Disclaimer- I don't own most of this stories content except radox which I made up completely on my own

A/N: Well it has been along time hey there people! I think this may be the longest and probably most pointless one yet put here it goes R&R please!

Señorita-Justin Timberlake

Señorita I feel for you,

You deal with things that you don't have to.

I shuttered, shivering as I sat in the cramped cold confines of Freddie's wardrobe pulling my dripping wet hair round into a side plait letting the silent tears fall wiping them away vigorously when I heard a creak of a door and wet foot steps slugging across Freddie's carpet and a muffled voice saying,

"No Carly I haven't seen her yet" into the receiver of the phone he was obviously talking to a by know frantic Carly.

"Look Carly there's no point in us both getting soaking wet and catching our death looking for her" Oh god he sounded like his mother and I do have a name starts with S rhymes with Ham oh ham I'd love some right...oh god I really need to stop thinking about my stomach all the time!

"Why don't you try to relax and wait for her safe return?" there was silence on his end but I could already hear the screeching coming from carly " Look would you calm down no I'm not going to leave Sam to catch her death" Freddie said into the phone once more. I could hear the slugging of his feet coming closer to the closet.

"I'm just going to get changed and then..." he stopped abruptly as he finally opened the door to his closet to see my red rimmed, blue eyes popping out of the dark.

"Here carly I'll call you later I think I've found her" he chuckled getting into the closet beside me closing the closet door behind him.

"So what's this all about hmm?" he asked me in a soothing voice I took one look at his concerned, confused features and burst into fresh tears "Hey Hey Sam Honey don't cry tell me what's wrong we can work it out!" he said wrapping his arms around me and pulling me close to him this is new and did he just call me honey?

"Freddie" I cried backing away from his grasped "She's back in that awful place they made my mum go back in that horrible place" I cried shaking, gasping for air. Freddie took one look at me before pulling me into him again.

I don't know if it was the fact that I couldn't see him or if it was his smell that was soothing me that encouraged me to open up to him but I did... and it felt good.

"Freddie do you remember when we were younger and used too play in the sand box?" I questioned him, I felt him nod in response "Do you remember how the other kids used to talk about radox and how crazy people went there?" I questioned him once more

"Yea, But Sam what has this got to do with anything?" questioned a now clearly frustrated Freddie.

"I used to think it was a fictional place you know?" I purposely ignored his question it was hard enough to do this with out him interrupting me "A place were the boogie man and nug-nug lived." I continued letting a ridged laugh escape my lips at the thought of Freddie in that ridiculous costume.

"Nub-Nub" Freddie interrupted once more

"Really Freddie, not what's important here" I snapped starting to get flustered and frustrated and the tears came once again.

"Hey Sam I'm sorry I won't interrupt you again just... please don't cry" He begged holding me tighter "I hate it when you cry...everybody hates it when you cry" He mumbled softly sounding slightly embarrassed.

I pulled myself together, I was already half way there, and there was no way I was stopping now! I needed to tell someone, and I knew Freddie wouldn't freak out or pretend too understand I knew he'd just be his dorky, funny, caring self and be there for me. I took a deep breath before continuing

"I knew there was something strange going on when nana Alice picked me up from school instead of mum" I said my face scrunched up in confusion and my voice started to quiver once again.

"You know what's really weird though Freddie, I remember every thing about that day, were I was, What I was wearing, what my nana was wearing, How she smelled when she engulfed me in a hug when I started to cry" I said stopping to take a few quick deep breaths.

"I remember how empty and cold my mums room felt when I slept in it that night, Thinking about it now I know its stupid but I thought that if I slept in her room I'd feel her you know?" I asked Freddie he nodded smiling.

"Its not stupid Sam" he reassured giving me a tight squeeze encouraging me to go on.

"It was after Soccer Practice. Instead of seeing my mum's beat up red pick up truck I turned the corner of the playing field to see my nana's beetle awaiting me. Even though I had that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach telling me something was up, I couldn't help but sprint into my Nan's arms I hadn't seen her in months" I stopped to wipe away the straying tears that were travelling down my cheeks silently. Freddie unravelled his arms from around me before he intertwined his hand in my free hand and rhythmically rubbed the palm of my hand with his thumb in an attempt to sooth me.

"As I entered the utility room to my house setting my ball and dirty kit in the sink I could already smell the appetising aroma of my Nana's Banana nut loaf I ran to the Kitchen plopping myself on the breakfast bar stool licking my lips asking my Nan were mum was, She looked at me with this look of pity on her face, this look of regret and the smile quickly disappeared from my face" I played with the lace on my converse with my free hand so I had something to concentrate on other than Freddie's Face.

"That was the day I found out Radox was a real place" I said looking up and staring blankly at the wardrobe door "My mum was one of those crazy people the kids at the park used to talk about, The people they used to make fun of, People they didn't understand, People they didn't know squat about" I said finally letting the tears fall freely "That was also the day I lost my mum, the care free fun loving mum I used to have was gone" I said wiping my tears once again.

"When they let her leave she wasn't the same, she was what society claimed as "normal" but She was no longer my mum" I sniffled feeling relieved that it was nearly over.

"She was doing really well, up until a couple of months ago, when she started shutting everybody out she wouldn't see or talk to anyone but the cat" I bit my lip before finishing "Freddie I really tried, I really did but I just couldn't handle her constant mood swings I'm only 16 for crying out loud I'm the one whose meant to be having the mood swings. So I rang Nana Alice and she was gone within two hours."I buried my face in my hands ashamed shaking as the tears flowed down my face. I felt Freddie pull me close kissing the top of my head and rubbing my back telling me it wasn't my fault and that I did the right thing. But if I did then why did I feel so awful?

When he finally managed to get me calmed down he pulled me out of the wardrobe pulled of his wet shirt and pulled on a dry grey shirt before walking over to his chest of draws pulling out fresh boxers Calvin Klein hmm not too bad and grabbing a towel and started to unbutton his jeans.

I flushed a scarlet before interjecting that maybe I should leave the room he laughed at me slightly as he pulled down his jeans and wrapping his towel around his waist I sigh of relieve escaped my lips until I seen him pull down his boxers in exchange for fresh dry ones then my breath once again hitched in my throat he laughed at me once again grabbing all his wet, dirty clothes and setting them in his wash hamper grabbing an old teal blue t-shirt handing it to me along with the towel which had previously been placed around his waist.

"You can take are shower, mums on the night shift" He smiled warmly at me "use that towel it shouldn't be that wet I only took it out, there is more in the bathroom if you need any, there is shampoo and conditioner on the left hand side of the shower... all colour co-ordinate of course" he chuckled I looked up at him a small smile playing on my lips

"Come back here after and we'll figure this out okay Sam?" he asked me softly kissing my forehead. I smiled slightly as I walked a way "Oh and Sam" he added as I reached the door I turned around to hear what he had to say "make sure to double poo" He laughed I joined in shaking my head as I left his room.

The steam filled the bathroom as I departed from the shower; I wrapped the warm, fluffy, white towel around me I lifted up a comb dragging it through my tangled mess of hair tying it up in a bun on the top of my head. I lifted the t-shirt from the radiator were I had set it, as I unfolded it a pair of boxers feel out A small smile played on my lips pulling the t-shirt over my head and the boxers underneath it.

I got up looking at my reflection in the steamed up mirror. Smoothing my fingers under my eyes which were still rimmed with red, my face was flushed from the heat in the shower leaving me looking red and flustered.

I didn't recognise the girl staring back at me; I was no longer tough girl Sam, Happy ham lovin' Sam, Carly's Best friend Sam. Instead I was insecure Sam, it was the Sam I left behind a long time ago, and it was the Sam whose mum was taking away from her. As I thought about all this, fresh tears splashed down my cheeks; I wiped them away quickly before returning back to Freddie's room.

As I re-enter I see his back facing me as he lies in his bed, I quietly tip toe across his room climbing under the covers with him. He turns facing me smiling.

"You take the bed I sleep on the couch okay?" he questions me going to get out f his bed I grab his hands desperately.

"I know this is sort of weird but em Freddie I don't really... I mean could you" I stuttered over my words but Freddie just smiled at me climbing back under the covers pulling me close I lay my head on his chest cuddling against his body.

"Thanks Freddie" I mumbled sleepily

He give my hip a rub and kissed my nose, I let out a slight giggle.

"I love your giggle" He chuckled, I looked at him biting my lip nervously pondering weather or not I should do what I'd been dying to do all week, Freddie obviously took the hint because he moved his head tilting it slightly stopping just as are noses touched giving me the opportunity weather or not to go the extra ten percent and kiss. I pushed my self forward sharing a sweet short kiss with him.

I backed away eyes still closed licking my lips slightly as a small smile played on my lips.

"I know its dorky and stupid but your vulnerable at the moment Sam and I don't want to you know push you or take advantage of you so em... lets take things slow?" Freddie questioned me awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck. I nodded my head in agreement before laying my head back on is chest letting out a soft sigh.

"So...Calvin Kleinboxers huh? Didn't know you had it in you dork!" I laugh softly.

A/N: well... random? But what do you think?