Forget
When I woke up I noticed I was gagged. It was not a nice thing waking up to dirt tasting fabric stuffed down your mouth. It was also not right that my hands remained at my back when I wanted them on my lap where I could make sure I was ok. My throat was sore. Each breath I took was agony as air particles scraped along my trachea. My Larynx was destroyed...umm come on biology I did not take you two years for nothing(In Twilight it says she's in Biology II with Edward)... my voice box. So did that mean that I couldn't talk. Great. I couldn't talk. Not that I really cared but it was somehow a defeat. Another one to add to my long list of failures.
I tried to make an account of what had happened to me but I was at a loss.
For starters my hands were tied with rough coarse rope that had already tore away at the skin of my arms.
My legs were bound but it wasn't as uncomfortable as the feel of rope on my skin, my jeans were in the way of the rope on my legs.
I was bleeding from the head; I could smell the rust like it was permanently stuck in the cilia of my nostrils replacing the filtered air with rust, pure rust.
My lungs burned with the lack of oxygen that flowed in.
My heart pumped The Left and Right Atrium and Ventricles of my heart pushing the blood as fast as they would go through my veins, capillaries and arteries.
The impulse in my neurons sluggish.
The pain is what had woken me up in the first place.
I was having a nightmare and I was screaming.
My larynx had screamed in protest.
And I had woken up.
My breathing was heavy and labored.
"Ah, poppet is awake." that same voice from the alley called to me. I fully opened my dull eyes and saw the dark room swirl with my turning head. It was like a basement but I could feel the breeze from an open window. I thrashed against my binds but that was just as painful as breathing. My body felt bruised, it must have been the adrenaline that made me oblivious to the pain that vampire had caused.
"Ah, ah, ah poppet stay still er else ima ave to kill ye." the man sneered. I snorted and shifted my eyes in his direction. He was leaning against the wall smirking from ear to ear, it wasn't a smile.
"Not scared eh? From wat the boss 'as 'tol me ye 'ave no reason to." he said in his thick British accent. I gave him a questioning look. Boss?
"Yeah milady Victoria." he smirked when I automatically tensed. He, this man was human! His eyes were grey and he was very human with his skin color being a deep brown.
"She knew she'd kill ye as soon as she laid eyes on ye so she sent me to torture ye for er" he smirked as my expression froze. My bones frozen. His expression darkened and he sauntered toward me his whole body shaking with anticipation. He pulled a knife from his pocket and slashed at my cheek. I screamed, muffled by the pain and gag that had been placed on me. He cut away my rope bindings and backhanded me toward the door.
"Run, poppet run. Tis a chase, this is." He sneered and I shot forward before he finished the first "run". I was out the door and down the immediate steps tumbling down having tripped. I had torn the gag away from my mouth and the squeal that came out instead of a scream was piercing. I had landed at the bottom on my knee and had to pull myself up and steady myself against the wall before my instincts kicked in again and I was out the door. It was a small cottage where I was in the middle of no where. Mountains loomed in the distance surrounded my a forest of trees.
"Yer gonna ave to move faster than that poppet." the man laughed from behind me already leaning against the frame of the door. I shot forward again having paused to look at my surroundings. I ran through the woods bumping into trees and tripping on roots in the process.
"Run faster poppet!" I heard him laugh and I pushed my self farther up the mountain and watched the landscape pass me looking for any signs of help. But there was no one. I skidded to a stop at the top of a cliff. The sea.
The inky black waters churned violently at high tide. I watched the moon play with the colors reflecting of the waves like broken glass.
"Looks like a dead end poppet." He was right behind me. I shuddered. I looked behind me and came face to face with that ghastly man. His face was hidden in the darkness but his pistol shone with the light from the moon.
No! No! No! No! No! No!
I gasped at the sudden voice that rang in my ear and watched as the man smirked even wider.
Bella, Bella run!
I-I can't Edward.
No please don't say that you have to run!
I'm sorry Edward but I can't. I-I love you, you do know that?
NO!! Bella!
I backed away from the man to the edge of the waiting waters. The man sneered and I smiled at him turning my back to him. I took a deep breath and did what the only thing I could think of. I jumped. I felt the pain before I heard the shot. He'd shot me. I could feel the pain but welcomed the end.
NO! NO! Bella! Bella!!
I just couldn't stand it any longer. All I was was just a pathetic nuisance. A burden to everyone I met. I had no life to live anymore the pain was too much.
Stay with me! Don't you dare leave me!
I fell to the black abyss welcoming the cold freezing water that numbed my whole body. I was swirled around in black whirlpool letting the water wrap around my burning flesh.
Hold on! Please hold on!! BELLA!!
I don't know how long I was dragged through the water but I knew I was out for the most of it. My skin felt like ice and fire at the same time both more scarring than the other. I drifted above the water but I couldn't really breath the air was there but it wasn't enough in my lungs.
I had the faintest feeling of water current accelerating as I tumbled downward the gravity pulling me down. I heard the deafening crack of my skull against something before everything went black and I was gone.
x-X-x
My head felt separated from my body and my head felt like it was on fire. I was sure there was pain but I couldn't locate it. I knew I was torn from the inside out emotionally but I couldn't seem to care.
"She's loosing too much blood." I heard a feminine voice deduct. I felt numb poking around my body but couldn't concentrate long enough to find out where.
"Janet the bullets too close to here heart I don't think I can extract it without cutting the Aorta." A male voice added.
"Let me do it." The poking lessened then I could feel the pain spreading like wildfire. I tried to scream. But my throat.
"Shhh. Bella you're larynx is crushed and there are scrapings along your trachea. You need to slow your breathing." The voice, female, Janet?
"She's in too much pain Janet. I can feel it its maddening." The male voice moaned in pain.
"You can't let her die!" another female voice cried out desperately.
"We're not going to let her die Nina don't worry." Janet cooed. Nina? I felt I knew them but my mind couldn't form coherent way's as to how they were connected to me.
"Calm down Bella." Janet cooed and I listened because I knew I didn't want to hurt. I breather evenly by eyelids still glued shut. As the minutes passed I seemed to forget where I was or who I was with. It started to fade away and I let it take me.
"Her heart rate is decreasing Shin keep her with us!" that woman's voice ran out loud pulling me back a little.
"No! Bella please fight!" that girl yelled in desperation again.
"I've got the bullet out!" the woman said in relief I felt lighter than ever now. I let myself drift again letting everything go. Just like I wanted. I So I wouldn't suffer. So I could be at peace in my place. A place where I was with Edward and he loved me again and I loved him with my very heart and soul.
A place where we wandered along the stream of the meadow walking hand in hand. He would bend over and kiss me on the lips and I would sigh in content wrapping my arms around him. A place where I was just as beautiful as he was and less breakable. Where he didn't have to worry about me not ever being enough. Where I was so much more durable so he could kiss me without any worries of breaking me.
That was where I wanted to be not this painful world of sin and deception. I wanted to be in my place. So I wouldn't ever have to shed a tear and if I did he would be here to brush them away.
"We're loosing her!" the male voice shot through my daydream. NO! I want to be in peace without any reminder that Edward left me. I want to be at peace with my love.
"Shin shock her!" the woman's voice ran out through the night air and I could feel the very cold metallic plates on my chest.
"3..2..1 CLEAR!" I was instantly jolted with awake with the electricity that shot through my body. The process repeated about four or five times and I could hear the distant beeping in the background and the pain that rushed through my nervous sister. I could feel my leg broken by the fall and my ribs broken with the crash along the rocks and my head pounding with pain and my heart burning In the place where I was shot.
I was in too much pain and I didn't want it I wanted to be with my Edward. I wanted to leave. I could already feel my senses sharpening. I could feel the inhale and exhale of breath I took but I kept my eyelids snapped shut. I heard the happy chatter of beings around me but I did not want to listen I wanted to dream with my love. So I shut it all out and let myself drift again. Let myself follow the bright light that was seductive in my mind. I let it take me.
x-X-x
I dreamed for along time. I knew it was a long time but time ceased to mean anything to me. I could remember him clearly here. I could see his clear marble skin. His honey sweet eyes. His velvet voice. In MY Place I could hear him, hear him tell me he loved me. Hear him declare his love to me and I could feel it. I knew it was true here. In this place. In my place it was true to me and that's all I needed to know. That's all I needed to hear.
I was vaguely aware of voices on the edge of my unconsciousness but I didn't listen to them I just let them be there and fizzle away with time. With time they faded so I couldn't hear anything at all. But in the beginning it was really hard to ignore.
"It's been five days Janet! How could she still be asleep!?" a voice questioned desperate and fierce.
"It's perfectly normal for her to be under for this long Nina I gave her medications and they take time to wear off. Anyways it's best for her injuries to heal, she needs her rest."
"I know that! But still Something doesn't feel right!"
"Shin please help her calm down. Take her outside, take her hunting she's gone too long with out it."
I heard no protests from this Nina after that. And that's how it would go I would drift and occasionally hear the worried tones of Nina. I knew time was passing but felt like only a few short hours when I heard them again.
"Janet you cannot tell me this is normal! She's been out for two months! I haven't said anything but look at her all her injuries are healed! Not a single scar was left on her!! This is not normal!"
"I know Nina, I know. This isn't normal she should have woken up in a week and a half at the latest but this is something I didn't want to think could happen."
"What are you talking about."
"When I examined her she had a fracture on her skull. I didn't want to think anything of it but no I know it was foolish for me to let her sleep."
"Janet I don't understand."
"She may be in a coma."
I drowned out everything after that. A coma? Really. It didn't scare me I welcomed it and I found myself drilling deeper into my memory vault.
Flashes of images flashed before my eyes
The first time I saw him
The first time we spoke
The first time he admitted to who he was
The first time he said he loved me
And slowly I started to forget why there was this pain in my chest.
I forgot the name of that gorgeous man with golden eyes.
I forgot his eye color after awhile.
I forgot he broke my heart
I forgot he was beautiful
I forgot he was a vampire
I forgot he had a family
I forgot his sister was my best friend
I forgot I loved them
I forgot who he was entirely
I forgot I loved him
I forgot who I was
And then I woke up.
sure sure i know it's been forever I'll try to update sooner and btw I loved bd so if anyone decides to trash comment I'll so Ban you from my stories or whatever. I loved it and ppl need to get over themselves. I'm stressing right now sorry I'm having my sweet sixteen party on Saturday it more towards the quinceanera category so i have to do dances where I'm scared as hell! somebody help me relax!! gah Im so scared
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