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Chapter 5 - Funeral

The Cullen's backyard was transformed into a formal back-drop. A small white casket lined with baby pink satin was in the center of the yard. The stands that held the box were covered with beautiful rose's, lilies and gardenia's. I walked back into the house as Jasper and Emmett lined two rows of chairs, five in each row. I couldn't help but wonder who would occupy the last two open seats.

I walked into the house wearing a black dress and a hat with a veil that covered the top portion of my face. Rose was sitting on the couch with Alice looking out the window. I slid through the back and saw where her little body lay surrounded by a warm blanket. Alice came up behind me and handed me a beautiful white silk dress, with the perfect amount of frills and beading. A dry sob burst through my lips and Alice patted my back lightly.

I had her dressed perfectly and finally placed a beautiful bow around her head. She looked absolutely breathtaking. I held her close and rocked back and forth before I felt the presence of Edward behind me. He put out his hands and I gave up my hold and let him mourn our child. We stood quietly looking down at our baby girl.

"It's time to put her in the box," Carlisle said solemnly as he stood near the doorway. I looked up and made no attempts to move. Edward straightened up and handed me my baby for the last time before he would place her in the box. I hugged her tightly and gave her as many kisses as I possibly could.

The ceremony was quiet we all sat under the shade of the trees as Rose played the harp beautifully. I looked down at my knees trying not to absorb the atmosphere. Edward's arm lingered around my shoulder in the attempts to hold me up.

"I'm so sorry for your loss Bells," a husky voice behind me spoke. I looked back and it was my best friend, it was my Jacob. He stood tall wearing a tight black suit. I stood up quickly and wrapped my arms around his waist. At that moment it didn't matter that he smelt like a wet dog or that I was a vampire and now his natural born enemy. The burning sensation in my throat was nothing compared to the nothingness that I had felt after losing her. It was just my Jacob. "Bells can't breathe, and I think you've broken a rib" he chuckled softly.

"I'm sorry, I'm just so glad you came. I needed you so badly." I sat back down holding Jacob's hot hand in my cold one. We both starred forward as Edward got up and walked towards the small white box. "This is for you my angel, you will never be forgotten." And with that he sat down on the piano and began playing my lullaby. After a few hours, Carlisle stood and told us all to take a moment and say our final good-byes before they would go and bury her in the meadow.

Alice was first she stood in front of the box for second and kissed her forehead softly before chirping in her ear. Next was Jasper who just placed his cold hand on her cheek and blew a kiss. Then it was Emmett and Rose who both kissed her cheeks. Rose was completely shattered as she walked passed me trying not to meet my gaze.

Carlisle, Esme and Jacob did the same. Edward was behind Jacob, he stood in front of the box while his body covered the casket. Sobs of anger and frustration were all I could hear he then kissed our child and came towards me so I could be next.

I was the last to say my goodbye, I leaned in and kissed her forehead lightly and whispered, "you'll always be apart of me. I love you and I will see you on the other side," into her little ear. I stood still as Carlisle shut the box. The next hour went by quickly we made our way to the meadow where Edward and I had first fallen in love. We buried her in a bed of flowers.

She was gone and soon so would I. I walked gravely back to the Cullen house and remembered the first time I felt the nudge that was her. A flood of emotions overtook my body and I was laying on the floor of the glass house trying to hold myself together. It felt a million times worse then when Edward had left me; maybe because I knew there was no way that she would be coming back. I felt Edward`s cold hands on my back I flinched away and stood up and walked out the front doors. He didn`t follow and I was glad. I walked up to the Quileute border and sat on the very same rock as before. I sat frozen thinking what I would do next. For the first time in my life I had no idea what I really wanted.

Edward's P.O.V

I couldn't console her she had left again. I didn't move this time I knew it was the hardest thing that she would ever have to do and I knew that time with herself would help her.

I sat on the floor and re-thought every second before Bella and I had lost our baby. Maybe I hadn't done everything in my power to save her. No I did, I know I did. I could hear my families thoughts of 'I hope they can overcome this together' and 'wow this must be so hard for him'.

Even though, I was grateful that Bella had Jacob her best friend to lean on a part of me felt an overwhelming amount of guilt and jealously towards him. My wife clung to him like he was her savoir and I was merely nothing. Instead of grieving with me she was holding on to Jacob. Maybe she wasn't hanging on to Jacob as much as she was trying to hold on to her human self. I had made a huge mistake and I knew that my presence in her life was the worst thing possible.

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