This took longer than expected but I got it up in the end. I'm actually very proud of it but stil criticism is good! It's from Addy's POV. Hope you enjoy! xx

Chapter 5:

In Hell With Mum

"Addy? Addy wake up babes, it's mum." I saw her. Bleach blonde hair sitting poker straight on her shoulders. I squeezed my eyes shut praying for her to go away. Hadn't she put me through enough already?

"I'm sorry baby, for leaving you, I shouldn't have done it. Now your stuck with your good for nothing father." My eyes snapped open, I could feel my cheeks burning with anger.

"Don't you say that about my dad! He's the best thing that ever happened to me! Him and his brother and sister! They're my family! Your dead, I don't need you anymore! I never needed you!" She grinned evilly the look that through my childhood so far I had learned to dread.

"Addy darling, I'm not the only one who's dead, your dead too." I screamed, for my dad, for Alex, Anna anybody. Was this hell? I screamed louder, I didn't want to be dead, I didn't want to be stuck with my mother for all eternity, it wasn't time for me to die - yet.

"Addy please don't be dead, I didn't mean for mummy to crash the car please forgive me!" I could here a familiar voice - Liam's voice. Thank God, that must make me alive. Everything around me blurred, my arm hurt like hell - what a bad comparison - and I could feel something warm and sticky oozing down my leg.

"Liam? Liam it's okay we're going to be okay." But nothing I said could calm him. He was sure he was going to prison because he was so sure it was his fault that the car had crashed - the car had crashed? Why didn't I remember? - and the police were going to take him to jail. I groaned - man that kid watched to many cop movies. Finally he broke, he started kicking the door beside him - well above him now the car was on its side. It gave in and swung open and he climbed out.

"Liam stop! No! Come back!" I glanced around me, everyone else - Anna, Aaron, Callum - was unconscious. I didn't have time to wait. Ignoring the agony that I felt when I put weight on my leg I got out and ran after Liam. I turned round only once and saw the car. It was a write off, dented and smashed, the other car - I don't know how it got there - it must have ploughed into ours, had no driver although the driver's door was wide open. I began running after Liam through the thick trees at the roadside. I could hear him sobbing a bit ahead. I could hear sirens too - I'd never been so glad to hear an ambulance they were normally a bad sign.

I ran on every step making the pain worse, in both my arm and leg. He finally stopped in a clearing not to far from the roadside. He was crumpled into a ball and he was sobbing harder than ever.

"S'ok Lee, everything's gonna be fine." I fell to the ground beside him.

"Addy! No don't! Wake up Addy don't leave me!" My energy was gone, my will power zapped from me. I let the darkness consume me but instantaneously regretted it.

"Welcome back princess, I thought you'd really gone back to the land of the living - shame, your dad is going to miss you when you die. I'm going to love watching him suffer. Maybe then he'll understand how much agony he put me through when he got me knocked up. Oh! And he'll find your crumpled body next to that brat Liam and he will hate himself for letting you get in that car." Mum had a smug grin on her face, the kind of grin I knew not to take seriously.

"I'm not dead - if I were dead then you wouldn't be here, your in hell. I f I was dead my Nan and Papa Trueman would be here, they were good people and good people like children who died before their time go to heaven - isn't that what my catholic upbringing taught me? Isn't that what you told me when you lost Mark's baby? That the baby would go to heaven with all the good people?" I saw the anger in her eyes- she never did like it when I answered back. I screamed this time in pain, I felt something pain in my leg and I was pulled back to the darkness - again.

"Dad?" His eyes met mine, he looked so worried,

"Addy, baby, it's okay everything's going to be alright," he brushed my hair back from my face with his hand, "Just stay still." He took his luminous jacket off and tied it around the top of my leg to stop the bleeding. He sat beside me and held my hand, he was shaking just as scared as I was, I wanted to make him stop worrying but I couldn't make myself speak, not with my throat killing me and the trees and bushes swirling around like I was on some demented tea cups ride at a theme park. I felt water on my skin, but it wasn't raining. Then I saw what it was - dad was crying. I heard footsteps and he quickly wiped away the tears on his cheeks - typical dad to pretend he wasn't really crying, just like me when my mum died. I would find myself crying just because I wouldn't see her again - even though I was half glad she wasn't there to shout and blame and slap me. I knew that I missed her in a way because she was my mum and for some strange reason I loved her despite what she had said about my family and how she treated me I loved her in some small way. The footsteps got closer and I began to hear voices, I knew I would be okay now so using all the strength I had left I spoke to him I spoke to my dad,

"I'm sorry dad, I should have stayed with Alex, I shouldn't't be here, I should have listened to you," my eyes slid shut again and even though I struggled desperately they wouldn't open. All I knew was that he was begging me to wake up.

"You did it again!" Shit! I was back in hell with mum. "You need to choose! Stop coming and going as you please. You are so selfish! When are you going to realise you cant have both worlds! You have to choose now! Me and death or Adam Trueman -your dad -and life. I felt tears stinging in my eyes.

"Why did you have to do it mum? Why did you have to die and leave me on my own all those months? Only telling me through a birthday card you left with Mark who my dad was and that you were sorry! Am I not good enough a daughter? Is that why you deliberately topped yourself? What did I do wrong?!" I met her gaze and saw her eyes soften, a lone tear began falling down her cheek. I realised I standing, leaning against a wall.

"Oh Addy, Addison Alexandra Trueman, you did nothing wrong, I wasn't a good mum and I should never have left you or kept who your dad was from you and you must understand I am truly sorry, forgive me, come with me to heaven and we can start all over." She was all out sobbing now but where had I seen this before? Oh yes the 'I'm so sorry' act. The one she performed every time she had to run from dealers she owed cash to or a psychotic druggie ex who wanted her dead. That's where I'd seen it before. What made this time any different? Maybe that I was in some sort of dream world where anything was possible? Because I was actually dead now? Should I believe her against my better judgement? Leave behind my dad, my aunt, uncle and cousins? I knew what I had to do, but not how to do it, I took a deep breath,

"I don't care how sorry you are, I'm not going to heaven, I'm going home to my dad where I belong. I love you mum I really do but not enough to give up my life after what you put me through. I love my dad more than I have or ever will love you. I trust him and I could never hurt him like that - like you hurt me." The anger was back she was back to Miss Bitch mode. Her face almost turned purple,

"Fine! Have it your way you spoilt brat! You rot on Earth with that Trueman arse, your no daughter of mine!" She vanished and the world around me to, I was finally going home for good.

The faint beeping of machines began to get louder and I slowly opened my eyes. There was loads of people in the room. A woman with a kind smile and a badge that read Tess called out.

"Mr Jordan she's awake." I heard shoes squeaking on a polished floor and suddenly there was a weird guy standing above me.

"Well miss Trueman you certainly have your dad worried! Although a broken arm, a cut leg and concussion is such an easy let off." He smiled at me. I decided I liked him. He wasn't at all like I expected my dad's boss to be my previous impression from my dad's accounts was that he was a total prat. My dad must piss him off. Or maybe a bit of both.

"Can I see my dad?" he smiled at me again and the nurse adjusted my bed so that I was sitting up. He called to an anxious looking woman at the door.

"Alice could you possibly find Dr Trueman?" she dashed from the room and came back moments later her face bright red my dad almost skipping behind her.

"Hey kiddo! Welcome back! I thought I'd lost you!" He wrapped his arms around me squeezing me tight but being careful of my arm. The resus began clearing.

"I'm glad to dad! I missed you. Is everyone else okay?" He nodded at me.

"Anna and the boys are fine, minor concussion but they are all going home in the morning, Liam is at home with his dad right now. I had to convince Alex that you were okay so he didn't come rushing in here he was really worried - we all were." I nodded at him to say I understood. I changed the subject,

"How's everyone in the ED today then? I am especially interested in a certain nurse called Jessica." He laughed at me but then suddenly went all serious on me. Oops, what had I done?

"Remember you met Jessica and you jumped to the conclusion that I loved her?" I nodded. "Well, you were right we had a fling behind her husbands back and well I kind of got her knocked up." My eyes could have popped out I was so happy.

"Does that mean that I'm going to have a little brother or sister?" I suddenly was very excited.

"He laughed at me, erm try a brother and a sister, then a baby." I was suddenly grinning like the Cheshire cat.

"Amelia and Lucas are coming to stay with us?! It's a good thing you got a bigger place since I arrived then!" He knew how excited I was but he had to ruin the moment.

"You need to rest, too much excitement and you could make yourself ill. Anyway, Jess is going to get Amelia and Lucas from her mum's so I have to give her the keys to the house. I'll be right back I promise."

He ran from resus and I sat back grinning - it may not have been my best day or dad's for that matter but in a way it had been very productive.

A brother, a sister, a step-mum and a new baby on the way! My life with my dad got better everyday!

R&R for next chapter please xxx