Chapter 4
He was going higher than I intended for him to go. I then panicked and he hit the trees I looked to Jasper and he calmed me. Jake hit the floor and I ran to him. "Jake are you okay? I'm sorry?" All of a sudden my throat began to burn I looked down and he was bleeding I became angry at myself. But again I was calmed. I placed the shield on my hand and tapped all of the wounds and they healed. Again Jake and I were enclosed in a bubble. I had to focus a little longer this time because there was open blood. After a couple minutes there was only a couple of scarlet red scars left.
I calmed down and the bubble faded as soon as my feet made contact with the floor I ran as hard as I could into the woods and stopped right before the opening. I sat there hugging my knees I'm so stupid. I kept thinking to myself. Carlisle warned me about my reactions. I heard someone's footsteps and I stood up and got defensive. "Lex calm down," a familiar husky voice said. "Jacob I'm so very sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I got cocky and then scared and I'm just stupid." I said between dry sobs. "It's okay you sho…" I cut him off. "I shouldn't beat myself up? Yes I should I could have killed you. I couldn't live myself if I killed any human but if it was you.."
He cut me off this time. "I'm not all human," he said while holding me in a tight hug. "But I could," he just squeezed me tighter and looked me in the eyes and said "You. Are. Forgiven." He kissed my forehead. "Now let's get you home. Everyone is worried sick." He said as he took my hand. How could they be worried? I have only been a part of the family for barely a day. Maybe this is a good thing. I mean no one was ever worried for me. Well with my abusive father and my mother that was never home there was never anyone there to care.
~~~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~
7 years ago
"Lex!! Get your worthless self down here!" I heard my dad yell. I looked at my clock and it read 6:00. "Yes dad." "Um what are you doing asleep still? And did you forget about breakfast?"
He threw his hand back and let it go forward making contact with my right cheek.
I rubbed my cheek and started to cook. "I'm on it dad." I said fighting tears.
I made him eggs and fries. I took the knife and pressed it against my arm until it started to bleed and I let it drip over his food.
I handed him his food and he began to eat it. He spit it in my face and threw plate at my head. "Don't you know how to cook!" He yelled as I was trying to get off the floor. He kicked me and I fell down again.
~~~~~~~~~~~end of flashback~~~~~~~~
When my memory was over we were in front of the house and Alice looked as if she had just seen a ghost. As soon as I came into view she came running towards me and practically tackled me. For a small girl boy can she knock somebody down. "Don't you ever do that again. And I'm so sorry about your dad." She whispered that last part in my ear. I wanted to know how she knew but looked up and saw Edward and all my questions were answered.
He walked up to me and hugged me as if I was his long lost sister that had just come home. "I didn't mean to make you guys anxious. I just needed to get away." "It is okay sweetie we know but we thought that you might not come back." Esme said as she came and hugged me too. "If it's okay now I'm going to go up to my room." I said as I started to head up stairs.
"Am I allowed to be with you or do you still want your space?" Jacob asked "You can come up." I said smiling. "So?" Jacob said trying to start a conversation. "Why do you find it hard for people to care for you?" "How do you know I feel that way?" "The way you acted when I told you they were worried. Your body tensed and Jasper kinda told me" I sat in silence. "Well?" I took a deep breath and closed my eyes "When I was human no one ever cared for me. I was always on my own. I made my own money so I could eat. And my dad was abusive." "Oh, if you want we can change the topic." "It's okay this is my family now. And I trust you." I opened my eyes to look at him but I couldn't find him.
"Jake?" I turned into his chest. To my surprise he didn't run into anything. "Hey I didn't go flying 20 feet this time. What did you do?" he said shocked. "I guess I don't want to hurt you." I said smiling. He hugged me and looked me in the eyes and said "I wouldn't want to hurt you either." We stared at each other for awhile and his eyes drifted from my eyes to my lips and back. I leaned forward and I whispered "Just kiss me already" I leaned back to see his face. He looked like he was considering it. He started to lean forward and then there was a knock on the door. I pushed him on the couch. "Come in." I said. It was Rosalie. I wondered what she needed. She normally didn't even waste her time to look at me.