I am so sorry I haven't updated sooner. I just forgot all about it and then I had end of year exams so this took a while to write. I am not totally happy with it but you can decide that yourselves. So here it is.
I actually cannot wait for Casualty tonight! Thanks for all the comments x
Enjoy!
Adam's Secret
Different Types of Love
Pain was blazing through my body reaching every last inch of it. I twisted and writhed in pain but I knew that no one could see me, that if I called out no one would hear me. There was something blocking my throat and it wouldn't let me breath. I opened my mouth but whatever it was choked me and fought back against my useless attempts at calling out. One arm was secured to my side and when I tried to lift the other a burning pain seared through my side and I felt like I was finished. I tried and tried to get it out but I couldn't. The blackness was fast approaching again and just when I thought it was over someone was calling my name.
"Addison, Addison, stay with us. You're going to be fine." I wrenched my eyes open and saw a familiar face. Mr Jordan. But where the hell was I? This wasn't where I remembered being when I was talking to Kelsey and that other guy. Jay I think he was called. The thing in my throat was gone and breathing came easily. Mr Jordan smiled.
"Welcome back Miss Trueman." My eyes adjusted to the light and I tried tot locate the one person I really wanted to see.
"Where's my dad? I want my dad!"
"Jordan? What's going on?" His eyes swept the room finally fixing on the little girl in the bed. She was completely still and all heads in the room swivelled to look at him with sorrowful eyes. "What happened?"
"I'm sorry Dr Trueman, your daughter had a cracked rib that punctured her left lung. As it went undetected for so long we were not fast enough with the chest drain and Addison passed away a few seconds ago."
Adam woke up covered in a cold, sticky sweat. He shifted the covers off his soaked form and stood up. He was in his room, Jessica was lying on the other side of the bed and for a moment he forgot himself and smiled but that moment was short lived as he remembered the dream he had just woken from. He crept to the door and down the stairs to the landing and quietly so as not to wake Lucas and Amelia he edged a door open, cringing at the squeak, and entered a dark room.
He crept over to the window and opened the curtains and blinds he had closed earlier that night. A little of the sky's early morning glow lit the room. The pale blue walls were illuminated and objects in the room became more noticeable. The bed was unmade and a teddy bear lay lopsidedly against the pillow. He picked the teddy up and lay on the bed with the bear in his hands and his head on the pillow. He inhaled deeply and the smelt smell of a strawberries and cream shampoo. He closed his eyes and remembered.
"Dad? Can I have a hug?" Adam laughed.
"Sure kiddo, come here." He pulled the dark haired girl onto his lap and cuddled her close. He could smell the strawberry and cream shampoo on her damp hair and pulled her closer.
"I love you Addy." The girl lifted her head and smiled a familiar smile.
"I love you too dad."
A cold tear slid down his cheek and marked the pillow.
"I love you Addy, more than life itself." The phone at the side of the girl's bed rang once and Adam pounced on it determined not to make the other people in the house wake up.
"Hello?"
"Adam, it's Alex."
"Al? What's up?"
"I couldn't help myself, I went to the hospital an hour and a half ago."
"Alex you heard what they said. You were there.""I know but they were wrong."
"What do you mean they were wrong?"
"Adam, she's awake. She's been awake for two hours. Since half past four this morning in fact."
"I'm coming down there. Tell her I love her and I won't be too long." He paused and allowed relief to flood him. "Hey wait a minute. How did you get in at five o'clock in the morning?"
"I asked nicely and besides she was driving the nurses up the wall. All she wanted to do was to phone you. They didn't want to wake you so early. They were glad of a break."
"See you soon Al."
"Bye Adam."
Adam slammed the phone down and jumped off the bed. As quietly as he could he bounded up the stairs and burst into his room. He knelt beside Jessica and shook her lightly.
"Jess, Jess! Addy's awake!" Jessica's eyes flickered open.
"Really?" Adam smiled at her.
"Really." Jess sat up smiling. She threw her arms around Adam.
"That's great!" Adam pulled away and gently cupped her face with one hand and put another on her round tummy.
"She'll come home and then the baby will be born and we'll be a real family." Jessica smiled.
"I love you Adam."
"I love you too Jess, I've always loved you." Adam gave her a gentle kiss, tapped her nose gently with his finger and rushed off for a shower.
His hand curled around the door handle. His stomach churned he couldn't remember ever being this nervous. She was his daughter but it had been three days. Would she be any different from before the accident? Would she blame him for what happened? Would she be in any pain? He took a deep breath and pushed the door open.
"DAD!!!" Addy shouted. Alex swivelled around and saw his brother standing awkwardly near the door.
"Addy your dad's shy." Adam went bright red.
"I am not!" Addy giggled. The colour had returned to her cheeks and she was smiling cheekily. He thought back to yesterday when she was living off of a ventilator and a drip. What had happened to change all that so quickly. She leant her head to the side.
"What is with you? I thought you would have a least given me a hug by now!" Adam crossed the room and bent down to give her a gentle hug. Addy grabbed him and squeezed him tightly.
"I'm sorry dad. I didn't mean to scare you." Adam pulled away - with difficulty - and looked at his daughter. She had tears spilling down her cheeks.
"Hey, hey. No tears. The main thing is your alive and reasonably well all things considering. And you've something else other than worrying me half to death." Addy looked at him curiously.
"What? I thought I just lay there with my eyes shut while doctors prodded me." Adam smiled and looked at Alex who had remained silent.
"Alex hasn't been up this early since Christmas when he was eight and he wasn't even up till after six. He's made a new record." Alex looked outraged.
"I'll have you know I was up at half four the next Christmas but SOMEONE told me to go back to sleep because he was totally boring and pathetic!" Adam grabbed a pillow from the end of Addy's bed and smacked Alex in the face with it. Addy laughed as her dad and uncle play fought in front of her. She was laughing so hard she forgot about the stitches in her side - until her laughing brought her to earth with a bump.
"Ow," she said still giggling but holding her ribs just about where the drain had went in. "Laughing is painful." Adam stopped and frowned.
"No laughing then. I need you at home. You have to help Amelia and Lucas settle in." Addy's eyes lit up.
"I totally forgot they were moving in with us!" She turned to Adam confused. "What day is it? I forgot to ask." Adam smirked.
"Monday. You've bin out since Saturday around six-ish." Addy laughed.
"Ah well I had a nice sleep." Alex reached over and ruffled her messy waves of hair.
"Your dad almost had a heart attack when he went back to see you and you were in an operating theatre getting your lungs fixed." Adam's happy mood as deflated. He was flooded with guilt.
I was too busy with Jessica to be there when my own daughter needed me.
Addy recognized the look on his face.
"Don't worry about it dad, you couldn't have done anything anyway. Mr Jordan would have kicked you out." Alex laughed.
"That's why I like Nick. He's the only one able to boss my brother about." Adam threatened him with a pillow and he cowered in his wheelchair comically. He yawned.
"I'm gonna head back. I'm tired." Adam laughed.
"Told you Addy he's rubbish at getting up early." He held the door open for Alex.
"So would you be if you weren't a doctor! I'll be back to see you later Addy!" Adam waved at him and shut the door yawning himself.
"How did you manage to pick this time in the morning to wake up? It's not even eight yet!" Addy shrugged.
"I always was a morning child. I was born at half past three in the morning. Anyhow, are Amelia and Lucas settling in alright just now?" Adam rolled his eyes.
"You'll be the death of me. Anyway Lucas and Amelia are getting on okay at home but I suppose they still miss their dad. Jess is doing her best for them. Sean is having them stay with him at the weekend. I think they're coming here after school today." Adam paused to think. "You'll have to phone Anna and the boys. They're very worried about you. Anna had her husband Mark up here yesterday to see how you were. He was upset as well and he's never met you!" Addy chuckled.
"I'll call in another hour, let them wake up and start getting ready for school." Addy's eyes sparkled. "I don't have to go to school!" She smiled delightedly. "You'll have to phone and tell them though or they'll think I've bunked off or something." Adam sighed.
"You could be a bit more worried about missing school you know. When I was younger I loved school." Addy raised her eyebrows at him. She knew all to well he had just blatantly lied to her.
"You're lying and you look exhausted." Adam laughed and yawned again. "Go get a coffee or something to wake you up. I'm not going anywhere." Adam laughed.
"It can wait. Anyway you look beat yourself. You've had far to much excitement for one morning. Calm down." Adam nudged her further down into the pillows and helped her get comfortable. Addy looked up at him and smiled.
"Dad?" Adam turned around.
"Yes kiddo?" Addy put on a serious face.
"I love you." Adam laughed and ruffled her hair.
"I love you too squirt."
A nurse bustled in suddenly and Addy jumped slightly.
"Well Miss Trueman it looks like you've calmed down since I was last in." The nurse smiled kindly and looked closely the girl lying in the bed. Then she frowned.
"I must say though you look very worn out. No doubt it's the excitement that your dad and uncle brought with them. Although I must now insist that you rest and maybe try and get another sleep. I am sure there will be all day to catch up on what you've missed out on but right now isn't a great time." the nurse finished her lecture and proceeded to take her blood pressure and pulse and everything else that Addy couldn't care less about.
"Nurse? When can I go home?" The nurse frowned again.
"I just told you that you have to rest. Not for a few more days but you will have to ask the doctor when he comes to see you. He shouldn't be too long." The nurse bustled out again and Addy turned her head to resume conversation with her dad and started to laugh.
He was slumped in his chair, worn out, asleep. Addy smiled, sat up and being careful of her side she leaned over and kissed her dad's cheek.
"I love you dad." She smiled. "And you sorted out the Jessica situation yourself. I am very proud of you."
Elsewhere …..
"Lucas! Come on you need to get up!" Jessica opened the door of her son's new room and found him sitting on his bed fully dressed looking mournfully at his shoes.
"Lucas? What's wrong sweetheart?" Lucas looked up and a tear rolled down his cheek.
"Mummy, do you love us?" Jessica laughed slightly.
"Of course I do! Why wouldn't I?" Lucas tried a smile.
"Daddy told us that you loved Mr Adam more than us and that when you have Mr Adam's baby you'll love that baby more than us." Jessica frowned.
"Lucas Anderson, listen to me. I love you and your sister more than anything in the world. Yes, I love Adam too but that's a different kind of love and I will love your little brother or sister but not anymore or any less than how I love you. You're still my baby Lucas and no matter what happens between your dad and I we both love you." Jessica ruffled his hair. "Are we okay now?" Lucas nodded and gave her a hug.
"Love you mum." Jessica nodded and wiped a tear off of his cheek.
"Now, let's go and see Amelia."
Amelia was sitting at the breakfast bar eating her cereal. She looked up when her mum and brother came into the room. She stood up and threw her arms around her mum.
"Mummy I love you. Please don't hate me." Jessica looked at her daughter startled and Lucas sighed at his older sister.
"I already asked her Mills." Amelia stepped back and looked at them again. "You don't hate us then?"
"Of course not Amelia. I could never ever hate you or Lucas. I love you both very much." Jessica kissed both of her children. "Now come and finish breakfast. Lucas all you have to do is put milk in your cereal." Jessica hurried around the kitchen in concealed anger. How dare her? How could he do that to his own kids? I'm going to deal with this. Putting the kids empty bowls in the dishwasher she straightened up and smiled.
"Right then. Time for school." Lucas groaned.
"Mum, do we have to go to school?" Amelia nudged his shoulder.
"I like school." Lucas rolled his eyes.
"You would." Jessica pushed them towards the front door.
"Come on now, no arguing. Remember you'll be going to see Addison after school so try and be out quickly."
"Addy." Amelia and Lucas corrected her. Jessica smiled. Amelia pulled on her jacket and sighed.
"If there is one thing I hate about school it has to be this uniform." Jessica laughed.
"It's a nice uniform." Amelia looked at her, eyebrows raised.
"I'd rather wear a uniform like Addy's. Adam was washing her jumper last night and it doesn't have a daft badge on it. Only her blazer does and she wears a school tie." Jessica pushed her daughter out the door.
"Well when you see her later I am sure you can ask her what she thinks of her uniform. Now it really is time for school."
Please R&R when your done. I promise I will update sooner this time. I actually have the last chapter written. It was written before the first! This story has a while to go but do please R&R if I am to continue!