A Faith Story Can't Catch A Break, a buffy: the vampire slayer fanfic

Buffy pov.

She'll be home soon. Probably another few hours. God I can't wait to see her. I've missed her so much. It seems so...i don't know surreal. The fact that I love her as much as I do and I'd do anything to be around her. I found out why she and kate broke up. Cordelia doesn't know thank the heavens. If she found out she cheated on Faith she would have hell to pay.

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I wonder how things are going to play out for her and I. It was recently brought to my attention that maybe Faith isn't the most confident person. Sure she's all cocky and everything but maybe its just a cover up for the low self-esteem.

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

she and I have been in so many situations with each other and I secretly loved everyone of them. When we sparred or when we fought and she touched my skin or if I was her only focus it made me feel special. But what if she doesn't want to be with me now? Or what's worse. What if she doesn't think she CAN be with me?

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Maybe she'll think since she's...well you know. I have trouble saying that because its so hard to believe. I've heard the term devil's child before but with her its literal. What if she thinks that'll make me not love her? What if that makes her afraid to love me?

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

I've seen her emotions once. I know that when she feels, she feels strongly. She never likes you a little or just tolerates you. She feels with everything inside of her soul and I know if we were to be, I wouldn't have to worry. I wouldn't have insecurities because if she wants me that means she wants me. All the usual jealousy would fly out the window.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't expect her to just jump into my arms or anything like that. Although I'd love for that to happen. I know its going to take time. If I can ever really get up that courage. And its going to be hard. She has a kid to worry about now. And we're slayers and this hell bitch Glory. Ugh! Can't I just catch a break and tell the woman I love her with out an apocalypse staring me in the face?!

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

With everything that could possibly keep us apart? Oddly none of it matters to me. As long as in the end I still have that chance. A chance to be with her. To have a family with her. Wait. Family? I do- I want that. I really do.

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

even if she never knows it I'll love her until the end. Never going to stop, never wanting to stop. Even if she doesn't want me too. And I want her to...i want her to come to me with any problem she might have. Even if we're not together, I want her to be able to talk to me. About anything. Current boyfriend, or girlfriend. And if she's ever hurt I'll catch her and pick up the pieces. But hopefully that won't happen because we'll be happy and together.

Faith pov.

Right now Spike and Dawn are tellin Julian about vampires and all the other things that go bump and the night and all those oogy boogy types. Is it a good idea to tell a five year old about this? no. is it a good idea to tell THIS five year old? Hell yeah. Don't want him tryin to stake Angel like he did with spike. He was so close until I told him Spike was my friend. Ah finally. Home. The mansion never looked so good. I hop out the car and make my way to the back to help my son out. Hehe. I like that.

"Mommy?" hehehe. It still makes me feel all...different to hear that.

"Yeah?" I answer. He looks at me.

"Spike say vampires can't get in unless ya invites em in." he says.

"That's right." I say. Not real sure where this is goin.

"What do that mean?" he asks. Ah curiosity. This will be fun.

"You want me to show you?" I ask and he nods. I smile and lean over and tell dawn to go open the front door. She runs to the mansion and I can see her motioning for somebody to stay back. "Ready?" I ask Julian. Spike isn't paying attention. I pick spike up really quick.

"Bloody hell! What 're you doin?!" he asks. I throw him towards the door but the shield stops him. "Ow! You are so gonna pay for that junior!" he yells I laugh and pick Julian up. He's laughin too. Spike chases us out a little tryin not to laugh but I cut him off and head for the mansion. As soon as I'm inside the threshold I stick my tongue out at him.

"See Julian. He can't get in unless we invite him in. well uncle Angel has to do it." I tell him. He nods and I put him down.

"Faith, my home is your home." Angel says. Hmm. I wonder. I turn and look at Spike. Ah I'll let him in.

"Come in." I say. He moves past me and is he pouting? Ha! He is! Big bad William the Bloody is pouting! I just smile. I'm not gonna pick on him. Right now anyway. I feel somethin on my leg and look down and see Julian hiding behind it. But its not cus he's shy. If I've learned anything about him its that he's not shy. I look at him and I see fear. I furrow my brows.

"Mommy?" he whispers. I kneel down.

"What's wrong kiddo?" I ask. He looks past my head then at me.

"That man scares me." he says. I look back past my head to where he's lookin and I see Riley.

"The buff guy?" I ask and he nods. I'm confused yeah but I'm not gonna question him. If he's scared he's just scared. "Riley get out." I say. I look at him and he looks shocked but I'm not backin down.

"Huh?" he asks.

"If you can huh you can hear. Get out." I say. He looks to Buffy for help but she's too busy lookin at me confused. I raise an eyebrow seein if she's gonna question it. She doesn't say nothin.

"Somethin is comin." Julian says. I look at him quickly. I'm startin to wonder exactly was up with him.

"Good or bad?" I ask. I know everybody's lookin at me like I'm crazy askin a kid about his but hey, I'm gonna trust his instinct.

"Bad. Real bad. He did it." he says pointin at Riley. Angel's the first one on him.

"What did you do?" he growls out.

"Nothing! You're going to listen to a kid who can barely tie his own shoes?!" Riley asks.

"Fuck you." I hear Julian say. Wow. I know my eyebrows must be part of my ponytail right now.

"Language Julian." I scold. I feel it too now. What ever it is its bad as hell.

"Thanks Riley." we hear from the door. Fuck! He's been plottin with Glory?!

"You stupid son of a bitch!!" I yell.

"Language mommy." Julian whispers. Ah hell. This kid here. I see her lookin and her eyes land on me?! The hell she doin that for?!

"Come on now my precious key." she says chargin at me.

"Julian!" I yell and he knows what to do. He puts up a protection spell around himself. I toss him over to Angel who catches him quickly but hands him over to Wesley. There was a reason I threw him to Angel ya know. I lung at her but she swats me down so she can handle everyone else in the room. I'm trying to get to her but I can. She's kickin and punchin and we're getting the shit beat outta us. She finally sets her eyes on me. She charges at me quickly and I don't even have enough time to dodge her hit. I'm dazed as fuck and she uses that as an opportunity. She flings me over her shoulder and on her way out the door she hits my head on the beam.

"Did that hurt?" she asks. I groan. "Good." she says and I lose consciousness.

I know this chapter probably makes no sense. I have no idea what's goin on in my brain right now but lemme know what ya think bout it??