Faith pov.

I'm in hell. Right at this moment I'm in hell. Me and my gang are sittin at a scooby meetin and Red and farm boy keep takin verbal jabs at me. But I'm not gonna say nothin back. I'm the bigger person. I swore I'd be civil today.

"Why don't we just send Faith to talk to glory? Its not like anyone would care if she died?" Red asks.

"That's fuckin it! I'm tired of sittin around takin your shit! You don't like me I get that, you never have liked me. That's good cus I don't really give two and a half shits about you either. All I'm askin for is a little respect. I'm givin it to you the least you could do is return the favor." I say.

"You want us to respect you? Faith you're a fucking psycho, we could never respect you." Riley says.

"How is it that you can forgive Angel for the shit he did but you damn me to fuckin hell?!" I blow up.

"Angel is different. He's a good man a-and he lost his soul at the time." Red says.

"Yeah so did I, big fuckin whoop! That makes what he did automatically ok?! Sorry Angel but I'm just lookin for answers." I say to him.

"Its ok Faith." he says.

"What do you mean you lost your soul?" Red asks.

"What the hell are you talking about?" B asks.

"Giles? What the hell am I talkin bout?" I ask. I had planned on takin this secret to the grave but somethings I just want out. Hell Cordy don't even know about this. Giles just looks at me. Oh hell no G-man. This ends now. All the lies, you're comin clean. "Giles?" I try again. He's givin me a hard cold look. He's lettin me know he aint sayin nothin. Lettin me know I did the wrong thing puttin my trust in him back then. "I give up!" I yell. "I put my fuckin trust in you and this shit happens?! I shoulda fuckin knew it was a mistake." I say. I feel the air behind me shift. "Don't C. now aint the best time to touch me. I'm gonna go for a walk." I say and I leave before she has a chance to say anythin. I need to do this. I can't stand to be around anyone right now.

Cordelia pov.

I don't know what is bothering Faith but I sure as hell want to find out. I could see the pain in her eyes when she left. Giles did something and I want to know what. I felt her wanting to give up trusting people but she won't. She will not just because Giles fucked everything up between them.

"Giles what was she talking about?" I ask. Seems like nobody else gives a shit. Although I know that isn't true. The entire AI crew loves her. She's our sister. Or in Wesley's case, daughter figure.

"Rupert if you know the reason she was the way she was, you had better tell us right now." Wesley says in a threatening voice.

"Wesley do shut up. We are all aware that Faith was unstable before but it seems that now she is better." Giles says.

"She said somethin about loosin her soul. What was she talkin about?" Gunn asks. Giles sighs.

"Before when everything happened, Faith and I had an agreement. Well it was more Faith and the council. If she would gather information on the mayor, they would help her financially. They would also cover the bill for the counseling she was undergoing. She said she wouldn't do it unless she was sure none of us would be hurt. They in turn said that in order to ensure she will not betray us, they would strip her soul and hold it as collateral. If she were to betray us not only would she lose her soul but we would die as well." what the fuck?! How in the name of all that is good can they do that?!

"Rupert! You know as well as I do that you can not trust them! Especially with Faith! She was just a child!" wes yells. Oh yeah he is beyond pissed.

"There is more, but I feel it'd be best to wait for Faith's return. There are things she doesn't know." he says. Well this should make her happy.

"I'll be back." I say.

"Where are you going?" Fred asks. My face softens when I turn to her.

"To find Faith." I say. "We'll see you guys soon." I address the room. This day is bullshit but I feel like its just the beginning.

Buffy pov.

Oh my goodness. I can't believe what Giles just said. He took part in that. He took part in taking a humans soul. I didn't even know it was possible!

"Why did they take her soul Giles?" I ask. He sighs.

"It was all she had. We needed a way to ensure she wouldn't betray us. Buffy you must un-" I cut him off.

"So you took her soul?! What kind of sense does that make?!" I practically scream. Things just continue to make it harder to not forgive Faith. I want to so badly now but...she still hurt me pretty bad.

"Because even without a soul I was well aware of the fact she couldn't hurt anyone! Soul or not its just the person she is...she can't hurt innocent people. That's just Faith." he says.

"If you knew she wouldn't hurt anyone why did you let them take her soul?" Wesley asks. This is the first time I've ever seen him this angry. Hell everyone here is.

"Just because I knew she wouldn't hurt anyone didn't mean I trusted her." Giles says.

"What reason did she ever give you to not trust her?" Gunn asks. I can see he's doing everything he can not to get physical. They all really care about her and I'm happy she has that.

"It wasn't what she did I was just being cautious." Giles says.

"Alright we're back. Talk so we can go." Cordelia says bursting into the magic shop with Faith behind her.

Faith pov.

Cor convinced me to come back and At least hear the man out. S'all he gets though. He looks at me and clears his throat.

"Quite right. Well the information that Faith needed to hear is...Faith, you never worked for the mayor." he says. The fuck?!

"The hell are you talkin bout. O'course I did. I remember it quite well actually." I say. He shakes his head.

"You weren't here. The night you killed accidentally killed Allen you were removed from sunnydale." I'm confused as fuck. I remember all this other shit happenin. Like dumpin the body. Them findin the body. Tellin B I didn't care. Finally admittin what I did to Giles and goin into counseling and then agreein to help the council. Mostly to redeem myself.

"Yeah I was. I remember tryina kill Red, strangle Xander, takin B's body. All that shit." I say getting mad.

"No Faith. Those memories aren't yours." bullshit.

"Bullshit! Dude I remember doin a whole lotta fucked up shit, one of em bein trustin you. And if I was 'removed' that same night the Finch thing happened, how did I lose my soul?" I ask. Dude this is so fuckin bogus.

"It was taken. You didn't hand it over. The night you were taken away the council drugged you and performed the spell. You were then put into a magically induced coma. From then memories were projected into your mind. Most of the things you remember happening here aren't your memories." he says.

"Giles don't be ridiculous. It was Faith, I mean we saw her." Red says. Giles shakes his head sadly.

"That wasn't Faith. It was a young woman named Chasity" he says. I swear somethin just snapped.

"Don't you dare say that name! You don't know shit about her!" I say.

"Faith, calm down sweetie. Lets hear him out." Cordy says calming me. "Now is there a reason you are blaming Faith's sister? The sister who died when they were four?" Cordelia asks angrily.

"Chasity survived the car accident. It was part of the council's plan. They thought she was a potential and they were correct but what they didn't realize is Faith was one as well. She believes that Faith and her parents died that night as well. She was raised by the council." he says.

"We weren't identical." I say. I'm tryin my best to catch him in a lie.

"Over the years the resemblance between you two grew. By the time you were both 11 years young, you were identical. The only way to tell you apart were your attitudes. Also the fact that you were separate helped. That night when your watcher tried to suffocate you, your sister was called. This in turn set all the events into motion." he says. I hear Cordy gasp. I never told her bout my watcher tryina kill me.

"Go on." I say. I want to hear this all.

"You and your sister arrived in sunnydale on the same night. The council and I both worked hard to make sure you two never came into acquaintances with each other. If you did, there would be problems. After you met Buffy and the others, we would alternate between the two of you. While you worked during the day to pay for your motel room, she visited the school. At night, most nights, you would patrol with Buffy. The two of you shared her memories. You never had sex with Xander. That was your sister." he says. Well I'll be damned.

"What else?" I ask. He takes a deep breath.

"As you know all of the events that happened with the mayor, something went wrong. You were waken up one week before the fight you and Buffy had, that night we switched you and your sister again. That's how you ended up in the coma. When you awoke, yet again, you were switched. You never did any of the things after you woke up. Technically she didn't either." he says. But I...this is shit.

"What do you mean technically she didn't either?" Cordelia asks.

"The initiative received the idea for control chips from somewhere." he says. I sit down trying to take everything in.

"You know...about me. You know don't you?" I ask him. He nods. "So why didn't you tell me who the fuck my real family was?!" I ask. I'm more than furious with this man. He just basically told me that all the evil shit I did, I didn't do. So why the fuck do I still feel guilty?

"Because we felt it wouldn't be safe! There were strict orders from the council to h-" he starts but I cut him off.

"Fuck the council! Do you know I had to get my brother to restore my soul?! Yeah, they obviously wanted me to be their puppet." I stop and sigh. "Where is my sister?" I ask. He doesn't say anythin.

"She asked you a question." I hear Xander growl out. He really is a good guy.

"Give me a moment. I'll ring her." he says. I nod and he goes to the phone. I take a deep breath to keep the tears down. I'm not gonna cry with all these people around. Xander gets up and stands beside me.

"Xander what are you doing?" willow asks. She just sounds as curious as I am.

"After Faith talks to her sister, if its ok with the AI team, I'm going back to the mansion with them." he says.

"Its fine." Wesley says.

"Why?" B asks.

"Did you hear what Giles just said? I'm sorry, but I can't be around him." he says with a look of pure disgust on his face. Giles doesn't deserve for anyone to look at him like that. Deep down he's a good guy.

"Look X I appreciate it but you don't gotta leave G-man. I'm sure he had a reason for don it. Everythin happens for a reason and all that." I say.

"Faith can I ask you a question?" Gunn asks. I nod. "How is it that after all he did, you can defend him?" he asks. I shrug.

"Dunno I just think he's a good guy who made bad decisions Everybody makes em at one point or another." I say. And its true. Nobody makes perfect choices all'a time. And I think with a little time I can forgive him. He gives me a grateful smile and I nod back. I never said I wasn't pissed. Hell yeah but I'll get over it. Just me. After a few minutes Dawn, Tara, Anya and Buffy get up to stand with us. I must look confused cus B speaks.

"I agree with Xander. We can't be around him. At least not now. You understand right Giles?" she asks. She's practically pleadin with him.

"Look you guys don't gotta be getting mad at him. Like I told X, he just made a few bad choices. I'm sure he's sorry. Right?" I ask. He's silent for a moment.

"No. no I'm not." he says. Ok not helpin keep your family. "And I understand Buffy. I'll be here when you need me." he says with a fatherly smile. Dawn and Tara glare at him. I hear Angel growl and I feel Gunn ready to pounce. I move to him and shake my head.

"Go for a walk man, you need to calm down a little." he looks at me.

"Nah, I'm cool." he says.

"You sure?"

"Yeah." then the door opens. We all look up and I'll be damned if we aint really identical. She sees me and her eyes widen.

"You're supposed to be dead." she whispers. I give her a small smile.

"So are you." I say. We eye each other for a minute. Man its fuckin good ta see her. She was my best friend. Me and my little sister were close at one point but never as close as me and Chas. She looks at Giles then at me.

"Do I wanna know?" she asks. I shake my head.

"No you really don't but I'll tell you when you're ready to hear." I say. She nods. She seems nice. Calm. Somethin that usually aint associated with the Lehanes. Things get awkward so I write down my number and give it to her. "Call me if ya wanna hang out." I say. She takes it with a smile and a nod and leaves. I sigh and start to walk out but I stop at the door and look at Giles. "I forgive you anyway Giles." even though he aint sorry.

Buffy pov.

Even though Faith and I don't really see eye to eye I forgive her. But then again I can't forgive her for something she never did. So I guess I should be forgiving Chasity. But then again I think she was a victim. So I should forgive Giles and the council. Giles I can forgive. That'll be easy. He's the father my dad never was. But the council? I'll never forgive them. Not for what they did to me or Faith and her family. I mean I do care for her. Of course I do. She's my sister slayer. One of them anyway. So there are three slayers running around. Two identical and the original. I guess that saying 'nothing is ever what it seems' comes into play now. I look over at Faith while we are walking with most of the group. Angel, Wesley and Gunn drove back. Well Angel didn't have a choice but anyway I look over at Faith and I see pain. Its in her eyes. Everything he said back there hurt her just a little more. I look at Cordelia whose walking with Faith holding her hand and I feel a strange feeling in my stomach. I just shrug it off. We all get to the mansion and I instantly notice how Faith tenses up when we see a blond who look so familiar. Where have I seen her?

"Kate." Faith says walking inside. Kate? Kate...oh! Kate. The detective who...oh. Kate sighs and looks to Cordelia.

"Can I go talk to her?" she asks. Why does she have to ask? What did she do? Ok where did the protectiveness just come from?

"Look Kate. I don't know what you did but you need to fix it. I always thought you were good for her." Cordelia says. "But if she's hurt you will feel pain." Cordy says after a few moments. Yeah. What she said. Ok why am I doing this in my head.

"Gotcha." kate says before going inside.

"She and Faith were dating?" I ask. Cordy nods.

"For about 10 months. Then one day Faith couldn't stand to be around her." she says. hm. Interesting.

Faith pov.

I really don't need to deal with Kate right now. Why she's here I'll never know. I don't want to. I honestly just want her to leave me alone. I sigh when somebody knocks on the door. I told Fang I was fine.

"S'open." I say. Then my day gets better. Kate peeks her head inside. Great. Fuckin great. "Go. Away." I say. I hear her sigh and come more into the room.

"I miss you ya know. I miss what we had." she says. I'm not doin this.

"Look Kate I don't wanna hear what you got to say. Just do us both a favor and leave me the fuck alone. I told you I don't want nothin ta do with ya and I'd really appreciate it if you'd respect that." I say.

"I'm sorry but I can't." she says. I sigh and look at her finally. Ah she's got the tears again.

"Look, we had somethin good yeah. But you fucked it up." I tell her. And its true.

"I'm sorry about that." she says.

"Sorry don't cut it." I say.

"I made a mistake, so does everybody else!" she says raisin her voice.

"Kate you fuckin cheated on me! Not once, not twice, but three fuckin times and when I confronted you about it you decided to use my face as a punchin bag! You're lucky as fuck I didn't retaliate. I coulda really fucked you up but I didn't wanna sink to that level. You made more then a mistake. You fucked things up for us beyond repair. There isn't even a friendship no more." I say.

Just go
I gave you my word and I promised to love you
Go, it's over
You had your chance
Just go
There's nothing inside me that still feels connected to you
To me you're already gone

"Faith you do-" I stop her. I don't wanna deal with her tears or her for that matter.

"Will you please leave me alone?" I ask tiredly. She looks at me for a few minutes before noddin and leavin. I flop back on the bed heavily then theres another knock on the door. I know its B. she don't wait for me to say come in, she just comes in.

"Faith, are you ok?" she asks. She seems concerned.

"5x5 B. look let everybody know I'm gonna take a nap?" I ask. She nods.

"Ok. um...if you need to talk I'm willing to listen. And I forgive you." she says. I smile at her. Genuinely.

"Thanks." is all I say before she leaves. Why can't we just deal with an apocalypse like every other slayer in history? With out the extra drama.

Well here's an update until sometime next week maybe. Dunno. Anyway review please. The song isn't mine. Its Just Go by jesse McCartney I can't wait for his new album. Its gonna rock!