, only fun when you're drunk.

Ryan Was walking through the party he was obviously too drunk, that he barged into someone whilst walking. The person he had barged into had fallen to the floor.

"Ouchh" the person squealed.

"Watch were you're going bitch" Ryan moaned back. He then looked around and to his amazement it was Haley who was on the floor. He thought this was fate, he was just supposed to have a big brawling match with her tonight in front of these people. It was a sign: that's what he wanted to believe so that he could scream at her some more.

"Haley, look at the state of you, you're like too drunk to function. You stupid hoe!" he hissed at her.

"Ryan, quit being an ass and help me up please." She asked politely, almost as if she had forgotten about him earlier.

"Yeah as if bitch, you can get your own fat ass off the ground and yeah you heard me, you have a fat ass slut." He laughed at this and then turned to walk away.

"Hey asshat, don't you talk to her like that okay!" Ryan then received his second hit on the face for the night.

"What are you going to do about it huh?" he questioned.

"Well I'll …."

"Yeah didn't think so bitch, just move out of the way."

"Oh no you don't, I'm Brooke Davis you do not talk to me like that assface." She yelled at him.

"Whatever, move out of the way!"

Brooke then moved out of the way and just as Ryan was about to move he saw a figure heading straight towards him. He then rolled his eyes.

"If it isn't little baby Scott…"

"Shut the hell up Mitchell" at this Ryan received a punch in the jaw. He then went down onto the ground and lay there. "And by the way, it's Nathan not baby Scott!" Nathan then began to walk away. He shook his head.

"Don't think so Baby Scott, as if I'd give up so easily."

They both punched and slammed each other to the floor and meanwhile Haley was looking on. The girl from the store was here and she helped her. And then Nathan had helped the girl from the store. She looked on at the fight between Nathan and Ryan. She hoped that it wouldn't get too serious. At this, the girl from the store came over to her.

"Hey Haley, you alright? What was that guy all about? Seriously, what an idiot!"

"Yeah, erm thanks for that by the way and I know, I kind of well stopped dating him tonight and he took it a bit harsh but he was a cheating asshole and… oh crap."

"What? Why 'oh crap'?" Brooke asked.

Haley then ran away from Brooke and over to Ryan and Nathan. She could see that Lucas was now coming and that if the two of them ended up going against Ryan he would be beaten to a pulp. Yes he deserved it but Haley James was not that type of person, violence was never the answer to your problems.

"STOP IT!" she yelled.

This got the attention of everyone at the party who were all watching the fight taking place in front of them.

"Ryan go away and Nathan you can go away as well, just stop the fighting!" Haley screamed at the brawling boys.

Haley then walked away from the boys and Brooke, she didn't mean to be rude but this was beginning to do her head in, all the fighting and shouting and whatever. She couldn't be bothered with any of it. She needed a break. She walked out the back door.

Back with Nathan, Brooke, Ryan and Lucas the fight had stopped and now Lucas was trying to pull Nathan away from Ryan. Lucas knew there was no point in fighting, it would only make things worse and Haley didn't want them to fight, even if Ryan had shoved her to the ground and spoken badly to Brooke. He just didn't want to upset Haley even more.

"Nate, c'mon he's not even worth it." Lucas looked from Ryan to Nathan to see if what he said had worked.

"Next time I see you Mitchell you're not going to be a happy man." Nathan growled and spat at him.

Nathan, Lucas and Brooke walked away half expecting Haley to be standing there to greet them and kind of say thanks but she wasn't there, she was nowhere to be seen.

"Where the hell did she go Brooke?" Nathan asked.

"I don't know she yelled at you guys then I got caught up in what was going to happen next, sorry guys. She was really angry though but she looked vulnerable too. She said she had just split up from that guy tonight because he was a cheat and…"

"She broke up with him?" Lucas and Nathan asked at the same time a small glimmer of happiness evident in the tone of their voices.

"Yeah why is that so much of a big deal? How do you two even know her anyway?"

"Long story, you know her too but we have to go and find her now." Nathan announced.

"Right well Brooke and I will go upstairs and you can go search downstairs." Lucas said.

As they split up and started their search party for Haley, she was sitting outside on a swing out back. She held a bottle of vodka in one hand and a cigarette in another. She knew herself that she wasn't a smoker but this night wasn't going well and she was rebelling against everything she knew and worked for. She was fed up with being walked all over and people always thinking she needs a prince charming to come save her. Yeah sometimes she did but she needed him to stay there for her and he never did. He was always there one moment and way the next. She took a swig of the vodka and she could feel the icy feeling of it running down the back of her throat. It felt so good, the pain was going away and then came another gulp and then another. She then stared out into the back of the garden.

Nathan was in charge of looking downstairs, so he looked in a couple of rooms and still no Haley. Lucas and Brooke had gone home a little while ago, they came to the conclusion that Haley had just went back to her dorm after the little incident earlier. It would probably be best for her to be back in her room anyway. She won't do anything silly Lucas had said. Nathan sat in a chair in one of the rooms and just stared at a wall. Why was it that Haley was having this feeling on him even though she didn't want to be anywhere near him. She was exciting him and she didn't even know it. He needed to defend her tonight, she had nobody else to hit Ryan for her.

He had seen the whole scene earlier with Ryan and Haley, where Ryan was almost about to smack Haley. He wanted to dive onto him there and then but he couldn't have been certain that was what Ryan was going to do. So he held back and then he got his chance after he pushed Haley to the ground and spoke badly to Haley and Brooke. That's what he was supposed to do. Be the great guy. But by the looks of Haley she didn't want that from him. He had let her down. Nathan hadn't had anything to drink that night so therefore was completely sober throughout the fight and the searching for Haley.

He wanted to speak to her, tell her that he's sorry and just get her to listen. He then got up from the chair and began to walk outside he needed some fresh air. He stood outside and the cold night air caught his breath. It was freezing outside. That's when he saw a girl sitting on the swing. He didn't know who it was but she must be freezing. He started walking over to her and as he did he could hear sniffling: the girl was crying. He then was uneasy on whether he should go over or not but he decided he would.

"Hey are you okay?" he asked. He was still a little bit a way from the girl.

"Yeah I'm perfect just had the worst night of my life and you ask if I'm okay." The girl hissed.

"Uhh Sorry I…"

"No I'm sorry, it's not your fault it's just been horrible." The girl gargled out, obviously drunk.

"Are you okay out her by yourself?"

"Yea, I'm used to it, always been alone, little lonely Haley that's how it's always been." She hissed. At this the girl then fell backwards off the swing. She was now lying on the floor. Her eyes were closed.

"Haley!" Nathan started to panic, he then bent down beside her and looked at her. She was just passed out because of the intake of alcohol. He had been in this state many times in his teenage years. He then saw that there was an empty litre bottle of vodka just beside the swing. He was surprised he didn't think that Haley looked like she could drink that much. He then bent down and felt her arm: she was frozen so he took off his jacket and wrapped it around her. He would have to take her home tonight. He shook his head, how unhappy was this girl that she had to do this to herself. He hated seeing her like this. He carried her to his car and then drove back to their dorm house. He found her key in her pocket so he let himself into her room. He lay her in her bed and made sure she was covered I covers for extra warmth. Now all he had to do was wait until morning, until she awoke from her sleep.

"Haley James, what are you doing to yourself? Most of all what are you doing to my heart?" he whispered almost silently that he could hardly hear himself.

Okay I know, it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to, but that's what came out. I know I rambled my whole way through it but sorry. Hopefully be an update by next weekend.