We ran towards the closing gate. I could tell that both Edward and Jasper were putting off really running. There were two crew men on the outside of the gates. The same ones who were shutting it of course. Just as we were getting up to it, the man locked it and pulled out a gun without any warning.
There was yelling and screaming. Even Alice was shouting at them. And within seconds so was I.
"Shut up!" The man with the gun yelled loud enough so that we could all here, didn't mean that we all listened. "You'll all get out. After first and second class board the life boats then we'll start taking the third class women and children."
"You can't keep us locked up down here like rats!" an Irish accent called from beside us. He was also one of the few at the front of the crowd. I thought that was Edward and Jasper's roommate Emmett. I remember thinking how I had a whole stateroom for two people and they're living space was the size of my bathroom.
The man didn't respond to this. He probably knew that it was wrong. If you wanted to know your place in society, come aboard the R.M.S Titanic. Emmett then moved back behin some people.
"Can't you just break the gate?" I asked Edward in a speaking tone. There was no need to yell at him I knew he could hear me.
"Not here with all these people. I can't expose us like that."
"Anyone who tries to get out gets killed." I noticed that the man didn't seem so calm when he speaking. I wondered if he would actually try to shoot all these people.
"Edward, Jasper!" Emmett shouted from behind us. "Help me lift this!"
They made their way through the crowd and lifted up a small couch that was in the hallway. People started to move out of the way and I followed their lead.
Edward, Jasper, and Emmett ran forward, human speed for Emmett's sake, and rammed the gate. It moved but didn't do anything.
They rammed it twice more before the lock finally gave out and fell to the ground.
"Come on!" Edward shouted at me and I ran.
"Stay back!" The man yelled. Then I heard a smack and his cries of pain. I turned back to see Emmett standing over him and the man on the ground with a swelling head.
We ran up to where the life boats were docking. I could hear the band playing, slowly and sadly.
I was still running what to I didn't know, Edward was leading me.
I was stopped by an arm on my elbow, Ben.
"Come!" he commanded as if I were a dog.
The entire time since I had known him I had always said Yes. Yes Ben, of course...and then I would proceed to do whatever it was that he told me to do. That has been what I did for years. But now it didn't matter. He would die on this ship. Tonight. People like him deserve to die in tragic ways.
"No!" I said coldly. It felt good. I had never said no to anyone to think about it. My mother, my father when he was alive, Ben, anyone who told me to do something Yes. Yes of course...
That had changed now.
He slapped me. Right there in front of everyone.
"Bella now!" He screamed in my face.
"No!" I screamed back in his. Edward had stopped now and was looking at Ben.
Reading his mind I supposed.
"Bella there are only a few life boats left,you have to get on one of them now if you want to live." Edward told me. Yes he told me. But it was for my own safety. Not because he was used to bossing me around.
Ben pulled his gun out and had his finger on the trigger. This time was different. I knew that nothing would happen to Edward if Ben did shoot at him.
"Yeah good luck with that." Edward said responding to one to Ben's thoughts of his death.
Ben was dumbstruck, you could just tell by his expression.
"Come on Bella!" Edward shouted.
I noticed that there were only two left. Alice was standing next to Jasper, fighting him, not wanting to get on the boat.
I did the same when Edward tried to convince me that I should get on the boat.
"No Edward! I'm not getting on without you!" I told him as the second to last was leaving.
Jasper had already put Alice in the boat, forcefully of course.
"Bella you have to go!"
"No!" I was crying my eyes out.
"Bella, I'll be fine! Just go!"
"No!" I said once more as loud as I could.
But the next thing I knew...Edward was putting me in the lifeboat.
I screamed, and yelled at the top of my lungs but Edward payed no attention.
They started to lower the boat.
"Don't worry Bella it'll be alright. I'll see you soon I promise!" were the last words I heard his velvet voice speak.
I turned to Alice who wasn't even crying. She was just looking at the ship sink.
Frozen.
I could only imagine what she was feeling right now.
Tonight she was kiddnapped, nearly killed, shot Jacob, then put in a life boat to wonder what was going to happen.
It was almost 2:05 in the morning when I saw the propellers. I remembered when I had used them as the excuse for my attempted suicide.
"...propellers, propellers and I slipped and I would have gone over board but Mr. Cullen here saved me."
I remembered my words exactly. To think that was only a few days ago. Now I wouldn't have to lean over to see the propellers. I just had to be sitting in a lifeboat at the right time.
"We have to go back!" Alice said her voice weak yet audible.
"No!" the one crew member in our lifeboat said coldly.
"We have to!" she cried with more anger.
"We can't. No sit down and shut up before we throw you out of the boat."
She did as he said, reluctantly.
4:10 in the morning.
That was the time when The Carpathia started to take passengers off the lifeboats.
I looked everywhere, as did Alice. We even asked a few people.
No one had seen Edward or Jasper.
Alice and I were sitting on one of the benches looking out onto the water from which we had just been recused. There were still chunks of ice everywhere.
"I never got to say goodbye." she said suddenly.
"Alice I-"
"He just put me in the life boat, I didn't want to go. If it were up to me I would be with him right now, where ever he is." I just sat and listened.
She didn't seem to be showing much emotion, she just sat staring out at the water as she told me everything.
"I never got to tell him how truly amazing he was."
"I loved him, Bella..." she said turning to look at me for the first time since we had gotten on the life boat.
"...and I never got to say goodbye." she started to cry an I gave her a hug hoping that I wasn't soehow making this all worse.
I remembered the last words Edard had yelled down to me a few hours ago.
"Don't worry Bella it'll be alright. I'll see you soon I promise!"
I silently let a few tears slide down my face.
"...I promise."