"Alice? Are you Awake?" I heard a voice say. My eyelids flickered open.
"Jacob?" I asked surprised. "What are you doing here?"
"You just fainted Alice," he said.
"Oh crap, for how long?"
"30 seconds," he said, holding me up in a sitting position.
"Oh, it's not that bad," I said.
"Are you cold?" he said, "I have my jacket?"
"No, I'm fine, can we go back now?" I asked
"Sure,"
So he got me up and steadied me, and we head slowly back off to his fathers place.
"Jacob?"
"Yeah?"
"Please don't tell anyone about this,"
"Never," he promised.
As we arrived back there, most of the people had left. Only 2 more cars were parked out front, Charlie's and some other persons.
It was 12 pm and Charlie decided that he was getting tired and that we should leave. So I said good bye to Jacob and Billy and we headed home in Charlie's police cruiser.
I did not sleep well that night.
I had two dreams. In the first one, it was just like my earlier vision. I was as pale as snow and we were in the cafeteria. My eyes were black though, and Iooked angry. In my second, more prominent dream, I saw Jasper running around and killing people by sucking their blood. Hundreds of drained and mangled bodies where lying in front of me. Then he looked up at me, blood covering his face and he said, "Your next,"
That was when I screamed.
I opened my eyes, still screaming. After 2 more seconds, I stopped. How could this be? It was impossible for him to bee a… thing. No, this was all one big dream and I would get over it. So I hit myself hard on the face, but nothing had changed. I kept hitting myself.
"What the hell are you doing Alice?" said Charlie, rubbing his eyes and holding his teddy bear. "Why did you scream?" he asked, then realised that he was holding a teddy, and put it behind his back.
"I'm dreaming," I said.
"Alice, its 2:34 in the morning, get to bed!" he said, "and stop hitting yourself," he added.
So I wasn't dreaming. But, how could I not be. Maybe Jacob was telling me lies. But the clues fit Jasper and his family perfectly.
It was then, at 2:35 that I fell back to sleep and had the same, horrifying dream.
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As I stepped into English for the 4th time, I stared into Jaspers eyes again, and he smiled back. Today I was serious. I had to tell him what I was thinking. But how?
"Hey Alice," said Jasper. I shuddered. "What's wrong?" he asked.
"Bad dream," I replied.
"Oh Alice, tell me about it," he said.
"No, because you were the bad thing," I said. He looked taken aback by this.
"How was I bad?" he asked
"You killed everyone Jasper!" I said a bit too loudly, so everyone was looking at us. But the look on his face changed from happy, to serious like mine.
"Alice, how did I kill everyone," he whispered so quietly that I could only just make it out.
I paused. I could tell him this way. Not like this.
"Please Alice?" he pleaded, "I'll go get Edward,"
"What does he have to do with the price of fish?" Jasper laughed.
"He's good at reading minds. I don't know how, he's just good at… reading people," this just got me more confused. And added to my clues. Mind reading? What else? Fortune Telling?
"Why not tell me?" Jasper asked.
"Not now," I said. So he changed the subject.
"What did you do last night? I came to visit you and you weren't home," he said.
"I went to La Push," I said. Jasper instantly straightened up.
"Why" he asked.
"Well my dad is good friends with Billy Black, so we went to his house. Nice people over there," I said.
"Black?" he said.
"Oh, they said you were enemies of them. You and your family," but Jasper kept silent. He knew where this subject was heading, and he had figured out what was on my mind. Without Edward.
"What else did they say?" he asked. Sounding oddly interested.
"They told me all about your family.
"No!" Jasper whispered angry in disbelief. "Those dogs will pay!"
"Dogs?"
"You know everything don't you?" he asked.
"I think so,"
"And that's what your dream was about?"
I hesitated. "Yes, Jasper,"
"Oh Alice, I'm so sorry," he said.
This action took me by surprise.
"Sorry? Aren't you angry with me?"
"No Alice, it's not your fault. But you know our little secret; it's against the law,"
"Little? Law?"
But he was silent. He put his cold hand on my arm, not as afraid any more to show that he was a… thing. I couldn't think the word. It hurt my brain to much.
"There shall be quarrel in the cafeteria now," said Jasper.
"Why?" I asked.
"Because Edward can read thoughts. In fact, I think he could be listening to us right now,"
"But… how does he… do that?
"Oh… well, it's hard to explain. I will tell you later,"
"Alright," I agreed.
Well, I had figured out what I had wanted to figure out. Jasper was a Vampire; I had to be sure of this. But I had to ask his this question straightforward.
So I whispered, so silently that I could hardly hear my own voice. "Jasper, are you a Vampire?" although I already knew the answer, Jasper nodded. I shuddered, and he heard me. He put his cold hand on mine again.
There was too much in my small, incompatible mind. Too much information for a human. I shuddered at that word too. But I still needed to learn more, even though I was breaching my learning limits.
"Tell me more after school," I said.
"Yes," he replied. And that was the first lesson we listened in English.
Spanish was a blur. Too much on my mind. Luckily the teacher didn't ask me any questions while we were day dreaming.
Lunch. This was the time that I had been dreading all day. But the same as usual, I got my lunch and sat with the Cullen's and the Hale's. I knew that they were aware of what was going on. I could feel their tenseness. They were still and not moving, each of them staring at Jasper. I sat their quietly. It was also like they were talking, but I couldn't here anything. Their mouths moved quickly and the speech was so low that nothing was audible. Well, at least not to me.
So I decided to look at the sky. Raining of course. But what would happen if it were sunny, I wondered. Would they come to school, or would they melt and burn. I giggled softly, but they all heard me and looked at me, questioning my sanity.
"Nothing," I said, smiling. So they returned to their quiet talk. Near the end, I could make a tiny bit out.
"We have to turn her," said Bella, "Or the Volturi will kill her if we don't do it soon," she added.
"No, Bella, we can't do that. Ripping her human life away like that. Maybe she doesn't want to,"
They were going to rip away my humanity. I shuddered. If it was to be with Jasper though, I would accept. And after that remark, I interceded.
"You're going to transform me into a Vampire?" I asked, getting the question of my tongue. Rosalie rolled her eyes. Jasper laughed.
"Probably no," he said.
"But how will I be with you forever, Jasper? Just how?"
I saw that his decision was troubled. "Why not Jasper? Why?"
"Let's talk about this later," he said. Rosalie scowled at me. What was wrong with her? And while on this subject, what was wrong with me? I wanted to be a Vampire, only for my own selfish reasons on keeping my love with me forever. Maybe he didn't want that. It would all be discussed 'later' though. The rest of lunch was quiet at the table, with the only sound of me eating noisily for some reason. When the bell went for biology, my only class with Edward, they all left quickly, all but Jasper, who wanted to escort me to class.
On our way there we held hands, my warm one in his cold one. But I felt whole and unusually calm. As I went into my biology classroom, it felt like I was leaving a part of me behind. Panic fell over me; it was a very odd feeling. I sat next to Edward, but this didn't bother me too much. He was quiet, as usual, only saying hi to me when I sat down. I decided that today, we would talk.
"Hey Edward," I said, as cheerful as possible.
"Hi Alice," he said back.
"I was just wondering, Jasper said that you can read minds. Is this true?" I said and he stiffened.
"Yes, it's true," he replied.
Again, I saw another vision of my future.
I was lying on a table, with blood running down my neck. It looked as if I was screaming. I looked terrible.
But almost as soon as it had started, it had ended.
"Oh dear," he asked.
"What…. Oh those. No, I get visions all the time, nothing to worry about,"
"Nothing to worry about?" he whispered softly, "Geese Alice, your just saw yourself turning into one of us," he said. This took me by surprise. This must have meant that Jasper was umming and arr-ing about this. But I thought I wanted it. To be with my love forever. What could be better?
I didn't even know about Vampires, so why did I want to be one? Why was I seeing myself as one?
"Oh," was all I could manage to say.
As the day ended, I walked up to my truck and Jasper was there waiting for me.
"Do you mind if we have our private conversation at your house? Maybe you could show me to Charlie," he said.
"Yes, that would be great," I replied. So we drove home in silence. When I got back, Charlie was still fishing wrote on a note that I needn't cook dinner because he was coming home with pizza. Again. I was getting sick of pizza.
Jasper and I walked into the lounge room and sat down.
"So," he said, "We really need to talk,"
"I know," I replied.
"You don't seem worried. For goodness sake, a vampire is in your house and you just sit their talking to it," he said, I laughed, and he followed the gesture.
"Tell me about you, about Vampires," I asked.
"Well, as you sort of know… you know… our diet," he said.
I nodded.
"Well my family, we are different. We don't hunt the humans, only animals," I nodded again.
"And the eyes?" I asked.
"When we are thirsty," I shuddered at the word, "Our eyes are black. When we have just hunted a human, they are red," he said.
"And when you hunt animals, they are gold,"
"Yes."
"Tell me about how you become a Vampire," I said.
"Well," he hesitated, like he was planning on what he would say. "Well, when a human gets bitten by one of us, our venom runs through their body, transforming it," he said. "The process is extremely painful and you want to die the whole time,"
"Um… how long does it go for?"
"2-3 days,"
There was a minute of silence.
"You've seen your self become one haven't you, Alice?" he asked.
I nodded, "Three times now. In a dream, the one I told you and the one I had in Biology." I said.
"What happened in Biology?" he asked.
"I saw myself screaming in pain with blood on my throat. Edward recognised it better than I did,"
"Edward saw this?"
'"He was there when it happened," I said. "What else can you do?" I added, changing the subject.
"Well, we have immortal strength and speed. We also don't need to breath or sleep," he said,
"No breathing?"
"We prefer to breathe, so we can smell everything, but since I'm near you, I don't want to harm you,"
"Oh," was all I said.
"Alice, I just want to try one thing," and he reached forward to my face and pressed his mouth to mine. I could tell that he wasn't breathing. It must be very difficult for him. I kissed him back, the cold of his face felt so good.
Just then, Jasper pulled away.
"Charlie," he whispered quickly.