HI everyone. I'm here with another update, which I hope y'all will enjoy. Wow, I just noticed that I had a lot of grammatical errors. So, I'll make sure to read over this and look for any errors. Man, it is so cold down here! I'm in the south; it's not supposed to get cold, down in the teens! Lol, but, I'll live. Anyway, I'll get on to the story.

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Chapter 9: Explanation

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"I can't really tell you how much it hurt me to see you run from me. So many people I've loved in the past have run from me, it's made me go crazy with grief. That's when I started drinking."

I looked to her face to see any sign of grief or pity; there was none, thankfully, so I continued.

"I've been a vampire for many years now. I refused to be like so many others I had seen. They always killed their victims; always drunk every last drop. But then I met Kaname," I said warmly.

Though he had taken Yuuki from me, he had given me something in return.

A new life.

"He showed me how to leave just enough blood in my prey so that they would live, but wouldn't remember what had happened," I explained, and waited for her to say something. But she didn't. She only stared at me.

"I'm not really good with people, that's why I stay away from them most of the time. But, when you showed up on my doorstep, with your whole body dripping wet, I couldn't turn you away. I just wanted someone to talk to again. Someone that would listen to me and not judge me for what I am."

I turned away, and swallowed. I hated talking about my nature. It usually scared people off. But, if Anamane were to leave me, I wouldn't stop her, though I would greatly want to. I saw her shiver out of the corner of my eye and shrugged out of my jacket and offered it to her. She took it and wrapped it around her shaking form.

"So, why did you run away from home?" she whispered.

I sighed. I hadn't explained that to anyone in so long that I had almost forgotten myself. But, deep down I knew why, though I hated to admit it.

"Do you remember when we first arrived to the house in Okinawa, and you asked why had a replica of my old house, and I replied that I knew what it was like not to be wanted somewhere?"

She nodded.

"I know what it's like when no one believes you, and you have nowhere else to go, and so you run," I said, quoting my earlier words.

"Well, no one at home did want me. I was different than everyone else in my family. You see, my mother and father died when I was very young, before I got a chance to know them. So I went to stay with some distant relatives of mine. They were rich and snobby people, who only cared about what they could get from someone. I stayed there and endured there name calling and teasing. But I knew that I was different. I was paler than them, and I liked the smell of blood. I never told anyone that though, because then they would think I was even stranger than they already thought I was. But, one day, my cousin, Oji, was playing outside with a knife he had stolen from a little boy in the streets."

I exhaled. Anamane was only the third person who I had ever told this too. It was still hard for me to talk about.

"If you want to stop, you can," Anamane said, trying to spare me the ghosts of my past. I smiled.

"No, I want you to know. Well, I was outside with him as well, just smelling some of the flowers that were out in their garden. I turned when I heard Oji cry out and rushed over to him to see if I could help him any. And that's when I saw the blood. It was all over his right hand, and the smell of it entranced me so that I snatched his hand up and sunk my teeth in, my fangs elongating to accommodate my thirst. I hadn't even known I had fangs," I laughed a little, remembering.

"But, I couldn't stop dirking. Even when his mother came out and screamed, even when his brothers started to beat on me with different objects, I couldn't stop. I felt him go limp in my hands, and looked up to see his face pale as snow and his body immobile. That's when I ran away, and somehow I found myself at Cross Academy, and I got to know Yuuki and Kaname. And soon we became friends, and everything was better."

I sighed heavily as I got done with my tragic tale.

"If you want to go now that you know what I am, I won't blame nor stop you," I barely said above a whisper.

I felt a light hand on my shoulder and turned to see Anamane looking at me with unshed tears in her eyes.

"Oh, Zero, you must have been so alone," she whispered, and laid her head on the back of my shoulder. My body stiffened in reaction to that, but I couldn't let her know how much she turned me on with just the slightest touch; that would sure as hell scare her away.

"Hai, Anamane-chan, I was. But, so were you. For a long time."

A cry escaped her lips and I quickly turned around and held her in my embrace, letting my arms encircle her small waist and hold her to me.

"Looks like we're one in the same," she mumbled, just too where I could hear it. I sighed.

"Yeah, I guess we are. So, do you wish to stay with me so I can help you fulfill your quest?" I asked. Bringing up her quest did nothing to stop the ache in my heart, but I had to know if she would stay or not. But, helping her find someone to love that was actually worthy of her love would not be easy.

Anamane was silent for a moment, and then she raised her head and said, "Hai, Zero-kun, I would like to stay with you."

I inwardly sighed.

"Good. Now, we should get you home. But first, sit tight. I have to go and get something and I'll be right back."

She nodded and I quickly flashed to the bar that we had been at. I went back stage to where Davien still lay, undiscovered. I rummaged around until I saw her clothes and the dagger slightly sticking out of one pocket. I picked up her garments and looked at the blood on the floor from Davien.

I licked my lips.

Then shook my head.

I could wait a few more days until I needed more blood. I would just have to kick up my alcohol.

I flashed back to Anamane and saw her curled up on the bench, sleeping like a baby. I smirked at her still childish ways. The wind picked up and I saw her shiver under my coat. I picked her up and draped her clothes over her, to keep her warm until we got back to the house.

I flashed there to save time from walking in the cold. I laid her down on my bed, and gazed at her lovely for a few moments longer. She was so beautiful. I hated the fact that I would have to find another man that would think the same way as me, that would actually get to make love with her, talk with her as I had.

I clinched my fist.

If it meant I would get to spend a few more weeks with her, and to see that she was happy, then I could do it.

But damn if my heart wouldn't be broken by the end of it.

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A/N: And, there is that chapter! Poor Zero! Anyway, review and tell me what you think please. :^^ Au revoir for now!

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