I lied, right to his face.
How could I do that to him? After everything he's done for me?
Dean's back and I'm glad – of course I am.
But somehow everything is different.
So badly messed up.
Ruby. How am I supposed to explain what I'm doing with her - to someone who's been to hell and back? To someone with angels – with God - on his side?
But I need someone on my side.
And nobody but Ruby seems to understand.
If I tell Dean the truth, he'll give up on me too.
And I just can't face that.