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-FLASHBACK-

JOHNNY POV

I was inside of Jake's, sitting at one of the stools, choking down shots upon shots of whisky. Honestly, I haven't gotten drunk in a while, so I figured I was due for a good time. I didn't care about anyone else. I just cared about getting wasted, and finally just get a little rush.

"Aye, Coleman" I pointed to my glass. It was empty.

I didn't regret the last 9 shots I drank, nor would I start caring now. I didn't have anything to care about. Wow, what a lie that was. Just how wasted am I?

"Aha John Zacharra is gettin on his high...yea man!" He rose his hand, and I fumbled to hit it. I was so past gone. But then again, so was everyone else in this dump.

"Hey, Coleman, you think its wrong to show up at your girl's place...uhm....st-stoned?" I stuttered.

"Naw man, it happens. Lulu? If I know her at all, she'll take advantage of you. Ha"

I was actually kind of pissed off that he was accusing Lulu of being a whore. She was everything but, and if he knew her at all, he would know that.

"Well, for one thing, Lulu doesn't give in that easily, let alone seduce me while I'm drunk. She'll probably just hand me 4 aspirins, and go right back to what she was doing before. "

He laughed and tended to the guy next to me. I got up, and placed a 10 on the counter. That's all I had.

I finally pulled up into the apartment lot, and walked for the elevator. Once it hit the tenth floor, I got out, and walked to 915. Our apartment. I fumbled around for the key, and got the lock unlocked like 5 minutes later. I walked in stumbling. No one was around. I heard laughing, and crunching of bags. I walked for the bedroom.

I opened the door and saw Lulu, Maxie, and Spinelli on our bed. There was candy, beer, and soda everywhere. Lulu got up, and came over and kissed me. I grabbed her fiercely, and shoved her up against the wall. She moaned in surprise.

She pulled away. "Have you been drinking Johnny?".

"U-u-uh j-just a f-f-few."

She laughed, and Maxie and Spinelli walked out, taking candy soda, and beer with them. Once they were out, I shut the door violently, and pushed Lulu harshly down on the bed. I groaned and tore at her clothes. She moaned my name.

"Mmm Johnny. Get inside me. Now!!"

I grunted, and ripped off the remaining barriers of cloth. She did the same. I reached into my dresser, and pulled out a condom and slid it up my shaft. I positioned at her, and she bucked her hips up, and I thrusted, hard into her hot, wet pussy. "Ahh Johnny harder. Go!"

I did as she asked, and started pumping repeatedly in, and out of her. She was hot, wet, and wide for me.

The last thing I could remember was sitting at Jake's, talking to Coleman. He has got to find a woman.

I groaned and got up, and heard a whimper. I turned around, and Lulu was laying there. I looked down at myself. I was completely naked. I climbed back into bed, and snaked my hand under the covers, running my hands up and down her bare thighs. She opened them wider, pleading for friction.

-END OF FLASHBACK-

JOHNNY POV

"Uhh…Lulu…you okay?"

"Yea Johnny. Are you?"

"A little hung-over, but yea. I'm fine. Any plans for today?"

"Ugh…Not really. I was thinking maybe we'd just stay in and order take out tonight."

"Anything."

I kissed her forehead, and got out of the bed, and walked over to her side.

She pulled the covers up to her face, and I laughed, and began to tickle her.

"Ahh! Johnny! STOP! AHH!"

I laughed, and pulled her up out of bed, and she didn't look so good. She had had way to much to drink last night. I knew she wasn't used to it. In the 3 years I've known her, last night was about the only time I had ever seen her drunk.

"Uhh…I think I need the bathroom."

I nodded, and followed her, and held her hair behind her as she got sick.

She stood up, and started laughing.

"Lulu?"

"Aha Johnny. I love you so much. You know?"

"Yea lulu…I know. And I love you too."

I exited the bathroom, and headed down the hall to the kitchen.

I opened the cabinet, and took out the coffee, and put up the water.

I looked up to see Lulu. She had faint makeup on, and a pair of black and pink lace panties, and a pale pink lace bra on with her hair faintly wet. She looked gorgeous.(PIC ON PRO)

"Hey, feeling better?"

She nodded, and sat down at the table, and brought her knees up to her chin.

"Johnny…what are we doing?"

"What do you mean? We're together. That's what matters."

I walked over to her, and took her hand in mine.

"Lu, I love you, okay? Nothing is ever going to change that. Not anyone, anything, nothing."

She looked up at me, clearly upset. I sat down next to her.

"Lulu…tell me, what's wrong."

She inhaled a big breath, and exhaled shakily.

"Johnny…do you remember when I told you about me and Dillon?"

Oh No.

"Yea Lulu…I remember."

"I've been thinking about it a lot."

"Lulu…I don't follow."

"Johnny…I want to make a life with you. But, I am never going to be able to live with what I did. I killed my innocent, helpless child. I can't have kids with you Johnny."

"Lulu…Don't even think about that right now. You're only 22 years old, a whole life ahead of you. Lu, people make mistakes, Don't blame yourself. You did what you thought was best."

"Johnny…I was 5 months pregnant when I had the abortion. I was in my second trimester. She was developed enough. We-we had a funeral. I haven't visited her. Ever. Johnny…I need you to take me there. Today. Now. I need to talk to her."

"Lulu…she's dead baby. What good is this going to do for you?"

"I NEED TO TALK TO HER DAMN IT JOHNNY!"

I threw my hands up.

"Okay, okay. Get dressed."

After we left, she handed me a paper with an address.

She looked over to me in the car, and took my hand.

I smiled at her, and stroked her knuckles over with my thumb.

Once we pulled into the cemetery, she told me which row, and I finally found it.

I parked the car, and looked to her. She was starring out the window, down the row.

I got out of the car, and opened her door. "You ready?"

She looked up at me, and took my hand, and rose out of the car.

We walked into the baby section, and stopped at a plaque that read:

Alaina Juliana Spencer

2006

You weren't ever a mistake

"Her name's Alaina."

She knelt down to the metal, and ran her fingers over the embossed letters.

LULU POV

"Hi."

I ran my hand along the plaque, and sat on my butt, getting more comfortable.

A thousand thoughts ran through my head. I killed my baby. A poor innocent life, taken away by my mistake. I would have had a 3 year old daughter. But then again, I wouldn't have Johnny. In some ways, I regretted miserably aborting her. I wanted her right now.

"I'm sorry. I never thought about you."

"You know, sometimes, I think my life would be whole lot better with you here. But I'm being selfish when I think of that. I was selfish to take you away. You Don't deserve this. To be down there, alone, cold, scared, lonely. I…am so…sorry." I had to choke back tears.

"I wish I could take it back sweetie. I really do. I was young, stupid, selfish, and scared. Even if I knew I couldn't keep you, I thought if I couldn't have you, nobody else could."

"So honey, I gave you to the one person I trusted at that time. I gave you to god sweetie. I think how you would have been as a baby. How I would have been able to look at you, and see your dad. He wanted you you know? Yea. He did. But I wouldn't have it. He tried to convince me I could do it, but honey, you have to understand, I just, I couldn't. I would give anything in the world to trade for you. I made such a horrible mistake. I ripped you from what you depended on. I forced you away. I killed you."

I shot up from the ground, and grabbed both sides of my head.

"I killed her. I killed her. I killed her. I killed her. I killed her. I kill--"

Johnny pulled me into him, and I just let myself go. I cried profusely, and started hyperventilating.

I wanted my baby.

BACK AT THE APARTMENT

"Lulu, you have to eat. Please."

"I'm not hungry." I lied. I was starving.

He huffed, and picked me up, bridal style, and carried me to the bedroom. He laid me on the bed, and tucked me under the covers.

I cried into them, leaving them wet with my tears.

I felt the bed shift as he got in.

I turned around to face him, and he wrapped his arms around me.

"It'll be okay Lu. I promise."

"I love you Johnny."

"I love you too Lulu."

And so I fell asleep at 2 in the afternoon.

MORNING

The last thing I remembered, I was laying in Johnny's arms, facing him.

Now, I was facing the opposite way, my arms hanging off the bed.

I groaned, and got up.

"Johnny?"

"I'm in here hun."

I walked into the living room, and found him sitting on the couch, reading the newspaper I nothing but flannel pants. God he was so sexy.

"Hey."

"You sleep well?"

"mm…not really. You?"

"Not at all. I want you to understand something Lulu. What you did, was the right thing for you. Even If you regret it now, It was right then."

I nodded, and sat down next to him, and snuggled into his chest, inhaling the scent of axe.

I clutched his shoulders, and kissed him, hard and full.

"Uhh Johnny. I love you so much."

"I know Lulu. I love you too."

"I need you Johnny."

"Then have me."

He pushed me down onto the couch, underneath him, and attacked my neck with his mouth, and unhooked my bra. He threw it on the floor, and traced his lips down my collarbone, to the heaps in my breasts. I moaned into the air as he gently took my right nipple into his hot mouth, and sucked gently, and slowly. I wound my fingers in his hair as he drew his other hand to my other breast, giving it just as much attention.

I pushed him up, and rolled over, on top of him. I ripped his shirt off, and trailed light kisses down his abs. He smelled of axe, spring water, summer air, and a smell that was just…Johnny.

JOHNNY POV

I trailed my hands down her stomach, to her pants, and unbuttoned the button, and zipper, gently rolling them off her legs. I flipped her back over, and kissed her frantically. Her breath tasted of salt, sugar, and a taste that was sort of in between toothpaste, and fresh papaya.

She quickly, took my pants off, and suddenly, there was a sharp knock at the door.

"Aw fuck." I whispered. "Stay here."

I pulled my pants up, and threw her the burgundy throw.

I went to the door, and opened it.

"Where the hell have you been John?! Did it ever occur to you that now that your head of the mob that you have resp---"

She stopped her sentence when she spotted Lulu on the couch.

Lulu looked confused.

"Your head of the mob Johnny? I thought you left your family…I thought…"

"He came back after you left him you little tramp. What the hell was he supposed to do? You dumped him like trash. Why the hell are you here anyways?"

She looked pissed, and Lulu just looked surprised.

"Claudia. You need to leave. I'll call you later. Now isn't a good time."

She huffed, and walked thru the door. I shut it behind her.

"Your head."

I sighed. "Yea."

"Why didn't you tell me? You kept more things from me Johnny?"

"Lulu…what was I supposed to do? You just kicked me out, and I just moved back into the mansion. I didn't know what to do? I didn't own the apartment. I had to. My father, he bought me a house out of here, we moved there, and he died a few months later. I inherited everything."

"I cant even believe you Johnny. Why didn't you tell me? This ruins everything. We can never be happy Johnny."

"Look Lulu…I didn't have a choice. I had no where else to go. It was the only option. I didn't know what else to do."

"Fine. Then let's run away. Out of the country. I'll get Nickolas to help us."

"Lulu…really? People are going to be suspicious if we just disappear."

She had a look of evil in her eyes. Like she had a deceiving plan.

"We'll fake our deaths. We'll make people believe we're dead."

"Lulu…it's impossible."

"No Johnny…It isn't. If we just fake a car accident. They can say that our bodies were too badly injured for open caskets."

"Yea, and what about the "other people" involved?"

"They'll die too."

I snorted. "No."

"Come on Johnny! We can finally be happy. Away from everything. We don't ever have to look back. Please…do this for me, for us. Think about all those times with Maxie. With the clubs, and the parties before the crisis. Come on Johnny. Think about it…this could work. Please."

I sighed, and ran it thru my head. I contemplated that her plan actually could work. That we could be happy.

"Call Nickolas."

She smiled brightly, and got up, covering herself with the throw.

LULU POV

I picked up the phone, and dialed Windermere's number.

"Yelloww?"

"Nickolas, It's Lulu. Can you come to Johnny's place? It's urgent."

2 HOURS LATER

"Nickolas, please. Johnny and I just want to be happy. Please Nickolas, do this for me. No one has to know."

"Fine."

We planned it all out, and as soon as Nickolas left, we put the plan into motion. We packed our bags, and headed for the airport.

NICKOLAS POV

I stopped at the hospital desk, and Asked Emily(A/N: SHE'S ALIVE IN THIS STORY) for her help.

4 hours later, our plan was complete.

JOHNNY POV

"Lulu…time to wake up, we're landing sweet heart."

She groaned, and opened her eyes, cautiously.

We boarded off the plane, and headed for the baggage claim in the airport. We didn't worry about disguises, In Milan, no one knew us.

We got our baggage, and drove to the hotel.

I handed the woman my credit card, and walked up to the room with Lulu.

When we got in, she sat down on the bed, and looked up at me.

"Lulu…you okay? I thought this was what you wanted…"

"No, no, YES! It is, of course, I'm just scared."

I pulled her into me. "It's okay. We'll be okay."

She nodded, and fell into me.

"I love you."

I sighed. "I love you too."

Today was definitely not the best day for her. First, she had a terrible hangover this morning, then went and mourned her dead baby, and now, was rushed away from all of the people she loved.

"Lulu…I need to ask you something."

Take time to realize,That your warmth is. Crashing down on time to realize,That I am on your sideDidn't I, Didn't I tell I can't spell it out for you,No it's never gonna be that simpleNo I cant spell it out for youIf you just realize what I just realized,Then we'd be perfect for each otherAnd will never find anotherJust realized what I just realizedWe'd never have to wonder ifWe missed out on each other time to realizeOh-oh I'm on your sideDidn't I, didn't I tell time to realizeThis all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell youBut I can't spell it out for you,No its never gonna be that simpleNo I can't spell it out for you just realized what I just realizedThen we'd be perfect for each otherThen we'd never find anotherJust realized what I just realizedWe'd never have to wonder ifWe missed out on each other 's not always the sameNo it's never the sameIf you don't feel it you meet me half wayIf you would meet me half could be the same for you just realized what I just realizedThen we'd be perfect for each otherThen we'd never find anotherJust realized what I just realizedWe'd never have to wonderJust realized what I just realizedMissed out on each other nowMissed out on each other now

She looked at me confused.

"Lulu…now that we are trying to start a new life…I was thinking,"

"Oh my god Johnny." She whispered. I smiled back at her.

I took her hands in mine, and bent down at her level.

"Lulu…you mean absolutely EVERYTHING to me. I can't ever loose you. I would go completely insane. I want to be with you forever. I want to be living in my dreams. So I'm going to ask you this." I reached into my pocket, and pulled out the ring. The square ring with the two round stones, and baguettes.

"Marry me."

She gasped, and quickly nodded her head frantically. She wisped out; "Y-yes! I'll marry you Johnny."

I smiled, and hung my head in such relief. I was so nervous she would reject me after what I had done to her, after she found out about what happened.

"Johnny?"

I snapped my head back to her.

"Yea Lu?"

"I-I don't--I don't feel good."

That was the last thing she said to me before she fell into my arms. Limp.

"Lulu!?!!"

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