It's the night before my wedding; I'm surrounded by my work friends having a good time. I should be happy right. Instead of going out somewhere, we just stayed at the diner after we locked up and had a party here.
"Bella this is a party... For you. You should be having Fun right now." Jerry said.
"I am having fun." I said with a fake smile.
"How can you be having fun by yourself?" he asked.
"I'm just thinking." I said
"Well stop thinking and come dance with me." he said.
"I can't dance." I said.
"I don't care, come in." he said as he dragged me to the middle of the diner, were others were already dancing. I waved to the Cullen's as I past them and reluctantly went with Jerry. The song changed to Tim McGraw's, I like it, I love it. I was having fun with Jerry until he decided to spin me out only he forgot to hold onto my hand; so I spun into Edward.
"I'm sorry Edward." I said as he steadied me.
"Don't worry about it. Can I have this dance?" he asked.
"Sure." I said. Dancing with Edward was a lot different than dancing with Jerry. Edward's arms fit around me perfectly. Having him his close was making it hard to concentrate, but I loved every minute of it. I made the mistake of looking into his eyes, and got lost in them. I heard the song changing in the background. I felt myself lean in closer, his grip tightened on my waist. Our lips were about a centimeter apart. Our lips were about to touch when…
"BELLA." Jerry yelled. His voice seemed to break me out of my trance, and I jumped away from Edward. I looked around and saw that Jerry was messing with the coffee machine, and everyone else was in their own little world. So I don't think anyone noticed how close Edward and I were, well that's except for the Cullen's of course. They were watching us like we were a TV show. "How do you fix this thing?"
I ran towards the counter, not looking at Edward. I quickly showed Jerry how to fix it, then I snuck out to the back alley to catch my breathe. You almost kissed him My mind was screaming at me.
"Bella." Edward called my name. "We need to talk about this."
"There's nothing to talk about." I said.
"We both know there's something to talk about, so stop lying to yourself." he said with an annoyed tone.
"I'm not lying to myself. Look what happened in there was mistake." I said.
"A mistake, Bella I know you still have feelings for me. I just can't understand why you're fighting it so hard." he exclaimed.
"I'm engaged Edward. I'm getting married tomorrow." I said.
"To a guy you don't even love." he yelled.
"I'll love him eventually." I said.
"So you have to force yourself to love your fiancé, and you have to force yourself not to love me. Is that backwards to anyone else." he said.
"Edward we had our chance, it didn't work. Let it go, let me go." I yelled.
"I told you before I'm not giving up until the minute you say I do, but I can't watch you make this mistake." he said.
"What?" I asked.
"I'm not going to your wedding, if tonight you pick him." he said.
"Edward… I can't." I said.
"I see, well then I guess this is goodbye." he said as he moved to leave.
"What happened to us being friends?" I asked.
"We were never friends Bella, we were always in love with each other. You just won't admit it." he said. He walked back into the diner, and I slid to the floor not even bothering to keep my tears in. You're doing the right thing I repeated in my head over and over. I finally stopped trying to convince myself, and went home. I wasn't in the mood to go back to the party, all I wanted to do was go to sleep and that's what I did. I went home a crashed out.
I was awoken by my alarm clock. I got ready in a daze and before I knew it I was at the church in the back room, putting on my wedding dress. ( Picture on profile) Marissa was my maid of honor; well she was the only bridesmaid I had. Our wedding was going to be small. Just family and a couple of friends.
"Are you ok Bella?" Marissa asked.
"Ya, I'm fine." I said.
"No your not." she said "Are you sure this is what you want to do?"
"Ya, I'm sure, it's just nerves." I said.
"I don't think it is.' she muttered.
"What?" I asked.
"Bella, you don't love him, you love Edward." she said.
"No I don't. Edwards just a friend." I said.
"Who are you trying to convince you or me?" she asked. "I saw you two last night, you almost kissed him. Friends don't do that."
"Marissa drop it. Edward and I were good together in the past, but that was in the past. I'm different now." I said.
"I'll drop it, I'm just saying think this through. When you say I do, there's no more chances for you and Edward." she said.
"Were about to start." I said as I walked out to the front of the church and was met with Charlie.
"Bells, you look beautiful." he said as he gave me a kiss on the forehead. "You know you don't have to do this."
"What's with everyone trying to convince me out of this?" I asked.
"I just want to make sure that this is what you want to do." he said.
"I'm sure." I lied as I heard the music start.