A/N: Well here is the next chapter, sorry it took so long. I have been busier than I thought I would be this week. Please Enjoy.

Twilight = Not mine

18) The End?

EPOV

I have never been one to cry but as I lead her over to the log I honestly had no idea how I kept it together. What I was about to do would break Ashlynn, the one thing in this life I for, but it would destroy me. I couldn't think of any other way though. From the moment Quil came and told us the whole story about the wolf and how my angel was now terrified of them I knew that she would never accept me. Just the thought of being away from her was tearing me apart inside but I knew for her I had to try.

Which ever way you looked at it I had no other options. If I told her my secret she would run screaming in the other direction. If I didn't tell her she would eventually get fed up and leave me anyways. I couldn't bear hearing her say she didn't want me anymore so I would do it. None of the guys agreed with my decision, they think I should just be honest with her. How could I though? As soon as I tell her I am a werewolf, she will relate me to the monster that attacked her. It is bad enough that I know she could never want me now, I wouldn't survive if I had to hear it confirmed by her sweet lips.

"Embry please tell me what's wrong, I am really worried." For the first time since we sat down I actually looked into her eyes. There were silent tears falling from her eyes and what little pieces that were left of my heart completely shattered at that moment.

"Ashlynn..." That was all I was able to get out before her lips came crashing down on mine. It wasn't a sweet or gentle kiss, it wasn't full of passion but despair. Almost like she knew what was coming but refused to believe it. I knew I should have pulled away, that this would just make it harder but I couldn't. From the moment she walked into my life my she had become my soul purpose for living. Who was I to deny her of this kiss, after all I was about to break her heart. The least I could do is give her the last kiss that she longed for.

After a few minutes Ashlynn finally pulled herself away from me and started blushing. "Sorry, I just couldn't take the silence anymore." With that she let out a nervous chuckle, that was all it took for what little resolve I had left to start to crumble. This was it, now or never, but I had no idea what to say or how to start. The first thing that came to mind was be honest but that was impossible because if I was being honest then I would be asking her to marry me not breaking up with her. So I said the only other thing I could think of.

"Ash, we can't do this anymore." A look of pure terror crossed her face as she let the words I just said sink in.

"Embry what do you mean do this? Do what? What are you trying to say." She was trying so hard to stay calm but her voice was so shaky she could barely speak.

I had to close my eyes so my tears wouldn't betray me as I said the biggest lie I have ever told. "This, you and me, it's not working anymore."

"Embry that's not true and you know it. I love you with all that I have and I know you love me too. Why are you doing this?" There were no denying the tears that were now free flowing from her eyes. She wasn't going to make this easy, she wanted an explanation but more than that, she wanted the truth. That, however, was the one thing I couldn't give her.

"What do you want me to say Ashlynn? It's just not working out." She was about to open her mouth to argue when I held up my finger to tell her to allow me to finish. I knew what I had to say to get her to realize that I meant it, I just don't know if I can do it. "I care about you Ashlynn, alot, more than you may ever know but I just can't do this right now. This relationship has become too serious for me too quickly and I am not ready for that." Lie, lie, lie. I would marry her tomorrow if she let me.

She was crying so hard I could barely make out what she was saying. "Embry.... please don't... do this. I am ....sorry if I.... rushed...you but ...we can... take it slow. Please give me...us another chance." That was it I had to get out of there and now. I could be torn limb from limb and nothing could compare to the pain I felt in this moment.

I took all the anger I had with my self and made sure it reflected on my face. "Ashlynn our whole relationship has involved secrets and enough is enough. It's over." I said it with such a finality in my voice that she couldn't even form words to argue back she just sat there and stared at me. I turned around then and started running towards the forest but as I got to the edge I made the mistake of turning back. The look of pain and utter heartbreak in her eyes will haunt for for as long as my pitiful life may last. Her heart shattered into a million pieces when her dad died and I just took those pieces and step on them like they were nothing.

As soon as I was out of sight I phased, not wanting to have to deal with the pain in human form. I spent the next mintues, hours, maybe even days destroy everything in my way as uncontrollable cries escaped my mouth. I didn't hear the packs thoughts as they phased with me, I didn't see the animals scattering out the path of my destruction. All I saw where those eyes, her eyes, burning into my mind making the pain almost unbearable. If I was human I would have died already, I wish I could have.

APOV

I don't know how long I sat there on that bench, all I know is it felt like an eternity. My eyes we so sore and dry that I could no longer form tears. So I just sat there dry sobbing, I couldn't move. My feet as well as the rest of me lost there purpose as soon as Embry left me. Embry left me, just the thought nearly kills me. I never knew a pain like this could really exist. I would gladly take a dozen scars by a dozens wolves just to have Embry back again. To wake up and realize that this was just a bad dream but that will never happen. A pain that feels like this has to be real.

Somehow my feet were able to find the ground and somehow I was able to force myself to stand. Embry said he cared but how could he , if he cared he wouldn't have left me. Suddenly my anger over took my pain and I was able to drag myself back home. Not seeing anyone or anything around me I walked like a zombie into the house but I couldn't make it any farther. I had no energy left, I collapsed on the floor not caring what happened. Embry was gone and nothing else matter. The tears were finally able to come again and this time I didn't fight them back, I couldn't. They were tears of sadness, betrayal, want. Slowly I felt myself slipping into unconscious and I gladly accepted it. Anything to make this agonizing pain go away.

I was half asleep when I head their voices. "Oh My God Ashlynn what happened?" Brook was besides me holding me in her arms but I could feel nothing. Ever since Embry left numbness had consumed me and I liked it that why. If I could feel then I would hurt and that pain was too great. "Jake what is the matter with her?" I tired to block out his voice, it reminded me too much of him but I couldn't. As much as it hurt I needed reminders of him, to know that he was real.

There was no denying the anger laced in his voice even if I was half conscious. "Damn it! That asshole really did it."

"Who did what? Jake what are you talking about?" I decided now was time to make my presence known, I didn't want to have to hear the pity in their voices that was about to come.

"Embry." My voice was so sore that I had to whisper, I wasn't sure if they even heard me until I opened my eyes. I should have stayed asleep, the pity in their voices would have been better then their pity looks.

Brook tightened her arms around me as she ran her hand soothingly down my hair. "What did Embry do?"

I couldn't look in their eyes as I spoke so I closed my eyes and willed the tears not to come. Stupid traitor tears. "He left me. He left me and he is not coming back. He doesn't want me anymore." I was sobbing so hard now that I couldn't stop the shaking. I completely lost what little control I had left.

"Shh Ash it's ok, we will get this all sorted out. Embry loves you he just needs time to think." The pain in my heart flared up at the sound of those words. I wanted to yell at her, tell her Embry doesn't love me and she doesn't know anything but I couldn't. I had already used what little energy I had regained and I was numb again, the way I liked it. "Come on Jake help me bring her to our room."

Suddenly the feeling of a warm embrace brought me out of my trance. "No put me down I want Embry to do it!" I screamed at him, I couldn't take it. Being in someone elses heated arms felt foreign and wrong. Jake didn't let me go though his grip on me just tightened as I slapped and kicked him with all my might. "Embry? Where is Embry?" I was losing it and I didn't care, I couldn't care. When Embry left he took with him my will to care, to love, to live.

Finally I felt the cushion of a bed and the comfort of blankets. I pulled them over my head and lost myself in my tears. I was drifting into darkness again when I heard Brook yelling at Jake. "You better go find Embry and drag his sorry ass back here right now. He will tell her the truth and he will fix this." Just then sleep over took me.

I was standing on the beach again looking into the forest but something was different this time. The wolf, where was he? Suddenly I felt scared and all alone. I started walking into the woods, I needed to find him, he made me feel safe. This wolf was different from the one at the zoo, I don't know how I knew, I just did. It was his eyes I think, I knew those eyes, they were eyes that could see into my soul.

I spent minutes just looking for him but I just found myself getting lost and even more scared. "Wolf! Wolf, where are you?" Then there he was standing right in front of me like he had been watching over me all along. I started walking towards him but he kept backing away while letting out silent whimpers. "It's ok don' be afraid I won't hurt you I promise." All of a sudden he stopped dead in his tracks like he understood every word I had spoke and they shocked him. This time when I started walking close to him he didn't step back. Finally I reached him and when I touched his fur I felt a surge of electricity course through my veins. His fur so soft and silky smooth nothing at all like the wolf at the zoo whose skin was rough like sand paper.

Before long I found myself rubbing my hand in small circles up and down his back. Then slowly I started whispering into his ear. "Don't ever leave me. I need you. You make me feel safe." The sincerity in those words shocked even me. The wolf then sat down and laid his head in my lap and I instantly felt like a part of me that had been missing had been restored. At that thought my mind automatically drifted to Embry. Embry's arms that hold me so tight, his face that lights up whenever I walk into the room and more importantly his eyes, the eyes that see into my soul. That's it! The wolf and Embry had the same eyes, I would know them anywhere but how. It's impossible, isn't it?

Just then I felt my body start shaking. "Ashlynn wake up! It's ok baby you are just having a bad dream."

A/N: Sorry if some of you hate me for this chapter but I wanted to make this as realistic as a werewolf story could be. You never know the true strength of your love until you experience the bad things too.