Garcia looked wide eyed at Morgan afraid of what he was going to say, but even more afraid of what he would say when he heard what she had to say.

Morgan pulled Garcia closer to him and kissed her forehead.

"Me first baby, I need to say this, I have needed to say this for so long."

Garcia took a deep breath and nodded her head allowing him to finish.

"Baby Girl you mean everything to me, and I have been lying to you ,,, these past six months have not been casual for me I agreed to that simply because I knew that was all you were willing to give. And I lied saying that's all I wanted. Because Pen I want everything with you. I love you so much and I want you and only you…. I cannot ever imagine being with any other woman for the rest of my life. I thought if it started casual maybe it would naturally blossom but I don't want to wait baby I want you. I need you like I have never needed anyone in my whole life."

By now Penelope was in tears and Morgan pulled her into his lap so that she straddled him. After a few minutes she regained her composure and pulled herself away from Morgan and sat on the coffee table in front of the couch he was sitting on. Morgan reluctantly let her go and waited to hear her reaction.

"Derek I have loved you since the moment I laid eyes on you" Penelope began

Derek smiled and reached out for Penelope. She stopped him and he looked into her eyes confused.

"But…." She said

Morgan cringed when she said it and waited for her to shatter him

" Its too late Derek, A year ago and that confession would have been enough, but too much has happened."

"Pen no…"Derek pleaded

Penelope stood up and looked away from him

"I have waited so long Derek and things are different now, I have moved on."

Derek was now fuming and clenching his fists. " Moved on!! What the hell Pen, what the hell was tonite?"

" Tonite wasn't supposed to happen, I just I don't think straight when I am with you and I didn't…."

Morgan cut her off " Don't you dare Penelope Garcia, don't you dare call it a mistake, we made love, and you were there as much as me, I know you felt the way I did I know you love me and you want me, so what is the problem.?" Morgan was standing in front of her now " Is it this guy from New York? Is that it you found someone new?!"

" This has nothing to do with Martin!" Garcia snapped

" Oh Martin, so he has a name, what exactly happened with you and 'Martin'?" Derek was starting to really lose it and Penelope could tell this was going to worst than she thought.

"Martin is a colleague of Elenas and nothing happened, he showed me around New York and the field office there…."

"He showed you his office, what the hell Pen!"

Penelope sighed " Derek my contract with the FBI is done, I wasn't hired the way you all were, I was given this job and I had to commit to a certain amount of time and was located where the bureau chose in lieu of them not charging me for certain things, you know about the list I was on. Anyway last month that contract was up, and I am free to do as I wish. I was granted a transfer to missing persons in New York where Elana works. It's a good opportunity.."

" You are leaving the BAU Pen?" Morgan was spinning this was getting worst by the minute.

" Derek you need to understand. I have not had a say in my career since it began. This is a big opportunity for me, a chance to start over."

" An opportunity without me right…." Derek walked back to the bedroom and started to get dressed.

"Derek wait…" Penelope was crying again and she grabbed Derek by the waist and pulled him to look at her. Then she noticed the tears in her eyes.

"Derek I love you I do, I just need to go and figure things out for me. I need to try something new. And if you still really want me then one day we will be together again, if its meant to be."

Derek leaned down and kissed Penelope and pulled her tightly against his chest.

" I love you baby I really do."

Penelope was sobbing on his chest "Oh Derek you will find someone I know it. You think this with me is what you want But I think it is just your fear of losing me. When I am gone it will be so much clearer just you wait."

Derek pulled away from her and looked down at her with hurt and pain in his eyes " you really don't get it baby. You really don't see how much I love you" Derek wiped the tears from his eyes. " I will never love another baby girl you are it for me, so you go and do what you think you need to do. But just remember I will be here waiting for you, loving you. All you ever have to do is say the words and I will come to you or for you or whatever you need."

Derek finished getting dressed minus his shirt Pen was wearing. He looked at her standing next to the bed tears streaming down her face. " When do you leave?"

" At the end of the week. The team not even Hotch knows, Strauss has been getting my replacement ready for the last few weeks."

Derek sighed. " Will you say goodbye, or where you just gonna leave?"

Penelope could see the pain in his eyes.

" I am telling the team together in the morning." She whispered

Derek nodded and walked out of the apartment, not even trying to stop the tears streaming down his face. When she heard him start up his truck and leave she collapsed to the floor and allowed the tears to overtake her. She knew it would hurt but never did she think she would feel so broken. It was the right thing to do though. He loved her but he wasn't in love with her. It was better to leave now before he realized the mistake and she would wake up seeing a look of regret on his face. Yes this was better. She would set him free and allow him to find what he really wanted. Because she knew it wasn't her.

TBC