Wandering
Julianne Arilya
I think I was going crazy. Or I hoped I was after all I would never have nightmares so vivid and be so suppressed as to not be able to awake and end it. I dreamt about that strange week and how it all seemed to crumble no matter what I did. I thought of what I could have done differently and what I could have said but in the end it was all in vain. I could hear whimpers as I reached a state of minor consciousness. I could only assume they were from me I could feel the rumble of sobs that shook me even in sleep.
"What the hell did he do to her?!" I heard Nina's voice a worried anxious mingling. Her voice was the same but with the flow of a calm stream easy even in her state of distress. I felt her cold hand on my back soothing me.
"Bella," she whispered lightly as to not make my head hurt she knew full well how it felt like to be wakened by loud noises and she told me once that is something she would not wish upon anyone having a bad dream, she says the noise gives you a half way through heart attack. I groaned as I started to regain the consciousness I so deeply desired.
"I will kill you! I don't know what you did but I'll kill you!" I heard Nina growl impatiently at someone.
"Yeah just try it and see what I do to you." The dark voice replied. It wasn't malevolent, well not entirely, but it was dark.
"Well then shall we take this outside, I'd hate to ruin you're pretty house." I heard the sarcasm drip with every syllable she pronounced.
"Too late for that shorty." The dark voice replied and I could only assume it was Shin for he was the only one who would bicker like that with Nina. The craziest millisecond I pitied him, the insolence, he did not know her wrath.
"What did you just call me pansy!" she retorted. I heard the sound of bolder crashing and my eyes snapped open with speed to match that of a vampire. I shot up and saw that the two children were wrestling on the floor.
"Don't you dare call me that ever again!" Shin said with an air of doom about him but Nina was unfazed.
"Pansy! Pansy! Pansy! Pansy! Want me to say it again! Pansy!" Nina snarled back as she flipped him over so she was the one on top and punched him across the face.
"Bitch!" he yelled ferociously and kicked her across the room. She landed with a thud on a desk and shattered it completely.
"Ass!" she retorted getting up again looking unfazed as if that didn't hurt one bit. She dusted herself of the wooden debris and clicked her tongue in annoyance and looked up with a murderous glare.
"I told you I didn't want to ruin your house!" she picked a piece of wood up and flung it at him with such precision that it was all invisible to the human eye. I heard it shatter against his rock hard skin and a low growl erupt from him.
"And I told you it was too late for that." He said. "I should remind you that you've broken four windows, ten vases and shattered two books." He counted sarcastically and then started to calm his temper. He was cool and impassive before he could finish.
"Oh!" she honestly looked surprised she caused so much damage.
"Now will you please be good for an hour and let us explain to you what is going on." He sighed in complete control of his emotions. It seemed like he wasn't the type to loose control so easily and he was honestly annoyed that Nina was doing this to him.
"Apologize to me and to Bella first, you were being really irritable." She huffed. "And in return I'll apologize for being stubborn I'm just really, really hungry!" she ended in a whine clutching her stomach. He looked suspicious but nodded anyway.
"Fine. I'm sorry for being irritable Nina, and I'll tell Bella when she wakes up." He flinched for a second and I couldn't tell why.
"No need to I forgive you, you are a hungry after all, as well." I interrupted making them jump. He looked at me with that same expression on his face.
"No I do apologize, no one should remember something like that." He stared at me intently and again I knew he knew. He seemed to feel my stress and explained.
"I can create Darkness itself and make my opponents writhe in their darkest memories. I can also see their darkest memories as if they were my own. The darkness inside humans is what I act upon and turn it against them if need be. I could render a person unconscious if I lost control like I did a while ago, and while asleep they relive their darkest moment. For that I apologize deeply." He said the sincerity rang in each word like the chime of a bell and I believed him. If he was right and he could feel my darkest emotions like they were his own then he held no profit from a power like this. It made him suffer as well.
"I'm sorry Nina." Again he turned to her with the sincerity of a saint. And composed himself. He saw everybody's darkest emotions, memories, and he was in pain just like we all were. Nina looked surprised and if she were still human she would have most likely been blushing.
"Forgiven." Was all she could say. I looked around to see why it was so quiet. Everyone was unconscious lying on the ground. It looked like everyone was affected by his loss of control.
"They're fine I promise, I've controlled myself so they should just be sleeping." He read the worry in my face and I relaxed.
"I though vampires couldn't sleep?" I questioned.
"It's a forced upon sleep." Shin replied. Nina looked baffled but Shin gave her no room to argue as he asked her a question.
"Nina," Shin began again and all the hostility he held earlier was washed away and replace with worry.
"Yeah?" she asked her voice soft with affection I could only assume was new to her by the way she seemed unsure of the words coming out of her mouth.
"I'm sorry for biting you. I've…..it's unforgivable." He managed to choke out from his twisted expression he meant it.
"It's fine-" she began but she was cut off.
"No it's not ok! I've just destroyed you're soul, your life! You can't be normal anymore you can't grow up or have children or even go to heaven!" he growled most likely at himself. He sounded just like him.
"What are you talking about?!" she asked hints of aggravation seeped into her voice.
"I told you, I've turned you into a bloodsucking monster and don't start with the chupacabra crap that's not what I mean!" he growled when she opened her mouth to protest.
"I resent that! You're not a bloodsucking monster." I retorted because that's not what they were. They were like people just with different abilities and different forms of nutrition.
"How would you know?!" he glared.
"You already know so don't ask me!" I glared back with the force of all that was evil, he could be smart in a stupid way and it annoyed me to no end. He saw what I went through he felt my pain, he didn't even need to ask.
"Stop yelling at her, you stupid moronic idiot!" Nina yelled.
"Don't call me that you insolent bratty child!" Shin retorted.
"Aw you did not just call me a child! You're the bratty child, asshole!" she tackled him down and again they initiated a battle that made the civil war look like a tea party.
"I think you're the devils child!" shin shouted when Nina bit him on the ear.
"And I think you're the chupacabra! With little minions that tend to your every whim and that's the reason you're so spoiled! Brat!"
"Shut up about that stupid chupacabra!" he yelled and kicked her off him.
"Alright that's enough!" I heard Janet yell.
"Arg let me go I need to kick some manners into this sorry son of a bitch." Nina yelled as Rino held onto her and Janet and Isadora held onto Shin.
"And I need to rip off this girls head! Put it on a stick and then roast it so I will never have to hear her stupid idiotic voice ever again." Shin glared at her and she glared back. Murder intent on each face.
"You're both acting childish!" I didn't notice until the world came out of my mouth that I had spoken. Everybody in the room looked at me and I blushed, Stupid, Stupid attention.
"Bella's right you two are worse than a pair of four year olds." Chris said.
"HEY!" Maite and Anahi yelled together signaling they were awake.
"Sorry no offence ladies." Chris amended.
"None taken Christian." They replied very lady like, going off into another slumber holding hands because that's how they were.
"See at least they have some sense to forgive and forget!" he glared getting impatient.
"Fine I'll sit down and listen but only because I owe you that much." She said when they let her go curious to what she would do. She went to Sam and picked him up without any troubled and placed him in her place at the bed and then from Denzil and Anahi and Maite and Miguel.
"Wow, that was easy!" she sighed and turned to them a confused look on her face. Usually they were ten tons each from all the candy she gave them.
"We have a lot to talk about." Isadora said smiling. Nina seemed to notice her for the first time and looked confused.
"Nina sit down." I said to her. She seemed to her my tone and knew she had to listen and listen well.
"Bella?" she uttered not sure of what herself.
"Nina. You're not human anymore." I said blandly. I lacked the emotion necessary to make this go smooth. I was plain and simple. Not bothering to put any emotion to what I had just said. Emotion would make it so much harder to seem real.
"Wha?" Nina looked taken aback. She didn't know what to say to me. She knew I wasn't much for emotion and she knew I didn't joke around. This was me. The new me. I was Bella, cold and emotionless. All I could feel was emptiness and pity that I couldn't do anything but break down every single night. Loose my sanity every single night.
"You have been bitten by Shin and been turned into a Vampire. Shin and his family are Vampires." I said leaving silence for her to ask all the questions that were necessary and that was it.
" Bell don't joke around. Come on. Seriously a vampire?! What's next my next door neighbor is a werewolf?!" she ranted desperately. Looking into my face didn't help her. It only proved how right I was.
"Could be." I said. I wasn't sure anymore. Vampires. Werewolves? could be. (A/n she doesn't know about Jacob being wolfy)
" Bell..." she said completely unsure of herself. Her eyes shifted from Shin to me.
"Nina it may be hard to accept but it's true." Shin whispered looking at the wall lost in thought though half conscious to the conversation.
"If I am a vampire why am I not hungry for blood?" Nina countered unsure of herself she was looking at herself now her once peachy skin translucent. Her curves more defined and her senses sharper. I envied her. I wanted to be in her shoes. I always have. Ever since then...
"You aren't?" Shin questioned.
"No." She answered her face grave in perfect stone. Her tiny frame shook with what must have been realization.
"I'm not sure exactly. I can smell you Bella a flowery scent but I don't feel the need to fling at you." Nina sighed.
"Interesting." Chris had worked up and was seated next to his wife who he leaned against the wall.
"Shin take her to go hunting." Chris commanded. Shin nodded and lifted Nina in a swift movement. She gasped seeing him coming but surprised at his speed. She growled glowering at his face.
"I can walk you know!" she fought.
"So." he retorted disappearing from view. They left a gentle breeze just like him. I realized then that I didn't deserve to get attached to this family as well. It would work out, they would leave me. Just like Edward did. I welcomed the pain that usually waited till dark descended. His name brought rippling waves of pain that washed over me like a cold storm tide. I walked down the hallway having Chris call out to me. I ignored him and walked down the stairs. I walked out the door and into the city. As I trugged down the trail I wondered what I ever do to deserve this pain. I wondered why Edward did this to me. why he just used me like a rag doll. I wondered. I hated to wonder nowadays. It made my heart hurt.
I walked into the forest that surrounded the house down the trail into the city it didn't take me long but I felt ill at ease. Every now and then I'd get a shiver down my spine the kind you get when you know someone is watching you. But when I turned around there was no one there and it made me shiver more. I walked briskly down the town street glancing away from people who saw pain etched into my face. I saw the pity there. They pitied me.
I walked inside a run down coffee place just a few blocks from where the trail ended and the city started. I sat in the back ignoring the people who started as I sat down. They seemed to see how odd I was and what an outcast I was. I looked down at my tabled not really seeing it. A waitress came to see me and I just nodded when she asked me if I wanted anything. I just pointed to some random thing on the menu and never broke eye contact with the table. I was aware there were some people who stood staring at me even though I was clearly boring.
I could see from my peripheral vision that a figure was walking my way. I didn't think much of it when the figure walked past me. I just continued to stare straight through to table. The waitress placed a frozen looking coffee on the table. I expected her to walk away but she stayed for a while and then sat down.
I finally looked up at her. She was about my age...younger even with long brown hair and liquid violet eyes. An odd color. She looked at me smiling sipping her own frozen mocha.
"You shouldn't be so gloomy, it's not good for your health Bella." she said melodically, in a voice that was caring and companionate. I stared at her a while not fully grasping the gravity of the situation. Then I noticed she wasn't the waitress she was a bystander that was looking at me as I walked in. I stared at her with wide eyes as she smiled at my reaction. She looked out the window and smiled.
"Lovely day isn't it?" she inquired looking back at me. It was cloudy. I looked at her skeptically.
"I always love it when it rains. It washes away sins. Makes you forget who you are and where your going." she continued looking down at her half empty mocha. Her small hands clamped together under her chin as she leaned forward to gaze at me.
"Hmpf! He really screwed up didn't he. Well I can't do anything about that but help you so..." she trailed off smiling brightly.
"Who are you?" I questioned my tone flat with an undertone of pain.
"Julianne Arilya at your service!" She beamed at me. I just looked at her for a long time.
"Oh.." I mumbled getting up and placing a ten on the table and walking away without even touching the cup of coffee. She got up at the same time I did and followed me effortlessly. I walked away as fast as I could almost falling twice. She seemed patient and able to keep up with me.
"Go away." I grumbled lowly and increased my pace.
"No can do! I stay with you!" She smiled giggling at my increased dejection.
"I'm not about to leave you alone when..." she watched my reaction carefully," Edward left you like that. No siirie bob I'm staying with you." I clenched my fist and caught her collar and glared at her when I answered.
"Who the hell are you?"
"I told you Julianne Arilya." She answered still smiling even though I was this close to punching her. How dare she? Who was she to know everything about my dejection?
"How do you know this?!" I growled she still smiled.
"I dream things." She said simply wiggling easily out of my grasp.
"Well that's nice and all but if you would be so kind as to butt the hell out!" I growled. I was going mad that much was clear. My foul temper had only worsened to an excessive degree.
"I will not but the hell out because you need my help." She smiled looking at me with strange knowing eyes.
"Just leave me alone!!" I screamed at her. She was getting on my nerves and they couldn't take it much. I turn and run toward the forest. I remembered a promise I'd made once to stay out of the woods but what did that matter now. I was semi suicidal wasn't I. I didn't like to admit it but it was true and I knew it even If I denied it.
"NO! Bella! Come back!" She screamed after me her cherry tone gone. I ran faster tripping on something just like I would. I pushed myself and bounced up running farther and deeper into the woods. I could here that girl trailing after me calling me back. I didn't care though I kept going.
I looked over my shoulder feeling that odd sensation again.
It was then I felt it.
Then that I saw them.
That I felt pain.
Something or someone had knocked me over to the ground with the force of a rock. I flew about two feet and landed clutching my ribs in pain.
Then I heard the laughs.
I groaned and was lifted off the ground. I met two unfamiliar blood red eyes.
She was beautiful beyond comparison to anything I had seen. She was young no older than seventeen her lips pulled back in a contortion of teeth. Her face was of a young girl with Asian descent. Her black hair was straight down her back. She was dressed like any normal teenage girl, jeans a blue shirt and hoodie.
She glared at me without completely seeing me.
"Is this her?" she whispered into the cold air. There was an inaudible hiss through the wind and the girl who grasped my neck to the point of crushing- smiled a malevolent smile.
"I see." she said examining me. She pushed me away to the tree and I gasped for air that was trying to escape me.
I wanted to ask her something but I found I couldn't make the tiniest sounds. The girl let out a light chuckle and stared at me with her cool gaze.
"It's not use you know. I crushed your larynx." She laughed a bitter laugh. I widened my eyes in horror but not enough life was in my face to show I really cared either way.
"You don't care?" the girl questioned without giving me a look. She looked toward where I was but her gaze was a little to high for her to be looking at me.
"Don't hurt her!" That strange girl came from behind me panting and out of breath.
"Stay out of this human?" A hiss echoed throughout the trees and I looked around it was a soft new voice, feminine.
Another snarl ripped from my subconscious beautiful and heavenly pulling me out of the darkness. I mouthed his name without my voice there to carry it out.
"No I won't!" that strange girl stood defiantly there.
"Suit yourself." the teenage vampire with black hair smirked. She crouched lowly getting ready to lung at us her eyes red with anger daring us to move an inch. The beautiful voice in my head growled louder and begged me to run even if it would prove to be useless.
"NO!" I didn't have the senses to see the dangerous vampire being knocked to the ground. I could only hear the crash like sound that had a resemblance to two large boulder colliding with each other.
I heard another one right in front of me and if i had blinked I would have not seen them appear. Shin stood there crouching holding a woman. No a female vampire I would never forget. She snapped furiously and tried in vain to get past him. He held onto her flinching slightly when a sound echoed off the trees like a faint whimper of pain.
Shin turned to look at us with burning black eyes. The woman kept snapping inching closer toward me. Her vicious snarls and bloodthirsty growls made it hard to concentrate on what he was telling me. The vicious answering snarls from my subconscious made me lightheaded. Victoria.
"RUN!" Shin growled at the same time Edward did. I flinched as his name broke through my barriers. I couldn't move. It wasn't until I was nearly pulled to my feet that I turned to look at...what was her name?...Julianne, she was pulling me along this determined look on her face. I nodded and got up following her. We ran past the trees as fast as we could.
Me being me fell down a lot and managed to slash my left leg on a tree branch sticking out of the side of a fallen oak. But I didn't' notice the pain my body was trying to numb it over.
"DUCK!" My ears picked up the warning and dropped immediately as if on que dragging Julianne with me. She gasped but dropped as well. We snapped out heads up at the same time and saw a tree whiz past out heads and smash into the large Oak in front of us. We didn't stop to wonder the blood pulsed through my veins cold but rushing to life. My heart bet with an uncanny disjoined rhythm trying to pump the blood to my legs. My lungs moved my chest up and down and I forced oxygen in and Co2 out making my head light. My muscles ached with tense unworked pain.
I was in danger true. But I felt more alive than ever. Noticing the muscle flexor and extensor work in contrast on each led. My bones felt cold but tingled with energy as I ran. I felt alive.
The best part was that Edward was with me. He growled as he sensed the danger come closer and urged me on, told me to keep moving faster despite my constant tumbles.
We broke out to the sold cement of the city. It was starting to get dark. Teens roamed the city with excitment the night life provided, even in this small town. We didn't stop, we kept running for the safety of human presence but if Victoria were that desperate to kill me then it was no use. We would have to keep running.
We tumbled down an alley. We had to stay away from the humans they could get hurt if they were around us. We bumped into a wall and wasted little time to push off the wall and race down toward the left.
We had to move fast we had to get far away but me being Bella, tripped on my own shoe lace. Julianne skidded to a stop and turned to look at me.
"Bella are you ok?" she questioned pulling me up to my feet.
"Yeah I'm fine and you?" I asked managing to inject some feeling to my voice. And for once it was sincere.
"Fine." she smile at me her face was messy covered in grime from stumbling around in the woods and this dirty alley. I must have looked worse. We snapped our heads up at the same time when we heard a bottle break and shoes squelche toward us.
"Well what 'ave we here?" A grizzly nasal voice mused stepping closer toward us.
"Ello poppets. What brings you here?" the ghastly voice continued. We turned around to run but we noticed the men behind us cornering us.
"Ya ain't going no where poppets. Yer staying right here." I heard Julianne gasp and turned to see a fist make contact with my head. It was dark as the abyss of my heart after that.
Ohhhhhhh!!1 BAMMMMM!! Well that took forever sorry I need encouragement. dudes twilight move!!GAHHHHH!! why can't it come out in the summer why why why. Ilove edward(rob) isn't he the coolest with his brittish accent. It suits edward. I dunno I can just see it you know?
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