Previously :"What's with everyone trying to convince me out of this?" I asked.

"I just want to make sure that this is what you want to do." he said.

"I'm sure." I lied as I heard the music start.

"Here we go." Charlie said.

"Dad." I whispered. "Don't let me fall."

"I got you Bells. I got you." he whispered as we started down the isle. The church was small, but it was still beautiful. Marissa looked amazing in her dress, and Owen looked handsome. I thought seeing him standing up there would make the nerves go away, but it didn't. Maybe this is a mistake I thought. No, no your making the right decision the argument in my head was driving me crazy. Too soon, Charlie and I were standing in front of Owen. Charlie gave my hand to Owen and we went to stand in front of the minister.

This is it. I'm getting married, I'm getting married to Owen. I tried to keep thoughts of Edward out of my head, but it was impossible not to think how much I really did love him. He would move on, he would find someone better and he would be happy. That's all I want is him to be happy. He was happy with you That's true he was happy before, but that was before. He couldn't possibly be happy with me anymore.

I looked into Owen's eyes trying to find comfort, but I think that just made it worse. I looked into his blue eyes, and I wanted nothing more than for them to be gold. I wanted to be part of the Cullen's family. But you don't belong with them My mind said. I didn't belong with them, but they seemed to want me with them. That has to mean something.

Could I do this Could I really marry someone that I didn't love. Could I really marry someone that wasn't Edward. It's true he hurt me, they all hurt me, but I still craved their company. I still wanted them to be in my life. If I got married today would they still be my friends. A part of me says that they will always be my friends, but another part of me is saying that this marriage is saying good-bye to them.

My marrying Owen isn't only hurting me, it's hurting everyone. It's hurting my friends, they just want see me happy and I think deep down they know this isn't going to make me happy. It's hurting my parents, Charlie hates Owen and Renee doesn't approve of my marrying anyone at this age but she really disapproves of Owen. Its hurting the Cullen's, they just want me to be in their family, in their lives and I'm denying them that by marrying him. Most of all it's hurting Edward. All he asked me for was to let him love me and for me to love him in return. I think that the part that's hurting him the most is that he knows I love him, and I'm choosing to ignore it.

"Bella." Owen whispered, breaking me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?" I said. "Oh sorry." I said when I realized I was supposed to repeat after the minister. I spent the whole ceremony thinking.

"Repeat after me." the minister, said. "I Isabella Sawn."

"I Isabella Swan." I said softly.

"Take you Owen Daniels, to be my lawful husband." the minister said.

"Take you… Owen Daniels," I said with a pause. It surprised me how I was so ready to say Edward Cullen. "to be my lawful husband." I said while I tried to keep the tears in.

"To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health, until death do us part." The minister said.

"To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health… until…." Come on Bella, just say it Everything I was giving up flashed before my eyes in that split second that I hesitated. "I'm sorry, I can't do this." I said as I handed the minister my flowers, and ran down the isle.

I ignored the calls from my family and friends, and I just ran. I had to get out of this church. I can't believe I almost went through with that I realized how stupid I was acting. I was going to marry someone I didn't love and probably end up even unhappier than I already was. I mean he was cheating on me, and I was still going to marry him. I should of listened to everyone telling me this was a mistake.

I knew where I wanted to go, but I had to figure out a way to get there. I ran out of the church and I let the cool breeze calm my, out of control thoughts. I took a deep breathe and looked around the parking lot. Only to find Alice sitting on the hood of a black Mercedes.

I ran to the car and hugged Alice. I felt like crying, that's how happy I was to see her.

"What are you doing here?" I asked once I released her.

"I had a feeling you might need a get away car." she said with a knowing smile. "Get in, unless you want to deal with the group of people that will be out here in 30 seconds."

"BELLA." Owen yelled as I closed the door.

"Dive Alice." I said and before I could catch my breathe we were speeding out of the church parking lot.