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Chapter 6 - Jacob

I sat there for a while looking at the horizon. Bella you need to go back, Edward needs you my mind kept telling me. But for some reason my feet were planted to the ground and my body did not want to go back to the house that brought back such painful memories.

"Bells," Jacob's voice rang through the forest. I looked up and saw Jacob hovering over me. "You aren't going to try to jump off a cliff again," he said mockingly.

"No, Jake I'm not. I'm just thinking."

"Oh, you need company?" He asked with curious eyes. I nodded and he sat down trying to wedge himself onto the small rock. I rested my head on his hot shoulder and let myself sink into Jacob black once again.

"What are you thinking bells?"

"Nothing i'm actually blank i can't even think"

"You really wanted a baby didn't you"

"Yeah I guess I did. When she was inside of me I was scared to death that I would die but I would have never imagined that I would have survived and my baby wouldn't even get to live a day. I don't think I have ever loved something so much. When I first laid my eyes on her I knew my life was no longer important compared to hers, that she was my everything and I would be willing to give up anything or anyone for her," a wave of emotions shattered through my aching body.

"Wow Bells that was deep. If only you had stayed with me we would of had some hot little babies" he laughed thinking his joke was hilarious.

Even though Jacob acted like a big jerk i still loved him. "She was beautiful wasn't she Jake," I asked confident that he couldn't say one bad thing about her.

"Yeah she was bells. She looked exactly like her mother."

For some reason Jake could never say anything wrong. Even in the worst moments in my life Jake was always there smiling and trying to make me happy. I could honestly picture a life with him. A life where we would have two kids that would look both like me and him and we would have Billy and Charlie hovering over them like crazy grandfathers. But I was married and a vampire now; I was happy for the most part until today.

I could always rely on Jacob but I was married and I was with Edward the love of my life or at least I thought. I didn't understand why I felt so distant from him at this moment. He was my everything but after coming back from our honeymoon my feelings towards Edward had changed. His reaction to our little nudger had left a sour taste in my mouth.

Did Edward honestly love both me and my nudger. Or was it too much for him to have to share me with someone else. No Bella, Edward loves you, and he shared you with Jacob and never once complained even though his pain was clearly written all over his face. I knew Edward would do anything for me to keep me happy. Edward was an amazing husband but was he an amazing father?

I stood up and walked around the forest never thinking of asking Jacob to follow I automatically assumed he would follow. "Jake you must really hate me," I asked. I knew the answer Jacob would give would be a joke but I still wanted to hear what he thought about my transformation.

"Honestly Bella, I thought I would hate you for what you have become. But when Edward had called me with the news I knew I couldn't be away from you. My heart felt like it had ripped when I knew you had lost your baby. It was an odd feeling because I was relieved that you were still alive but sad because I knew you would be hurting. Even though you smell and you broke my heart, multiple times," he laughed, "I could never stop loving you. Because under all that rock you'll always be my Bella."

"Thanks Jake you don't understand how much you mean to me." And with that I hugged Jacob around the waist like I use to. Without even thinking, it felt normal holding my werewolf best friend. I longed to be closer to Jacob at that very moment the burning sensation in my throat was nothing compared to the feelings I had for Jacob. But as I squeezed tighter around his waist I felt my wedding ring press against my finger.

Bella you're married. Bella your a vampire. Bella you can't do this to him again. I broke free of Jacob and began running towards the glass house. I knew if I stayed any longer I would hate myself more than I wanted to right now.

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