Emily's Letter

In Emily's Pov

It has been a couple of days, since Jacob has told us that Leah, my cousin, left La Push. I still couldn't believe she left, but I couldn't blame her. All I could do is blame myself, which I did. If it was for me, Sam and Leah would still be together and probably married by now, maybe even had their first child on the way. Thinking of children made me thought about the doctor's visit in Seattle.

While we were on our short honeymoon, I had got really sick, so Sam had to take me to the hospital. I was there for an afternoon and it was also that afternoon that I found out I couldn't have children. That had upset Sam very much, because I knew that Sam had want children.

The rest of the trip, Sam reassured me that children didn't mattered to him, but I know he was lying. I guess fate made a mistake pulling us together. When we returned home, we acted like nothing was wrong and then Jacob's visit.

Hearing that Leah had left without told us made me very sad and upset. I also realized that we would never be as close as we were before. When we were children, we used to tell each other anything. I remember the time when she called me to tell me about Sam. By the tone in her voice, she was very happy and then I came and took away that happiness.

I knew I was rubbing it in her face when I ask her to be my bridesmaid. That was also the day she phased and became like the boys. I was happy yet sad to learn that she was like Sam. I thought of this as a time to make up with her, but she only became bitterer to Sam and me. The pack hated her for making them feel like she did, even Sam began to hate her. During that time, I had wished more than ever that the girl before would come back.

When I learned that Jacob had split away from the pack along with Leah and Seth. I felt glad, because that meant Sam would be no longer in pain, but no, Leah's leaving his pack only cause him more pain. It was this time; I had also learned that he still cared for her. I felt jealous because she still had a claim on his heart, but I knew in my heart that Sam would never forget her or she him.

Then everything clamed down. There was no fighting, no nothing. I was glad because that meant me and Sam could have the wedding. We both want a summer wedding and we got it. Everything was prefect. I knew that day was my day, but Leah looked very pretty. She acted happy for me and played the prefect bridesmaid.

At the reception, Sam and me tried talk to her, but she did everything she could to avoid us. She never danced with anyone, just stood there with her brother. I saw my family talked to her and saw the pained expression on her face. My family probably says things like: thanks for introducing the two and sorry Sam wasn't the one for her.

Sam and I left for our honeymoon. Things like me getting sick made it go fast and before we knew it we were at home again and then Jacob's visit.

While Sam was on patrol one night, I decide to read Leah's letter. I made coffee for myself and took it out into the living room. I picked up Leah's letter and tore it open. I started to read it:

Dear Emily,

If you are reading this, then you know I have left La Push. I suspect that you know why I have left.

Em, the moment you choose to accept Sam into your life is the same moment you choose to change our relationship. You couldn't have both of us. At the time, you stole the thing I love the most in the world and I hate you.

I know it's not your fault or Sam's fault, but I can't help but blame you or him. I'm sorry. I wanted more than anything to stay in both of yours life.

But the memories are too painful for me. Every time I go into town or the beach, Memories of Sam and I attack me.

When you asked me to be a bridesmaid, I wanted to beat the shit out of you. I wanted to scream and yelled at you "you have no right to ask me this, especially since you stole the man I love." But I didn't. Somehow I knew my mind Sam and I would never be together, unless he was given permission to tell about the shape shifting qualities of our tribe.

During my time in sam's pack, when you try to reach out to me, I pushed you away. I'm so sorry for that. I should have taken whatever you gave me and let go of sam, but I couldn't.

It was three month before your wedding that I decide to leave. I was finally accepted into a college, in Denver. I wanted to leave then, but I remembered what you had asked me to be a bridesmaid.

I am sorry I blew you off at the reception, but I couldn't take any sorry's from you or sam. I was sick of hearing the word sorry from your mouth or sam's. it was even worse when you father and mother came to talk to me. They told me "'sorry sam wasn't the one for you.'" I wanted to punch both of them in the face, but I didn't. Aren't you proud of me?

Em, I am sorry I never got you tell 'hey I am sorry for the things I did' or stuff. I do love you. And I love sam too. Sorry, but it's the truth. I will never let sam go.

If you ever want to know how I am doing, talk to mom or seth. They will tell you. If you tried to contact me yourself, I might never response. It's better this way.

Emily Uley, I love you and I wish you all the luck in your marriage.

Your Cousin,

Leah Clearwater.

I didn't realize I was crying until I saw a water blob on the page. I put down the letter and put my face in my hands. I let out a sob.

Leah, wherever you are now, I hope you will be truly happy.

A/N: Pleas vote in the poll I have in my profile regarding the sequel to this.