Meltdowns and More Optimism
Must. Not. Beat. Head. With. Hard Book. I was currently sitting in Angela's Black Mini Cooper, trying as hard as I possibly could, not to snap and
beat myself over the head with my book for making such a stupid decision without checking my facts first. Today, right before my sleepover with
Angela ended, I began getting cold feet. So, I asked Angela to research if I qualify for a scholarship at St. Lucy's. According to the website,I did.
Sadly, I couldn't change my mind now. "Too many arrangements have been made, your spot at St. Lucy's is taken and now there is and now
there is a reserved spot at Forks High for you. I'm really sorry C.C." Angela said. She really felt bad, like it was her fault I made a stupid decision.
I knew exactly why I was panicking and I hated to admit it. I was scared to move in with my Dad. He was a nice guy, when he was sober. When
he was drunk,he was a nightmare. He really didn't remember what he did when he was drunk. He was sober only around company and when
he didn't have enough money to buy liquor or whiskey.I knew my sister was lucky, getting the chance to go to a fancy boarding school on a
scholarship. Maya had suddenly decided that she wanted to go to boarding school when the divorce settlement stuck her with dad. She was
always the lucky, prettier Madsen sister. I don't resent her for it. I resent the fact that she got away from the drunken monster I call my father.
While I was slowly losing my mind with the thoughts of my dad, Angela was humming some happy tune while loading my bags into her trunk.
Soon, we where finally off. Angela was absentmindedly singing some pop song that was blasting out of her speakers. I had a late night last
night, with all the nail painting and watching chick flicks, well she watched and I listened. I was unbelievably tired, so I drifted to sleep with my
face plastered to Ang's window, hoping that my Dad had really changed.
AN: Ok if you guys are wondering about Angela, yes it is the same one. It's been a while since bella had Reneesme, not much though. Angela is in her Mid-Late 20's.