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on to CHAPTER FOUR: SOME ZONY ...

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You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you.

-By Hendie

Shannon, the one woman that Gibbs would have stayed with forever. Was Jeanne, DiNozzo's Shannon? He hoped not, he hoped that Tony had another shot at his Shannon. Immediately, he hoped he would find him … in one piece.

"Give me his location McGee."

"Oak Hill Cemetery, Boss."

Gibbs sighs … Jenny … he's visiting Jenny.

"He's in a bad way Jethro … I suppose he's gone to have a talk with the old girl."

"How the hell did he get out there?"

"I would think our Tony took a cab."

As Ducky drove, Gibbs thoughts went back to Shannon. Why did Ducky have to bring her into this anyway? He turns his head to the left and remembers a time wrestling with Kelly on the couch and Shannon laughing in the kitchen making popcorn for their evening movie … something they did every Sunday night as a family … a family. He really wanted another drink. He really wanted to learn how to forget … forget what it was like to love, to live … to breath with Shannon and Kelly. That was an impossible task that he was going to have to learn to live without. He would have to continue you to live and breath … love was an entirely different story.

He was broken out of his reverie by the sudden stop of the Morgan.

"We're here, Jethro." Ducky thought that he had fallen asleep.

The gates were locked so they had to get out an walk. They grabbed their gear just in case. Pulling out their flash lights, they headed for Jenny's grave. They could hear the ranting and ravings of a mad man … excuse me, a pissed off drunk man.

"I have a heart you know! She was a beautiful woman … inside and out … she wasn't just another piece of ass. I could have married her … had babies with her … Thanksgivings … Christmases … I would have treated her like a Queen. You couldn't get to La Grenouille some other way? You had to use me … us? I came to you … you knew I was falling in love with her. I ruined her life … you made me hurt the woman I love … you hurt me!"

Tony collapsed to the misty ground … he was sobbing … Tony doesn't sob. Gibbs wasn't sure if he should approach him, he didn't want to embarrass him but then again … he needed him. It was a double edge sword. Ducky pushes Gibbs in Tony's direction. Still hesitant, Gibbs starts to walk towards him when Ziva shows up. She whispers to Ducky …

"What is happening?"

"The poor boy is having words with Director."

Ziva's heart is broken for Tony. She taps on Gibbs shoulder and he defers to her as she walks by him and wraps her arms around Tony. He sinks into her embrace and she begins to sob along with him. Ducky and Gibbs turn away giving them some privacy.

"I think he needs her more than he needs me right now Duck."

"Maybe so Jethro but don't turn your back on him for too long … he does need you … he needs to know that everything will be alright … eventually."

"Will it Duck?"

They turn to see Ziva running her hands through his hair and wiping the tears from his eyes.

"Yes Jethro … even for you."

Ziva coaxes Tony up and into her car. Gibbs decides to have a few words with Jenny himself … Ducky waits for him by the gate.

"Jen, when we were in Paris … it's not that I lied to you … I can't talk about Shannon and Kelly … it hurts too much. It hurt then, it hurts now. I know I wasn't part of your ten year plan but back then you were part of mine … I did love you, I just couldn't share that part of my life. Would it have mattered? Would you have fit me in to those ten years … would me being there cost you your career goals? Was I in your way? Did you use it as an excuse? You know, I think you did use it as an excuse … I think you were the one without the heart … that's why you died alone Jen … I'll see to it that Tony doesn't."

Gibbs turned away from her grave and walked towards the gate where Ducky was waiting for him … he wondered if it was too late for him.

"Where to Jethro?"

"Lets call it a night Duck. Ziva can take care of Tony for now … we'll pick up the pieces in the morning."

Ziva brought Tony to her apartment … she didn't want any reminders of Jeanne Benoit around … no chance of that at her place. Throughout his secret dalliances with Jeanne, Ziva was a tad bit jealous … all her jabs at him about women was just her defense against her real feelings about him. Now she had him right where she wanted him … alone and in her apartment. Abby knew about her feelings … Zeva called her from the bathroom.

"Abby … he's with me … I think he wants me but he's drunk and on the replay."

"Rebound, Zeva … rebound."

"What should I do?"

"He's drunk and in love with someone else Ziva … for your own heart's sake … make him sleep it off."

"Yes, of course I know that you are right Abby … I'll make him sleep it off."

Yeah, right!

Ziva returns to her living room to find Tony passed out on her couch. She sighs and heads to her bedroom. Ooh, that Jeanne Benoit, what a stupid stupid girl … couldn't she see through his lie … couldn't she see the love in his eyes? Stupid, stupid girl.

She walks back out to her kitchen to get a glass of water. She feels Tony's arms wrap around her waist and his lips on her neck.

What's a girl to do? He's on the replay … I don't want to be alone again …

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Any thoughts ... anyone? Thanks for reading ... Judy :)