Allright I think we have all had enough of the angst, I really hope this chapter is enjoyed. I promise if you bear with me you will not be disappointed I hope. Once again I own nothing.

" I don't think I understand."

Penelope looked down at the man sitting on the sofa in front of her, he was crushed and it was all her fault. She sighed. Seems she was really on a roll this year.

"Its just not right Martin you know that." She whispered

Penelope took a seat on the couch next to Martin and took his free hand into hers. His other one was still cluthing the velvet ring box he had presented to her just moments ago.

" You didn't even look at the ring," Martin looked up at her with a pained look. Devestated.

" I am sorry, I shouldn't of given you the wrong idea, I wish things were different I really do, but I have to stop lying to you, myself everyone. This is not right Martin and it has never been."

Martin sighed and shoved the ring box in his jacket pocket and squezzed Penelopes hand. " I don not regret anything, even if I didn't get the girl in the end. You were worth it. To of even had been with you for these last few months was a gift, and I love you. If you change your mind…"

'I wont I am sorry, I think you are amazing but its time I stopped running away and face my fears."

"Derek right?"

Penelope gasped, she had never spoken of Derek while in New York.

" You call for him in your sleep sometimes, you know when you have nightmares. I never said anything I guess I didn't want to admit to myself there was someone else"

" Oh Martin I am so sorry it had to end like this. I really never meant to hurt you."

Martin stood up and walked to the door of Penelopes apartment. He turned around and smiled slightly at her "I hope he appreciates what he has, and I honestly wish only happiness for you Penelope. I love you"

Penelope had tears in her eyes as Martin opened the door and walked out of her apartment, and effectively out of her life.

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Meanwhile back in Virginia

" Anyone up for another"

"Yeah I could use another beer Em, I'll give you a hand"

Morgan followed Emily up to the bar. The team was on a rare night out. They all needed a little wind down time after the hectic schedule lately.

"So Morgan hows it going"

Morgan looked over at his friend. In the past year since Pen left Emily had really been there for him. And he was so happy to have her in his life. They had an almost brother/sister relationship with all the bantering and teasing included.

"I'm fine Em"

"Don't I'm fine me, Derek Morgan. She has been gone a year now, and although you have made huge improvements from where you were 6 months ago you are still off Derek and I still think it would help if you went to see someone to talk to, someone outside the team,"

"Talking wont bring her back Em" Derek whispered so softly she almost didn't hear him

"Nothing will hon, look I know its hard but I really think it is time to let go. I wish more than anything she would just come home to you, but as the more time passes the more unlikely that is."

" Have you spoke to her"

Emily sighed, other than JJ nobody has laid eyes on Pen in a year. She never came to Virginia, JJ went to New York a half dozen times to see her, and so that Pen could see her godson, but Pen never came back.

" She sends me an email once in a while but never calls, I get more information from her life from JJ than her."

Derek nodded, he knew JJ and Pen still spoke all the time. It was JJ that told him Pen met someone. It killed him and although he knew JJ only told him so he could do the healthy thing and move on. He wished he didn't know, he needed to hold on to faith that she would come home to him. He contemplated going out to New York to get her but he knew Pen and that would only push her further away. And there was also the fear of rejection.

"JJ met him last month you know"

Derek looked at Emily. He could see the pain in her eyes, the pain she felt for him

"And"

" He is planning on proposing to her hon"

Emily had been holding onto this for a month wondering if she should tell him or not. But with Henrys first birthday coming up, she knew Pen would be coming to Virginia for that, there was no way she would miss that. And neither would Morgan. Emily didn't want him to find out at the party, it was better to warn him.

"Why are you telling me this" he voice was strained and she knew he was holding back tears.

"Shes coming in for Henrys birthday, I thought you should know beforehand. I'm sorry if I overstepped…"

"No Em you were right to tell me. Listen I think I'm gonna call it a night."

"Derek…"

"Please Em I just need some time alone, I'll be allright it just…. It hurts you know?"

"Okay call me tomorrow alright?"

"I will I promise"

Emily watched her friend leave the bar as she walked back to the table and her friends with their drink order. JJ looked up at her "you told him then?"

"Yeah he needed to know"

"Needed to know what." Spence piped up

JJ looked around the table at the rest of the team who had no idea what was going on

"Pens getting married"

The table grew quiet as they all thought about their friend.

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