CHAPTER 6;

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FLASHBACK:

"Yes, or No. Are you breaking up with me to be with Maxie?"

"It's not about Maxie, its about me."

"Oh, god, don't even start with that, I am so SICK of you being tortured, im so SICK of you being angry all the time and making it my fault."

"IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT! IT'S MINE, IT HAS BEEN FROM THE START!"

"DON'T TELL ME YOU NEVER MEANT TO HURT ME, BECAUSE YOU ARE HURTING ME NOW!"

Maxie walks in

"Oh no, more drama?"

"Shut up Maxie. This has nothing to do with you."

"Yes. It does."

"WHAT!?""Maxie and I almost slept together the night of the blizzard."

"Excuse me?""Lulu-- I'm sorry--"

"MAXIE SHUT THE HELL UP! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!"

"NO, IT ISNT LULU!"

"oh! NOW YOUR PROTECTING HER? YOU WANNA BE WITH HER?""Lulu…I've got nothing to loose so I'm not gonna lie."

"Nothing to loose? What about me, hu? Did you ever think about me? HU? ONCE!? While I was sitting alone crying and sick thinking of you, you were kissing this slut, not even thinking twice about it? YOU BASTARD!"

"Yes, Lulu. I am a bastard. And a coward. But I meant what I told you every single, minute I spent with you. I love you."

"OH! DON'T EVEN. SCREW THAT. SCREW YOU!"

"YOU KNOW WHAT LULU?! I HAVE TRIED TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. BUT EVERYTIME SOMETHIN'S RIGHT, IT'S WRONG."

"NO! IT COULD HAVE BEEN RIGHT. YOU MADE IT WRONG."

"I GEUSS I DID."

"YES, YOU DID. SO IS EVERYTHING A LIE? DID YOU REALLY WANT OUT OF THE MOB, OR WAS THAT A LIE TOO?"

"YEA, IT WAS A LIE!""OH, GO TO HELL JOHNNY! AHUGHH!"

Johnny goes for the door

"You know I really wish you'd have figured this all out before you told me you loved me!!"

"ME TOO!""AUHHHHA!"

I found God On the corner of First and Amistad Where the west Was all but won All alone Smoking his last cigarette I said, Where you been? He said, Ask were you When everything was falling apart?

All my days Were spent by the telephone That never rang And all I needed was a call It never came To the corner of First and Amistad Lost and insecure you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, You found me In the end Everyone ends up alone Losing her The only one who's ever known Who I amWho I'm not, and who I want to be No way to know How long she will be next to me Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you?

Just a little late You found me, You found me Early morning The city breaks I've been calling For years and years and years and years And you never left me no messages You never sent me no letters You got some kind of nerve Taking all I want Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Where were you, where were you? Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, You found me Why'd you have to wait To find me, to find me?

END OF FLASHBACK.

LULU POV

For the first time in months, I thought about that night. So now here I am, in the hospital, alone, crying my eyes out thinking about something that should seem so small by now. I have a beautiful little baby boy, the man I have always loved back where he always needed to be; with me, and yet, I still managed to upset myself beyond belief.

"Lulu?"

I looked over to the door, and looked into his eyes.

"Hey."

"You okay?"

He walked over next to me, and sat next to me on the bed.

"Lulu? You alright?" He asked as he wiped a tear from my eye.

"Tell me you love me.""Lulu. I love you. I always have, always will. I swear."

"Thank you."

"Baby, tell me what's wrong.""That night. April ninth, two thousand nine. Four o nine PM."

He took my face in his hand, and stroked my cheek. He leaned down, and took my top lip between his, and sucked lightly. I wrapped my hands around his forearms. He knew exactly what day I was talking about.

"Lulu, don't think about that night. Just focus on the little boy that we have now. He needs his mommy. And his daddy." He cocked his head to one side.

I took a deep breath, preparing myself for what I was about to do.

"Johnny, I can't do this. You have to take him. Please."

Johnny looked at me, looking pale as a ghost. "W-what?""Johnny, you have to take Lucas. Be his dad. But Johnny, I can't be his mom. Please, just…just go." I handed him Lucas, and watched as he slowly got up.

"Lulu…"

"Johnny. JUST GO!" I yelled. He backed up, and finally turned around, and left.

A YEAR AND EIGHT MONTHS LATER

I walked onto the property of Kelly's diner, and walked toward the doors. I heard a shriek come from behind me, so I turned around.

There she sat. At one of the outdoor tables, with Lucas in her lap, bouncing him up and down. I turned back around, ready to leave, when she called out my name.

"Lulu!" I turned around to her. "What?""Ugh, you know, he's getting so big. I just can't believe he's already twenty months old. You want to hold him?"

"You bitch." She was flaunting my own baby in front of my face.

"W-what did I say wrong, Lulu?"

"Johnny may be with you, but mark my words, he does NOT love you." I looked at Lucas, and he smiled at me, with that big baby smile.

I could feel the tears building, so I just left.

Once I got back to the apartment, I sat down on the couch, and started crying uncontrollably. I knew I should never have left Lucas, or Johnny. I felt guilty, and I wanted them both more than I wanted life.

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